Mar 291942
 

Sunday
c/o Mrs Reid, Gilcomston Park, Aberdeen
Darling,
We made it, pal. We made it. But only just. We left Royal Arthur at 7pm on Friday. The train left prompt at 8.25 and we eventually arrived at our billets here at 8.10pm Saturday, which explains why I didn’t write last night. But let me start at the beginning.
Everything went swimmingly until we got to Berwick. There had been an air raid warning sometime during the night, although we did not realise it when we were all having a nark with one stupid lad in our carriage who would insist on keeping his blind up after dark. Had we known that then he would have been smacked well and truly under the chin, as one or two of the lads threatened to do. We were lucky in the travelling arrangements. We did not have to leave the train once between Skegness and Edinburgh. There were about 100 of us all told when we left and we dropped the first contingent, bound for Ayr, at Newcastle. Then when we got to Berwick we found that part of the track had been slightly damaged during the raid and that there had been a slight accident somewhere else. That meant we had to go all round the world to reach Edinburgh where we were due for breakfast at 8am. We eventually got there about 10.30am and dashed off for breakfast, our meal on the train having consisted of corned beef sandwiches, a slab of ration chocolate, and a packet of biscuits. We had to wait then until 2pm for a train to Aberdeen and eventually arrived here at 6 o’clock. Then we had to be sorted out into different parties for billeting purposes, listen to a little homily on good behaviour from the Master at Arms, unload hammocks and kit bags from the train, take them on to different lorries in correct order and tour Aberdeen dropping about 20 fellows at a dozen different houses. I am in a billet with Percy and we were next to last to be dropped so, as I say, it was about 8 o’clock when we eventually sat down to a meal. The house, like almost all of Aberdeen, is built of granite and would be considered quite a substantial house in Liverpool. The rooms are big and kept spotlessly clean although the old lady and her married daughter who run it are not so spotless in their own personal appearance. The food is not fancy, but so far there has been plenty of it. We certainly cannot complain of quantity, but the place seems to be run on a commercial basis. There are about 16 fellows in the house, of whom 13 are sailors, one an A.F.S. man and the others civvies. One of the snags, as you can imagine, is the bathroom etc, which is all in one room. I can see there being a real rush in the mornings when everyone has to be out about the same time.
There are two separate colleges, one for operators and one for mechanics. Ours is the furthest away and we will have to be out before 8 o’clock to start at 8.30 and go on until 5pm. We can get a bus at the end of the road and one big advantage is that members of the services only have to pay a penny on any Corporation service, no matter how far they may travel. That is an excellent arrangement as if the fares were heavy we should have to face half an hour’s walk four times a day. We went along to the school today, were sorted out into classes and had all sort of particulars noted, age, religion, are you T.T. etc.
Then we had to march a mile or so to see the doctor. When we got there we filed into a passage, a sick bay steward came out, asked if anybody was ill or wanted to see the doctor and showed the rest of us out into the street. That was the medical exam here, but quite the best way of doing it as we saw the doc at Skegness on Friday morning. Then on to the dentist who takes his job very seriously and who found work to be done on fellows who had been passed as dentally fit at Skeg. He told me to see him again in eight weeks. When we came out of there we only had time to walk back for dinner. This afternoon we met some of the lads and took a bus to a place called Duthie Park where a lovely new bridge, which later proved to be one of the show places of the city, spans the River Dee. The scenery is marvellous here. Real salmon river and marvellous hills, some of which are still snow-crowned. All the way up in the train it was the same and, long though the journey was, it went more easily than I had hoped.
As to Aberdeen itself I still have an open mind which is likely to be affected by two main issues: the question of leave and whether or not we get a tobacco allowance. There is disquieting news, or rather, rumour about the leave question. The fellows in our billet are for the most part wireless mechanics and they take an entirely different course, but they have had no leave whatever since they joined the Navy and they all came here from Skegness! They say that so far as they know there is no leave from Aberdeen until the end of the course – that is 18 weeks from now. Apparently what happens is that we do a day’s training in small arms tomorrow and then start our course on Tuesday. There is a one-day break on Easter Monday, not Good Friday, and then the course goes on steadily 8.30 to 5 (and 8.30 to 12.30 Saturdays) for a full 18 weeks. There are successive examinations after 5, 12, and 18 weeks when certain speeds have to be reached and to pass you have to attain 90% marks! Which looks as if the standard is high. Lads here say so far as they know the course in Aberdeen consists of Morse and similar subjects almost entirely and that little, if any, technical training is done here. After 18 weeks, if we pass out, we get leave and are transferred to another camp, possibly at Lee-on-Solent in the far south of England, or at Ayr, north of Glasgow. Doesn’t life seem rosy! I must confess that I don’t like the news I have heard from the fellows here but, as I say, they are wireless mechanics and not operators. Still, there is no doubt that the tendency is to tighten up all round on the question of leave. For instance, had I joined up just a month earlier, I should have got a leave after being six weeks at Skegness. In the middle of January the rule was changed from six weeks to eight weeks. We had been at Skegness, as you know, nearly seven weeks when we moved, which would have meant a weekend next week or the week after had we stayed there. I rather think there must be a Jonah aboard! Anyway, the whole question will be solved tomorrow when we will get a chance of asking someone in authority and as soon as I know I’ll let you know.
Well, darling, I’m going to rush this away now for the post and I’m hoping to ring you up during the evening. I do hope the forebodings about leave are all wrong, but if they prove to be right we will just have to lump it and settle down to wait for the end of July to come round. What an awful distance that appears to be. July! And yet I seem to have been away so long now that I’m almost becoming inured to it. It seems a lifetime since I saw you last.
All my love, precious, and, even if it is a long time to leave, look after yourself because I shall want you more than ever then. Night night, sweetheart. I love you. Ever your own,
Arthur X
P.S. Will you send my pyjamas and some writing pads, please? I don’t think there is any need to address me as O/Tel here. I think you can make it “Mr”.

Mar 301942
 

Monday
Aberdeen
Sweetheart,
Before anything else, many, many thanks for two comforting long letters. One of 10 pages and one of 18 pages! I am going to have a lot of arrears to make up in the next few days. Yes, your letters did arrive on Monday and I got it almost a quarter of an hour before we finished for the day. What really annoyed me was that I had to wait a couple of hours before I could begin to read it and it was only after a couple of efforts that I was able to read it right through uninterruptedly. You don’t know what it meant to me to think of you sitting down writing a letter which you did not know would eventually reach me at the first possible minute, as it did do. You are an angel and some time this week I hope to be able to deal with all the arrears of letters to you.
Now, for a moment, let us be sternly practical on the question of leave. This morning the matter was raised with the Master at Arms who made the position quite clear. There is NO leave from here. There are no long weekends. Ordinary weekend leave (Saturday afternoon after school to Monday morning, 8.15) will be granted occasionally only to men living in Scotland. The routine is that we do a full course of 17 weeks here and then, if we pass out, we get leave for seven clear days (apart from travelling time). Instead of reporting back here, we go to some other place for eight weeks’ training and then get another full week’s leave. That means that in ten weeks we get two lots of seven days, so looking into the future that’s fine, but I would like some now, just as much as you would. In some ways I would like it more than you would. You see my desires are so much more obvious than yours. I’m beginning to think there must have been something in that bromide business at Skegness because my desire for you has been far more physically evident today than at any time since I left home. At other times, as I think I may have mentioned to you occasionally, I have had a faint (!!!) spiritual desire for you and, every now and again, a movement of the upper portions of the bellbottoms has indicated a certain physical desire for you, but today I have been just one long ache for you. I am now, darling, and my desire just at this very moment is with the whole of my body, from my head to my toes and also with the whole of my mind and spirit. Darling, I love you so much that the next four months are going to be the hardest in my life. Thank God you ARE you and that I shall be faithful physically and mentally to you. Perhaps mentally is more important although so few people realise it. And it is comforting to know that, no matter what may come, we will be true to those things we have believed in since we were married and realised our complete dependence on each other. Darling, I have often said I would swing for you, and I would, several times over because I should have nothing else to live for.
Now, I said I was going to be sternly practical – well, I am. You’ve probably heard there was a bit of a “do” at St Lazaire. And, I think, you probably realise the Navy had a hand in it. We have felt the repercussions up here. Everyone in the establishment has got to take a hand in coastal defence, even our blokes, who previously were regarded as non-combatant. While we are in training here we’ve got to do our stuff. Percy has command of two field guns and he’s never seen anything like them before. I’m in a different class to him now, for schooling purposes, and our mob have been allocated to the lighter stuff – rifles, tommy guns and machine guns. We have been using them all today and will have one day a week on them. Reason: people high up have the jitters that Jerry may try a reprisal raid. I don’t think so, but they are taking no chances and this, of course, is the attitude they should have adopted ages ago, as I always said. Now they are just beginning to say officially “every man must learn to use arms, even if he never needs to use them”. Now all this rigmarole means that behind the new orders which rob you and I of our own personal pleasures and desires in the midst of what is supposed to be total war there is at least the glimmerings of a determination to do something definite and, at the same time, to leave nothing to chance here, as we have done since the war began.
What is more, young woman, I am paying you the compliment of telling you all this in the full knowledge that you are not going to panic over it and imagine me in the front line immediately. I shall not be. Only if things get really sticky will I be called on and I should be called on in any case if real trouble broke out, no matter where I might be. The only difference is that, even after today’s training, I know a little more about things and would therefore be a little more help, directly, to you and the children than in the days when I used to wander between Morningside and the ‘Daily Post’. I still dislike war as wholeheartedly as ever I did, but I dislike even more the idea of becoming a sitting target for some bloke with a tommy gun. I had enough of that business of sitting down and taking it when the raids on Liverpool were at their height. Anyway, that is the leave problem as it stands now, and the apparent explanation for the change in procedure.
There was a minor outbreak of meningitis here some weeks ago and one fellow who was in hospital for two months was given a fortnight’s leave. He returned today after one week because he was afraid he might miss a class! There’s no need to say he was both young and single.

Tuesday
When I found I was going to miss the post I thought I might as well hold this back until tonight as I doubt whether it would have reached you any sooner. The mails from here are apparently not too hot. There is only one collection on a Sunday and that is at 9pm so I doubt if you would get my letter until this morning. Let me know if it arrived on Monday will you?
On Sunday we found a Services Club on the main street in Aberdeen and joined at the enormous expense of 1/2 for a year. There is no bar so you need not fear the worst, but there are two lounges, with piano and radio, a reading and writing room where I’m writing this, a couple of small games rooms and a dining room where meals are served quickly, cheaply and in pleasant surroundings. A big improvement from the point of view of comfort on the YMCA and NAAFI places. Meals seem quite good although I don’t buy anything out. Some of our fellows do, however, and here are two sample meals: (1) Two cups of tea, sausage and chips, bread and butter – 8d; (2) Two cups of tea, sausage and bacon (good helping), bread and butter – 10d. Those are reasonable enough, aren’t they? More important than these things to me is the fact that there’s a telephone in the club. On Sunday night I tried to get through at seven o’clock and was continually called by the operator who kept telling me what the delay on the line was until eventually I got through. That would have been pretty well impossible in an ordinary call box for I would have had to be hanging about the street for three hours.
Our digs are decent enough in a way, but there is no common room with a fire, nor is there a fire in our own room. As we have no table in the room either, the Club makes an ideal place for us in the evenings and we have already introduced quite a lot of our fellows to it. It is light, warm and cheerful and the small membership charge is sufficient to keep the real crowds away, although Sunday is a pretty busy day. All this to show you where I spend my leisure time.
We began our course today by being taken to a civilian school where we will stay for a fortnight, just to familiarise us with the tapper and to give those who don’t already know it a chance to learn the code. As you know, I haven’t done any for ages and was pretty rusty, but it gradually came back and the instructor, a decent laddie who was for years confidential telegraphist at Balmoral when the King was in residence, had me at the key sending to the rest of the class for a time. If I can only keep up top like that I shall be O.K., but I have my doubts for I suspect one or two of the lads, particularly one who was in the Post Office in peacetime, of hanging back for bets. Still, I’m hoping that when the time comes I shall be able to hold my own.
There has been more information regarding the leave. This comes confidential-like from Percy who had to go into the office today and saw some documents there. We are scheduled, at the moment, to leave here on July 27 and are to report to HMS Scotia, Ayr, on August 8. Percy has worked it out into the number of days! As we have to face the prospect of a wait, it is nice to have some idea of a definite date and if we stick to schedule, we should be home for the Bank Holiday, if that means anything more than a normal week. Any time with you is going to be a gala week, sweetheart. Have you realised, by the way, that when I do come home I will be replete with teeth? If these new duties we have to perform mean a lot of gas mask drill I might even touch the Navy for a new pair of frames for my glasses. There are special frames with flat side pieces for use with respirators as the broad horn-rimmed ones allow gas to seep in through the sides.
There are a few things I would like you to send me at the first chance you get. Chief of them are my black swimming costume and a metal cigarette case. The leather case doesn’t hold very many and there should be somewhere at home a square silver one which holds 8 or 9 cigarettes on each side. If you can find it, will you send that one please? I want the bathing costume because we are forced to go for a shower bath every Friday morning and while we are there may also go for a swim at a charge of 2d. We can get slips there, but I prefer my costume. Will you see that the moths have not attacked any vulnerable places? I’d hate to give the lads a treat! As we are going to be here for the summer, we might get some quite nice bathing as a cheap way of spending the weekends.
Did I ever tell you, by the way, that wives of service men can travel at cheaper rates by producing their allotment book at the railway station? It’s as well to know these things in case you do decide to go away for a weekend at any time.
When I was mentioning things to send on, I forgot to include my tapper set. I wonder if you could get it to Bert at Litherland some time and ask him to send it on to me? He probably has more materials for packing it safely and it must be very carefully packed because if that valve goes I’ll be sunk. It’s almost impossible to get another these days. No offence, love, but as I say, Bert probably has proper packing stuff.
Must get this away now, precious, as the lad is waiting to collect the mail from this club.
All my love, sweetheart. I’ll write again tomorrow and by the end of the week should catch up with the gap the move has made in letters. Night night, my love. I still love you perhaps more than ever through this damned leave business. Look after yourself and try not to get too depressed. Remember I still love you.
All my love. Always yours,
Arthur X

Apr 011942
 

Wednesday
Aberdeen
Darling,
There is an accumulation of your letters to be answered and I’m going to try to answer several of them tonight, but not the two long ones with all their lovely passages or I will go into a coma again and never get anything written. There has been a big enough gap in my letters as it is. By the way, I catch the 9pm post each day. Will you try to let me know when you get my letters? I’m afraid there’s likely to be quite a gap from the time they are written until they reach you. There is no possible chance of writing during the day here so I cannot get them into the post any earlier.
I have just re-read about five of your letters and you set me longing to see 45 again with all your descriptions of the advent of spring and the departure of the blackouts. How I should have loved to see those daffs with the sunshine on them in the hall. We went out to a park on Sunday, as I think I told you, and saw great bunches of daffs growing. They did remind me of you. To get back to the blackouts. I found them the most depressing part of life in the lovely summer days when I was at home. It will be the height of summer when I do get leave and the thought of walking into a light house makes the prospect even more delightful. You have done well, sweet.
Now about insurance. You say you have to put 5/9 a week away. I make it 5/10. I’m not quibbling, but as you asked me, there it is! About money in general, don’t forget to cash those postal orders. They’ll be invalid if you keep them too long. Cash them and bank the money. You are quite right about the phone. If the Special Grants people check up in a few months you want to make a point, without stressing it too much, of letting them know that you are economising where you can. I thought the electric bill very reasonable for the winter quarter. It was less than you expected, wasn’t it? You ask in two of your letters if I am bored with your little domestic bulletins. Darling, as if I could be when I sometimes stop dead in the middle of the day to wonder what you are doing. Every little thing about home helps me to feel a little less isolated from you. One point does worry me, though. In re-reading your letters I found that in about every one of them there was a reference to Michael either being naughty or else to his being ill. Poor old girl, you’re having a thin time, aren’t you? I do wish I was at home with you when I read those incidents. I could at least guarantee that there would be less to worry you. I hope he has improved both in temper and in health. I worry about you a lot on this score.
While I remember it, do you think you could pay special attention to my clothes? Don’t let the moths get at them will you, sweet? New things are going to be so expensive when the war is eventually ended.
Now, about Wendy’s birthday. I’ll do my best to telephone (you haven’t told me yet when the phone will be cut off!) some time on Monday evening before she goes to bed. I can’t make any promises so don’t say anything to her because the phones are likely to be mad busy then with it being Bank Holiday. I got a card for her before I left Skegness so as to be certain of having one and I’ll post it some time Saturday. That should make sure of it arriving. What have you done about a present? I hope you have been able to manage something for her. I’m looking forward to hearing how the day goes off. I hope you’ll be able to manage them all and how I do wish I could be there.
Have you heard anything from the school yet? If not I should go along and see them on the day they re-open after the holiday.
Well, darling, I think that covers all the points in several of your letters. I hate leaving items unanswered. Once again, many many thanks for your long letters. They gave me new life. Oh my darling I love you so much that these last few days have been very trying but gradually I have got a grip of myself and have now disciplined myself to face the inescapable fact of no leave. It’s not been a cheerful business and I have no doubt I shall have lapses, but in the meantime I’m forcing myself to work hard. The point is that to get leave I have to pass the final exam and if I allow myself to be distracted too much now by the immediate prospect it might make all the difference between getting through and failing. So I’m working hard. We have started our actual course as I think I told you last night and so far it has not been too bad, largely because we can more or less please ourselves here. It will be different, far different when we go to the other college in a couple of weeks’ time. By the way, we go to school on Good Friday here. The Scots don’t observe it as a holiday. That will seem strange to most of our lads.
I’m going to close now, darling, to get this into the post so you should have a reasonable letter delivery this week. Writing is much more of a problem here than at Skegness. Precious, I do love you and think of you at lots of odd moments trying to think what you will be doing. And I see you in my mind’s eye and mentally  follow your every movement, some of them so characteristic of you. I’m in that mood tonight when, as I think you wrote in one letter, I just want to say “I love you, I love you” over and over again. Because, amazing as it may seem, I do you know. Yes, darling, I love you but now I must go and post this or you may not know that for another twelve hours! Just as if!
All my love, angel. I’m all yours. Night night.
Arthur X

Apr 021942
 

Thursday
Aberdeen
Sweetheart,
I have just been doing some washing – my blue jeans and a pair of socks – and that has made a hole in the evening so I’m afraid this will be rather a short note, especially as I want to drop a line to the children. It’s ages since I wrote them and your letter with their notes arrived today. You say you didn’t get my letter until Tuesday. It was posted by the only Sunday collection there is, 9pm, and yet was postmarked Monday morning. That must mean there is no sorting done on Sundays here. I have only received one of the letters you sent to the R.N. unit so far, but the others will probably be at the other school and nobody has been down there for mail today. Someone will go definitely tomorrow.
As usual school did not go too well today. I always think that things seem to go best on the first day. After that it may be that the novelty wears off or enthusiasm flags, but you seem to go off a bit. No doubt it will improve again later on.
Well, sweet, I must get on to the children’s letters or I will miss the post.
All my love, darling. I’ll try to write more tomorrow. Cheer up, sweetheart, one of the 17 weeks ends tomorrow and the second begins on Saturday.
All the same, I wish it was the last week in July!
Bye till tomorrow, precious. I still love you. Amazing, isn’t it?
Ever your own,
Arthur X

Dear Wendy,
Thank you very much for the letter you sent me. The postman brought it while I was at school and when I came home for dinner it was waiting on a table in the hall for me. Has Mummy told you that I go to school now? Do you remember my tapper thing? Well, every day I play with one of those at school. I can still spell your name and Michael’s name on it. So you had tea with Nanna by the fire, did you? Wasn’t that nice! I am so glad Margaret is back from hospital and that she is quite better now. You WERE a good girl to give Jennifer your tiny dolly. Did you like going to Freshfield with Valerie? I do want to come home soon to see all the surprises there are and to see the new curtains Mummy has put on the windows. But I don’t think I can come home for four months because I have a lot to learn yet and I can’t come home until I know all my lessons.
I had not forgotten it is your birthday on Monday. I do hope you have a nice party, pet, and I wish I could be there to have some of your cake. When you see Cynthia will you tell her that Daddy sends his love?
This is all for now, Wendy, because I have to hurry to catch the post.
Love from
Daddy
P.S. Is your cold getting better? I hope it is.

Dear Michael,
Thank you very much for your long letter which the postman brought at dinner time today. Wasn’t Uncle Durham good to send you all that chocolate? So you have been working with Mummy in the allotment, have you? That is a good boy. You know while I am away I want you to be the Daddy and to look after Wendy and help Mummy all you can. That is what all big boys do, you know, and you are getting a big boy now, aren’t you?
The nights are not so dark now, are they, and I’m glad you can play out after tea. You used to do that last summer, didn’t you? I will come home as soon as I can and see your nice settee in the bedroom. Teddy will look nice sitting on there. Tiger will be a big cat now and should catch some of the mice to stop them eating our peas. I’m glad you can put your shoes and socks on by yourself. Can you dress yourself without mummy helping you? You should be able to now, shouldn’t you? Has the doctor made your cough quite better? I hope so.
Will you tell Mummy that while I was washing my sailor’s collar in the kitchen I saw a parrot in a cage and he said to me, “Hello McGregor. Hurry up.” There is also a little tiny Persian kitten here. Do you remember how little Tiger was when I brought him home? Well, he is as small as that and he chased a piece of tape I have on my collar.
I think that is all I have to say tonight. Goodnight, son, and be a good boy and look after Mummy while I am away, won’t you?
Love from
Daddy

Apr 031942
 

Good Friday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
First of all many thanks for your letter which arrived at dinner-time and the parcel which came at tea-time. As you say, there was a note in it! And that being so, let me get down to the main item at once. I can’t honestly say that your “threat” was unexpected, but there were several difficulties in the way so far as I could see, the chief one being the children and finance and in truly typical feminine fashion you ignore both of them. I’d be glad of some information on both of those points! I’m not raising difficulties but these problems are important, particularly the one about the children because, as you no doubt realise, we are going to set a precedent that may have repercussions later on. I know you won’t think I’m pouring cold water on the issue – if you saw the state of my bellbottoms just at this moment you certainly wouldn’t – but before you actually commit yourself in any direction let me know your ideas, won’t you.
On the money side of things, don’t forget that all the cash we have is what you have and we are not likely to be able to add to that while the war is on and at the moment this looks like being another Hundred Years War. I will eventually get some leave, you know, and we could do with a few spare bob for then. Anyway I have no doubt your letter discussing all these points fairly fully will be here in a day or two. Just to show how much I expected this proposition from you, I can tell you I had thought of all the points you suggest some days ago! And, young woman, I’m going to do nothing at all about it for at least ten days or a fortnight. The reason is this. At the moment we are attending a civilian wireless college at the opposite end of the town from the naval training centre which is called Torry. Now we don’t start at Torry for about another ten days but it is from there that I will have to get permission to leave Aberdeen for the weekend. As we have only been there for one day so far I propose to leave this matter until I find my way round a bit. I have asked one or two fellows in our billet about the matter before you announced your intention of forcing your company on me(!) and the only result was a welter of confusing statements similar to those we had in Skeg on all sorts of subjects. This time I propose to find out definitely for myself. And at that I think we had best leave the matter. Oh no, there is one point. I was thinking in terms of Whit weekend. You see this week church parade is voluntary and school is closed on Monday – we have been at school all day Good Friday – so that we are free from Saturday afternoon until Tuesday morning. If the same position arises during Whit we would have three nights together in which case something else MIGHT arise! Could you guarantee it, do you think? I wonder! No I don’t, you’ve done it already. There must have been bromide in something at Skegness. Don’t worry about the mountainside sweetheart, this place is lousy with them, but don’t forget the evidence, will you?
Another thought has just occurred to me. Have you enquired the fare for the children? I was thinking that if it is fairly reasonable and we could find somewhere fairly cheap you might all come up for ten days – giving us ten smashing nights and two weekends. I might be able to find a little place within bus distance which would make it worth the risk of sleeping away from my billet, although I would have to go there for dinner each day. Anyway, think that over and let me know what your ideas are. If the extra fares are reasonable, it might be worth while because I don’t suppose the cost of the children’s digs would be very great and I should only have breakfast and tea. Don’t forget that I have to be at school at 8.15 so there will be little chance of really late nights during the week – such as pictures etc – but it would make a good break for you. Another point: ask Eric if there is any likelihood of him coming to Scotland any time. Anywhere in Scotland would do if he was here during a weekend, as he might easily be in the course of the summer. It’s worth saving £3-15 if you can, you know. Anyway, make your mind up to the fact that we will have to wait five or six weeks, but with something like definite date that won’t be so bad as the wretched uncertainty and fluctuating hopes and fears of the last three weeks. Still another reason for waiting that long: in four weeks we have our first exam and, if we fail in that we are bound for Skeg poste haste and the stoke-hold of a ship about five weeks later! I don’t think we dare risk the distraction of your lovely self in that period. Sweetheart, I don’t know what I’ll do when I see you. Probably crush you to death. My darling you are doing things to me at long range. And what things. The Sundays you mentioned when I followed you all round the house were child’s play to what will happen when I come home for seven full days. Nice, glorious, heavenly as this weekend will be, it won’t be quite the same as good old 45 where the whole atmosphere is permeated by you.
Sweetheart, I have fought hard to keep myself in hand and sometimes I have felt almost unfaithful to you by being so ruthless and almost callous with my feelings towards you, but if I had done otherwise I should have gone to pieces. I feel I owe it to you and to myself to get through this course successfully and your distracting self helps not at all, damn you. You make it twice as hard but I love you for it. Thank God I have never felt, as one of the fellows here says he feels, that if he had to start again he wouldn’t get married because of all the little things he has had to give up. Darling you are a pest, but such an adorable pest. Tell me, by the way, how vapours will fit in with Whit! All I know is that had I come home this week it would have been ideal, but beyond that I’m all at sea. Can you give me two sets of barred dates – you know the sort of thing, say 16–20 April and 20–26 May or however the confounded things work out. As a married man of five-and-a-half years standing – I like that word – I never can work it out.
Well, precious, here goes another letter and I’ve not even begun to answer so many of your letters. I got the two addressed to the R.N. unit today after they had lain at least two days at Torry; another letter at dinner time and a note in a parcel at tea. My lucky day, isn’t it? I feel I have you all about me today. What a lovely aura you have, darling. So comforting, so warm, so permanent. One of the nicest things about having married you is the feeling that always and forever you are there waiting for me. Darling, the thought of it makes me positively conceited. Just now, talking to you, I feel as rested as I used to do when, on Saturday or Sunday, I leaned against your knees, or laid my hand in your lap, or cushioned my face against your breasts. Oh, precious, there never was a phrase quite so expressive as “sweet con”. That’s what I am now and there is a little pulse in John beating steadily because of you, just as if he were ticking off the seconds until he meets Mary again. What a glorious reunion that will be. We’ll need stacks of evidence. Lorry loads of it. My precious, I can feel a coma mood just on the horizon so I must stop. When I look up from this writing table the lads are beginning to wonder what is the matter with me. To think none of them can feel about anybody else as I feel about you. The poor eternally damned souls. Now I MUST stop.
I’m posting Wendy’s card tonight to make sure it arrives on Monday. I forgot about Mother’s birthday, and couldn’t get a wire away. Hope you sent a family card. Now about all your other letters. I’ll never be able to catch up with them I’m sure, so if there any immediate points you want answering which I don’t deal with in the next week, will you make a list of them in one of your letters? Do you know I’ve written to nobody but Dot and Mother since I left Skeg. Has Eric got this address?
Two minutes for the post. Thanks for Durham’s letter. Bye now, sweetheart. Need I tell you I love you? Damn you. All my love, ever and ever,
Arthur X

Apr 041942
 

Saturday
Aberdeen
Darling,
As you will see from the date I’m making a start on this on Saturday and will get it into the post tomorrow. By the way, will you making a habit of dating your letters so that if I get behind in answering them I can sort them into their proper order? I’ve been re-reading some of your recent letters – lovely reading, darling, despite the disappointment of leave – and it has passed a happy, very happy hour. Now I’m going to try to be prosaic in this letter and answer some of the points which cropped up in those of your letters I have just been reading. But before I do that, WHEN DOES THE PHONE GO? My God, if I’ve asked that once I’ve asked it 10,000 times. Well, perhaps not that often, but quite a few times, anyway. Will you, could you would you PLEASE let me know?
You ask about the three leave vouchers before October. One will be used in July and another about the beginning of October, but don’t forget that leave in wartime is very chancy, as we have already discussed. They don’t pretend to guarantee anything. A pal of Harry Forman’s joined the Navy, went to Skegness, was sent from there to a base for training as a stoker and found himself on a ship without even a weekend leave. He went to Africa and the Mediterranean and arrived home more than 18 months later. What do you think of that?
From this point on this letter is likely to be very jumpy. About the bike, can’t you arrange for it to break down if you think it’s doing Michael harm? Is there any chance of Vic getting a couple of knock-off tins or pots of jam FOR ME? The jam ration seems a funny business and soon goes and since I have been drinking so little I’m developing a sweet tooth! By the way, I don’t expect you to sacrifice any of yours. If you do that I really will be annoyed. I don’t want to develop the frame of mind one gets with Mother – you know what I mean, where one gets afraid to mention a thing for fear it arrives by return of post! Do be sensible about this, love.
I’m glad Wendy is making friends of her own and that you were able to get over the situation without any lasting impression on Michael. He will soon be going places without Wendy and they may both be better for developing their own individual interests. Watch the Savage boys and at the slightest sign of trouble, see them off. That is part of our house, not a public thoroughfare. Townsend is a pest not fixing that gate. One of the very last thing I did was to mention it to the Townsend who used to collect the rent. I met him a day or two before I came away in the Blundellsands and I think I told you about it at the time. I was interested in the point you made about the children being afraid you might go away too. It is quite an understandable fear. Sometimes I wonder if they do miss me. I don’t think they feel any real sense of loss while you are there. Most probably know I’m no longer in the house, but I doubt if they really miss me. Just now they are so busy absorbing new impressions and new ideas, that their own joys and fears probably fill the whole of their horizon.
No, Percy is not married. Too damn self-centred and realises it, I think. Hates babies, too. I remember someone like that!
Some day soon I’ll try to give you a timetable of the day here. It’s quite different from Skegness. Perhaps I can do it now. This, of course, refers at the moment to the civilian college. We get up about 8 and get to a place called Holborn Junction for 9.15 when we fall in and march to the college about three or four minutes away. Why we can’t walk there and back I don’t know. Holborn, by the way, is just over five minutes walk from our billet. At 11.15 we have a stand-easy and can buy a cup of tea and a cake. At 12.15 we march back to Holborn, dismiss and go for lunch, returning there at 1.45. In the afternoon we have a stand-easy at 3.45, more tea, and finish at 5pm. Again we march to Holborn and dismiss. We are then finished for the day but by the time we reach the digs, clean ourselves up and and have tea, it’s getting on for 7 o’clock. Then we have to go to the Club if we hope to get our letters written peacefully. As the last collection is at 8.30 there is very little time, as you will see. Then back home, wash, shave and clean our boots ready for morning and it’s 11 o’clock by the time we are in bed. That is how the day goes by. In addition to that, we have to report at Holborn at 9 o’clock on Friday mornings, march to the baths – the biggest and newest indoor baths in Great Britain – and have a hot shower and swim (if we wish) and be dressed and in the street by 9.45. Not much time to dawdle there, is there?
When we go to Torry, however, we will have to be at school at 8.15 and the journey takes about 25 minutes. The rest of the timetable will be the same except that we will have to be at the baths at 7am. Not a nice thought, although we are allowed until 9.30 to get home for breakfast and get to school. Some of the fellows in our billet make a habit of reaching the baths at 6.30 and leaving earlier so as to have a good break after breakfast. It also means breakfast – which in Scotland consists of salted porridge and rolls – is hot when you get it. Well that gives you an idea of our day. We can come in when we like and, as far as I know, there is no check on whether or not we sleep at the billets. There would be a row, of course, if we changed billets without permission.
As to Aberdeen itself, I’m beginning to get acclimatised. For some time I couldn’t make up my mind about it. There are many lovely buildings here, all, of course, in grey local stone which has given the place the the name of the Granite City. Wherever you look you see spires, domes, turrets and torres in lovely grey stone. The main shopping street, Union Street, possesses some fine shops, just as Princes Street, Edinburgh, has. We saw Princes Street in the short time we waited there on the way up to Aberdeen. All the houses in Scotland have one thing in common – they are built solidly of great granite blocks and they are built on much more generous proportions than in England. The modern house, as we know it, is rare but is now seen occasionally on the outskirts of the big cities which is a damn shame. Most of the streets, even the smaller ones, seem wider than ours, perhaps they have to be because the houses are generally of three floors. There is a good deal of space at the back, too, although in the case of our house the back garden has been trampled to death and I must admit it looks rather frowsy. I rather think that will be the same with most of these houses which are generally inhabited by several families with the result that nobody seems to own the garden. The civvy wireless college we are attending is out in what you might call the professional quarter of the city and although trams run along the road there is no resemblance to, say, Stanley Road or Smithdown Road. For one thing there are no shops there. Instead there are these tall light grey houses, the homes chiefly of doctors, dentists, solicitors etc with a sprinkling of nursing homes. The trams are set in the ordinary roadway but on one side of the road there are trees and gardens and, beyond them, a carriageway running in front of the houses, which are thus quite a long way from the traffic. The houses on the other side are also set well back from the road behind walls which give a sense of privacy and yet don’t convey the “you keep out” atmosphere.
Altogether rather different from the average city.

Sunday
We have been rather devils this week. There are five of us go about together on occasions – Percy, Gibbie, Gibbie’s pal Edgar Taylor who is a real heavy Yorkshire lad, and a very nice fellow named Ralph Oliver. On Friday, Ralph, who works in one of the engineering depots of the Post Office, heard that he has been promoted to a post which will give him another £300 a year when he gets back after the war. He’s only 27 so it seems he is going to make his mark in the Post Office. He was telling me he had expected to hear something before he was called up and had he done so he would have drawn this extra money all the time he was in the Navy! As it is I fancy he lifts a useful packet every month. On Friday he insisted that we had a pint to celebrate so we went and had several pints and everyone got the holiday spirit. We decided that we would make this a holiday weekend and last night went out on a little pub-crawl. Nothing ambitious, but just a steady drift from place to place, sinking the odd pint here and there. At 9.30 we wandered into a big and rather tough dance hall, not unlike the Grafton. We got in without paying, to the great annoyance of the man on the door, and once inside found several of the lads from our billet slightly the worse for wear and almost all the younger element of our class, many of whom were just plain dead drunk, especially the two smallest who are amusing youngsters from Oldham. I’ll tell you about them some time. They’re reet Lancaster, sithee! Well, all this crowd let out a great yell when we walked in and when the old man of the mountains – that’s me! – got up to dance they lifted the roof off. You would have laughed if only you could have seen them. Everybody else in the place wondered who I was. The younger lads are a good set of kids who love to greet me by calling me Pop and Uncle and even Grandad. But it is all done without malice. One of these Oldham kids has an india rubber mouth and makes the funniest impersonation of my gummy state. What makes it all the funnier is the fact that people don’t realise I have had my teeth out unless I tell them, so you can tell how little affect it has had on my appearance. That’s probably the reason I can stand all this leg pulling so well. I’m not in the least self-conscious  about it, if that is any comfort to you.
All that is by the way. I set out to tell you of the holiday plans. You can see we had some quite good fun last night. Today – I’m writing this during the morning so as to get it into the post – we are going to walk along the banks of the River Don, if the weather holds out. It’s looking very dull just now. Tomorrow we hope to go in the opposite direction and walk along the other river, the River Dee. We have made up our minds to see all we can of the country while we are here. There is no point in sitting down moping, is there? One place I do want to visit before I leave is Balmoral, which is some distance from here but I believe it is set in some lovely country. With the longer days coming we should be able to get about quite a bit at the weekends. Compulsory church parade on a Sunday is a snag and although some of us could probably dodge it, we would have to leave Percy in the lurch. Being class leader, or platoon commander as they call them here, he can’t very well get away without being missed. Still, we will be free on Saturdays and Sundays from midday which is more than we were at Skegness.
Well, precious, that gives you a good idea of how I’m behaving, or misbehaving myself, while I’m away from you. We may have to pull our horns in later on, but just now we feel we ought to get around a bit while we can. There certainly seems to be no point in just sitting down in a bedroom for hours on end as some of the lads here do. I’ve always wanted to see something of Scotland and I’m going to make the most of my chance. I’ll keep an eye open for likely places for seduction, but I cannot guarantee  a bank of heather because so far we have not seen any at all, not even coming up on the train.
It’s now well after midday and I’m still in my pyjamas, with bellbottoms and jersey on top. I have had a real lazy morning and I still have to wash and shave before dinner so I must go. I’m still loving you lots and lots but trying not to think TOO much about you until nearer the time when I can look forward to wrapping my arms around you again. What a day that will be! All my love, sweet. Hope the headache has quite gone now. Bye darling.
Ever your own,
Arthur X

P.S. Would you like to buy me a little present? I have to wear my identity disc round my neck instead of on my belt as I always have done. At the moment I have it on a piece of string, but would like a thin chain. Have you got one? If not would you like to buy one for me? I should like it to come from you and not anyone else. Don’t pay a fancy price for it. One from Woollies will do quite well if they have any. Now I MUST go and sing ‘The Red Flag’ and ‘Danny Boy’ in the bathroom!

Apr 061942
 

Easter Monday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
It is now 11pm. I’m sitting in bed just waiting for Percy to put the finishing touches to his nightly toilet and then we’re off to sleep. We’ve been roaming the banks of the Dee and not a few hills today, but I’ll tell you about that again. The only thing is I’m tired out and will only write now until Percy is ready to sleep. I tried to phone you today – this before I received your letter telling me the phone had been cut off. It was impossible to get a line, they were mad busy when I reached civilisation because we seem to have spent the day losing ourselves and then getting back almost to where we began. That sentence is as rambling as the day has been, but you will see that your letter did save some disappointment after all, although I, too, feel another link with home has gone. I’ll send you the club phone number and let you know when I may be there. Don’t forget you’ll have to make it a personal call.

Tuesday
Now to try to answer your letters. On the question of your need of a holiday, I have felt very guilty some time. You do need a holiday, sweet, and you deserve something more than a week, too, but that seems as much as we will be able to manage just now. We will let the whole matter lie on the table for a time because there are so many things which cannot be sorted out until we get to Torry. There is the question of whether or not I can get permission to sleep out with you for a full week and that in itself depends on where I can find for you. I have already got someone working on that line and and may hear something in the next week or so. When I do get it properly sorted out I’ll let you know and the sooner you come up the better because neither of us will settle down properly until you have been up. Do your best to make it a week. Two nights would be such a short time that I think we would be tempted to stay in bed for the full 48 hours and I want you in other ways than sexually – I mean in addition to sexually of course! To be serious for a minute, I think one of the things which has helped to unsettle us both is the way we have shown in our letters how much we want each other. No wonder we cannot settle down! I know yours have been very, shall I say, “stimulating”, to me. That may have also been the case with some of my letters to you. Therefore, apart from an occasional word of endearment here and there perhaps, I don’t think I had better describe my biological urges too minutely.
I have only answered part of your letters but I am going to try the experiment of catching an earlier collection tonight – the 6.30pm – and see if that reaches you any sooner. It’s almost post time now so must go. Many thanks for the regular letters you write, darling. They mean ever so much to me. I got your Easter Monday – or rather the one post-marked 8pm 6 April – by this evening’s delivery. I was glad to hear May is well but sorry you had such a time with Mother. Eric seems to have had the rough edge of her tongue.
I had a letter from Harold today. Will send it on when I have answered it, but goodness knows when that will be. I don’t seem to get time to write to anyone except you these days. My arrears of correspondence are assuming gigantic proportions and I’ll have to do something about it. Sorry this is so short a note. Will try to do better tomorrow.
Goodbye, sweet. Biological urges or no, I only know I love you now and ever.
Ever yours,
Arthur X
P.S. Will you tell Wendy I tried to ring her up on her birthday and explain about the phone. Tell her how much I wanted to be at her party.

From Michael to Arthur
Home
Dear Daddy,
Uncle Eric gave me a shilling instead of an Easter egg and I went to Hilton’s and buyed an aeroplane and it’s got a thing that goes round. I saw Ronnie today and he said “Do you want to see my boat?” and when he came out he said I could keep it. It’s got a gun on the front and funnels and a thing that petrol goes in. I’m going to sale it in the bath. Uncle Eric brought the mirror for my dressing table in his motor car. The mirror moves. Mummy let me have a little clock in my bedroom. The aeroplane’s got wheels and nice things on the end and windows. It’s a fighter and it’s called a Defiant. When I saw it in Hiltons on the shelf I gave the shilling to the lady and I carried it home. I’ve got money in my pocket – a farthing, a halfpenny and a penny and a ha’penny with a boat on and a shilling. My trousers are nice and clean. Ronnie gave me a piece of clay. When I was in the garage the mudguard came off my bike. I have eaten all my meals up today. Ronnie has got a big yacht with a little man on. I took my bus and racing car out and I found a little car at the back of the cupboard. Mummy has got a sewing machine.
Love from Michael

Apr 071942
 

Tuesday
Aberdeen
Darling,
I’m afraid, love, that I have so many people to write that soon I shall have to “neglect” you for a couple of nights to catch up with myself. Letter writing here seems to take such an age. The only alternatives are sitting in an unheated and not too light room or going out to the Club, and the mere effort of getting ready to go out, making the short journey there and settling down seems to waste half a precious hour. The Club number is Aberdeen 2747 and although it is difficult to say just when I will be in, if there is an emergency I should try any night Monday to Friday, say 7.30 to 8. If I am in I will probably be in the writing room, so when you ask the operator for the call, make it a personal call, explain this is a services club and tell him where I am likely to be. With the lighter nights coming I may do some of the writing in one of the parks, but even that is hard to say. At the weekends, however, I’m going to try to get as much walking done as I can, for we don’t get a lot of exercise here except on the way to and from school.
Now to continue to reply to your queries. I am quite clear in my own mind as to the relative merits of Ayr and Aberdeen, so I cannot understand how I have misled you. We all swore when we found we had missed Glasgow and Ayr, for they would have been 4 to 6 hours nearer home. What I may have said in my letter was that we come north again to Ayr after leave.
No, I haven’t noticed the fish manure smell here, but I have noticed the kipper factories.
Glad to hear Eric looked fairly fit. I’m looking forward to hearing from him but I don’t suppose he will tell me about feeling the rough edge of Mother’s tongue. He’s not a lad like that.
Judging from your letters, and I can always tell, you are feeling more like yourself aren’t you? Your last two letters have breathed a much more Stella-ish atmosphere. You couldn’t hide things from me if you wanted to. You may be quite right about Michael needing more sleep and I would not be surprised if that was more than half of your trouble. Try to get really rested before you come up here for there’s many a restless night you’ll have in Aberdeen. You will notice that I have made up my mind to a week if it can possibly be managed, and without the children too. I think you are quite right on that point. The only snag is Michael. From what you say, Mother doesn’t have a good effect on him. I wonder if Lilian would take him for part of the time.
Thank God there seems to be a good margin of safety so far as vapours and July 27 are concerned! You should be right on top of your form when I get home.
I’m still waiting to hear what the calendar says about the week beginning Whit weekend, or the week ending Whit week. That’s more important in that it is nearer. Less than six weeks now, sweetheart. By the time you receive this it will only be about a month if you can get here on the Friday or the Saturday of the week before Whit. See the advantage. That would mean a full week here and then perhaps two full days to wind up the holiday and you needn’t travel back until Tuesday evening, arriving home early Wednesday morning. That would make it ten days! All this, of course, is still hypothetical, but bear them all in mind.
No, I am not being bullied at school. What I meant was that I made a good impression on the instructor on our first day, but I’m afraid I fell away in my performance later. The instructor said that was common experience. Today has been much better and if we can get down to some solid work in the remainder of this week I will feel a lot happier. I hate messing about.
Guess who arrived here on Saturday? Ted Kidd! He is billeted on the main street and shouted me from his dining room window as we were all returning from our travels yesterday. He is a wireless mechanic and goes to Fleet Air Arm after his course here. He is taking the whole thing very seriously, which is just as well for a youngster. He was out in Aberdeen on Saturday night and came to the conclusion the women were a forward lot! What do you know about that?
The 30/- for a sewing machine will prove to be money well spent and should more than earn its keep this summer alone. Nice work, love. That’s economical spending, and I’m glad you’ve got your heart’s desire at long last. It will make an enormous difference to you. Is this one of your “surprises”? And while we are on the money subject, have you paid Rees each time you have been to see him?  I hope so, it is by far the best way. Let me know when you get the spool for the machine and I’ll also be interested to hear Wendy’s reactions to her birthday presents. Tell me what she got. Glad little Mollie got over. Did you make Michael pay for his present to her? And did you tell him about it or can’t he be trusted with “surprises” yet? Nice thought of yours about Mother’s birthday. What a girl. She wrote and told me about it.
And that, I think, clears up most of the points in your letter. Now I must get this off if I’m going to catch a daytime post. Bye sweetheart. I still love you.
All yours,
Arthur X

Apr 091942
 

Thursday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
As I want to reply to the children tonight if it is at all possible so as to be sure they get an answer by the weekend, I’m afraid I shall have to be content once more to answer a few of your points from your recent letters. So here we go. I had foreseen the difficulty of having several offers of assistance with the plot and spoke quite frankly to Dave on the subject before I came away. He didn’t even look after his own properly last year so I felt that if he gave any time to ours his wife might feel, quite naturally, that it was a bit thick. Still, I hope Reg gets down to it fairly soon because if he does there’ll be very little left for anyone else to do! Did you ever find those onion sets somewhere at the back of the garage? They may have sprouted too far now but see what they look like. If they look OK then all you have to do is stand them firmly on the place where we had onions last year. I manured and dug it before I came away so it should be in good condition now. The weather you are having at the moment should be ideal for them as they need a fair bit of water. Did you do anything with the raspberries and have you put anything new in?
You seem to have had a rough time with Mother over Wendy’s party day. It’s harder for you to be as frank with her over things like a purely children’s day as I used to be. Even I used to get the backwash of my plain speaking but I know her far better than you do. What’s more, she took very few liberties with me! I think you did the right thing, love.
Don’t want to appear mean, but do you think Wendy’s teeth will keep until she goes to school? Not if there is any real pain of course, you know me better than that, but once private dentists get hold of children the bills can mount up. On several occasions I have intended to mention the matter of home made cake. Yes I should love one occasionally. We do quite well for cakes really, but the trouble is that we get them all at the beginning of the week and although we try to spin them out and are not as “fussy” as we used to be in civvy street, they ARE getting a bit stale by Tuesday or Wednesday. If you could time yours to arrive about then it would be very welcome. Just a word of warning – no hard outside to it please. My gums are still too tender in places to manage anything at all well baked. Mother might like to send an occasional one so you could arrange something with her if you like so that they don’t clash. Apart from cake and jam I can’t think of anything we need to cheer life up – except you, sweetheart. Don’t send anything else like biscuits or that sort of stuff. An occasional piece of that coloured square cake used to arrive from Percy’s mother and it was very nice because it was so soft – rather like a sponge cake. Now, about cigarettes. We found to our surprise that we do get an issue, but only half a pound a month and even that has to be drawn in small lots from a store at Torry. However, as there are some non-smokers in the class I get two of them to get half a pound each for me so I manage quite well. With a bit of care I think I can get through the month on one-and-a-half pounds at a cost of 3/9d! What I should do if I was in the Army I don’t know. There would certainly be no beer then.
Do you remember Harold saying he could buy quite a lot of things cheaply – in the way of clothing I mean? Well, we can get them, I find, but there are certain restrictions of which I will tell you later. We can only get them on certain days – slops days they are called and there are long lapses in between. We have our first slops day tomorrow and I’m getting a few things. Lightweight underpants for summer 1/3d, some thin socks to wear with my small boots 1/3, hankies 3d each (we are restricted to six), and a few other odds and ends. Bedroom slippers, black leather, are 12/- and good quality I’m told. I thought Bert and Eric might be interested next time we get a slops day. Mention it if you see them. But NOT to Harold Bird!
Now, darling, if I’m to write to the children I’ll have to close. I really am glad to hear that Michael is behaving so much better. It’s one of the best – only ONE of the best – things you have written to me. I worry about him you know because, as you say, he can be such a likeable little chap and quite the little man when he tries. Do you think he takes any notice of my letters and are you still persevering with the “responsibility” test?
Finally, we had a simple Morse test today. Very simple and I should think we all got through alright. An officer came up to the civvy college from Torry and seemed quite satisfied with the quick glance he had at the papers, although he took them away for closer scrutiny.
I really must go now, pet. I got out early but already it is getting on for 8.30 and I still have the children’s notes to write.
Darling, I do still love you and am looking forward to getting the details of your holiday fixed up in the next week or ten days. All my love, sweetheart. I know you are feeling more cheerful these days and that means I am, too. I love you, precious.
Ever your own,
Arthur X

Dear Michael,
Aren’t you a lucky boy? Fancy getting a shilling off Uncle Eric and buying such a lovely aeroplane with it. You must be getting a big boy if you can go to Hiltons and buy things like that. Will you show me your aeroplane and the boat with a gun on it when I come home? I saw a boat with a gun on it in the docks today. Mummy will tell you what the docks are. The gun is bigger than yours and bigger even than the one I have to shoot with. What a lot of money you have in the pocket of those nice clean trousers. Mind you don’t lose it. Perhaps you had better put the shilling in your money box in case it falls out of your pocket. A shilling means 12 pennies, you know. Your bedroom must look nice with a clock and a mirror that moves. I will see them when I come home again and tuck you in at night.
Mummy wrote and told me what a good boy you had been and that you had eaten up all your meals. She also told me that you had grown bigger. You know if you are going to grow into a big strong man you must do three things. You must eat up all your meals, you must learn to do everything by yourself, and you must play out in the street and in the garden as much as ever you can. If you do all these three things, not just one or two of them, you will grow into a big man after you leave school. But you must do them ALL now.
Before I go to school in the morning, do you know where I am going, son? I’m going to the baths for a swim. That is why Mummy has been washing my bathing costume. It is a lovely big swimming bath nearly as big as the one we went to at New Brighton when we went on the boat. Do you remember? Only this one has a roof on it. One day, soon, I hope to go skating on some ice in a big building here with a lot of other sailors who go to school with me. I think this is all I have to tell you just now. But I am glad you are learning to be a good boy. Night night, son.
Love from
Daddy

Dear Wendy,
Thank you for your nice letter telling me all about your party. I am glad that Michael and you and all your friends had such a good time. I was wishing I could be there and I thought of you when I came out of school because I thought you would just be having tea then. That was at 5 o’clock. I wonder if you can read that figure five which I have just written? I’m so glad you liked the brush and comb set which Mummy and I bought for you. What a lot of presents you got and wasn’t Michael good to buy you a sewing card set? You will soon be able to sew like Mummy. Don’t forget to send me the elephant one, will you? I want to see how clever you are so do it all carefully for me. Don’t hurry too much. With all the money you got you will be able to buy lots of things. And Mummy has a sewing machine now? Was that what you wanted to tell me in your last letter, but Mummy said you must not because it was a surprise? Have you heard when you are going to go to school? Write and tell me on your very first day at school, won’t you? When I came home from school today I had to go past the docks – that is where all the boats live when they are not far out on the water – and I saw a lot of boats. Not very very big ones, but like the one Uncle Harold was on before he went on to the big one he is in now.
Mummy told me how you washed your hands and brushed and combed your hair all by yourself. I think you are a very clever girl. When I am going to come home to see you in July will you make yourself all nice and clean to come and meet me? I would like you to because it will save Mummy such a lot of trouble, won’t it?
I don’t think there is any more to say just now except that I am glad you are such a good girl for Mummy. She tells me how much you help her in the house. Night night, love. When I come home can I tuck you in bed like I used to do?
Lots of love from
Daddy

Apr 101942
 

Friday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
Many thanks for the parcel, which arrived here just before I left for the baths, which is good going. I have noticed before that generally speaking mail seems to travel more quickly from your end than from here and that letters don’t seem to come as quickly as parcels. So you look all svelte in your frock, eh? Well just you keep off my preserves. I’ll do all the commenting necessary so far as your hips are concerned. And can I comment? I was thinking of your clothes problem only yesterday when it rained all day here. I’m glad you are to get yourself a mack. You certainly need one. Let me know if you do manage it. Our letters about Wendy’s teeth have crossed. Hope you won’t think I was being Jewish in my suggestion that you put it off until schooldays. By the way, have you heard anything from the school? If not I should go up and see them. Don’t leave it, or she may be a term late getting in. I’m sorry about the gap in her teeth in a way. Whatever you say, it will spoil her appearance a bit and that tooth having such a start may push the later ones out a bit. It will be well established by the time the other second ones begin to show.
Glad to hear the news about Reg going to Kirkby for I’m not disinterested in his future! I’m hoping he’ll do that plot for you soon. Many thanks for the picture of the garden. I wish I could see it. Don’t forget to let me know if there are any raids.
This will be the shortest note I have sent you for some time, but today was pay day – I’ve got 36/- for a fortnight. Whoopee! So I’m going ice skating with the lads. It’s only 1/6 including skates, which is cheaper than drinking and it will be a change. While I’m on the subject of money, don’t send me a penny. Put every cent you can lay your hands on aside. You never know when you will need a little extra cash. In any case, if I do need a few bob it will be when I’m on leave to buy beer for YOU. You secret drinker! Seriously, if I’m short I’ll let you know.

Just back from the ice rink. Skating was such a pleasant change from anything I’ve done here yet that I’m all enthusiastic at the moment and seriously thinking of making this a regular weekly night out. I have always had a sneaking desire to learn to skate decently and this seems an excellent opportunity. I took things very quietly tonight as I don’t want to be as stiff as a board tomorrow. There were some very good skaters there, the best being Canadian R.A.F. men. As usual in all my enthusiasms I wondered how you would react to it and made a vow, as with golf, to try to have the children learn while they are young enough to take to it naturally. Both golf and skating are sports which last beyond the normal “games” period of life. There was a fellow of over 60 tonight teaching a fellow and a girl, both in their 20s. Golf is just the same and if you learn both these sports really early and then have to leave them for a time you never really forget them.
Bye, precious. All my love, darling.
Arthur

Apr 111942
 

Saturday
Aberdeen
Darling,
This is, we expect, our last day at the civvy school and as it is only a half day we have not done a great deal of work, as you can imagine. Still, all things being considered, we have done reasonably well here despite all the fooling. Most of the lads can receive at between 6 and 8 words a minute, which is not bad going when you consider that they apparently only expect 8 words a minute after five weeks. The only thing is that while we have been here we have done nothing but Morse, but when we go to Torry we will have one or two other subjects. In addition there will be a higher standard of receiving expected. As proof that we are apparently a bunch of Jonahs, we have discovered that a new admiral has been appointed to the unit. From what we can hear he has begun to tighten things up all round. Previously there were only about four exams in the whole course but now they have a weekly test and if you cannot make the grade at a fairly high standard, something like 85%, you have to come back to school for four nights a week. I can see that taking some of the nonsense out of some of the lads who have done little but fool around up to now. Whereas in the past one was safe for the whole course after the five-week exam, people are now being sent back to their bases as stokers, sick berth attendants etc, if they don’t maintain a reasonable weekly average. Still, in many ways that is just as well, as it will cut out a lot of wasted time. It may also mean that those who do settle down to work consistently will have a chance to get up to the standard needed for leading telegraphist, which carries more pay. I hope this proves to be the case. So much for school and for hopes for the future. I’ll be able to tell you a bit more next weekend when we have seen how the course runs.
Percy has let me down. He and Ralph Oliver, the other fellow I mentioned in a previous letter, have changed courses and are now at a different school training as wireless mechanics. This is a much more technical course, but is right up their street as both were in the Post Office in peacetime. I’m sorry they have changed because now I’m more or less left on my own. Gibby is in the other class so I can’t pair off with him at school as I did with Ralph. In addition, the wireless mechs have a good deal of homework each night and have to go back to school two nights a week. That means that if we do want to go anywhere special, like skating on a Friday, I shall have to go with a crowd of fellows in whom I have no real interest. Still, we are going to do our best to use our weekends together. Today, for instance, the three of us are going to see ‘Hatter’s Castle’ at the Odeon. After church parade we will probably try another walk along the River Don tomorrow, providing the weather is reasonable. We will not do so badly if we can manage Friday, Saturday and Sunday as days of relaxation and go very carefully on the other days. Anyway, we will have to try that programme and when all is said and done should not spend a great deal during the weekends if we are out in the open a fair amount of the time.
“Slops day” was postponed until today and was rather disappointing. I could not get my summer underpants, which was the main item on my list. I did get half-a-dozen handkerchiefs which I’ll probably get you to take home to put into stock against civvy needs. At 3d a time they are a good “buy”.
I had been expecting to hear from Eric after what you wrote, but the note on top of Thursday night’s letter explains why I haven’t heard. Your note about the post deliveries is interesting but unfortunately I have little chance to write in time to catch the 4.30 unless I write at night and post it the next day.
You have struck the same snags about the children that I had in mind. I, too, think Wendy more adaptable to surroundings than Michael. He is the one I’m thinking of. Still, for all we know he may give us both a surprise although I do hope Mother doesn’t take him to Sunday school. That could, to say the least, make things a little complicated. Still, I think I might, somewhere between now and then, contrive to drop her a more than gentle hint, probably fairly near the time.
Yes, I did receive your list of dates re vapours and will pay due attention to them. I really am sorry about the Whit weekend because it would have been ideal for us. I cannot give you the exact date of the exam but it should be three weeks from now – that is about five weeks from the time we came up here.
Now I must go if I’m to keep my date with ‘Hatter’s Castle’. That’s the only date I’m likely to make here. Don’t worry about the forward women here or anywhere else for that matter. Forward, backward or coy, sweetheart, they can’t compete with you. As the lads here say, “you’ve got something the others haven’t got” – and do I know it. There go my bellbottoms again!
Bye, my sweet. My bellbottoms tell me I still love you. As if I need them to tell me, but I’d better go before I throw Percy on the bed! It’s the Navy coming out in me.
All yours, my sweet,
Arthur X

Apr 121942
 

Sunday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
Another week gone! Tomorrow, which you may not have noticed is the 13th, we begin at Torry. In many ways I’m not looking forward to it because of the tales we hear from the lads in the billet, but I have no doubt they are exaggerated to a large extent. Anyway, they seem to get by without a great deal of trouble. Still, there remains the unalterable fact that I have to be at school at 8.15, which is a decided wrench after the last fortnight of starting at 9.30. This time next week, perhaps earlier, I’ll be able to tell you more of it.
We had to go to church today. Wot a to-do. First of all, as we were newcomers, they hadn’t got us sorted out, with the result that I got mixed up with Baptists but, I know not how, eventually arrived at a Congregational Church! There they chose hymns of which I know the words but not the tunes, which annoyed me. Then, in the middle of the service the siren went and we all adjourned to a room in the basement, which only goes to show how small the congregation was. Anyway, the service went on and on. Then they produced an infant for christening, adding a few more minutes to our period of incarceration and we finally got out about 12.25 which put me in a bad temper. This business of church parade is getting more and more strict as they gradually find out the various schemes the lads devise for dodging it. For instance, many of the boys got into the habit of going to the parade and dodging away en route or at the church door. Then one Sunday there was a roll call at the church itself with dire results for lots of the lads. Now most of them have decided that it is not worth all the trouble of trying to get away with it. Another burden we have to bear is a weekly inspection at this church parade and today this new Admiral himself turned up. Incidentally, he is the first bigwig to pass me without a word! I’m almost hurt!
Did I thank you for the full description of Wendy’s party? If not, I meant to do so because I enjoyed every word of it and sympathised with you in all the little trials and tribulations you must have had to bear. I’m sorry about the Cynthia business because she is a good kid and I hate to think of her being hurt, as she must have been. I hope it won’t make her feel a grudge against Wendy. She might, because you know what kids are. Do get it sorted out with Mrs Reid and, if you like, tell her I’m disappointed in her.
Have you seen this week’s ‘Bootle Times’? Mother sent it to me and I was surprised to see that someone you know well is married again. The last person in the world I should have thought would marry a second time after his unfortunate experience. Guess who? John Kinley! [Labour MP for Bootle, 1929–1931] Yes, you are right, to Lily Thorpe. If what you have always said of her is true, he is going to have his hands full for a second time. I do hope not. Marriage, of course, may make an enormous difference. If they do enjoy normal relationships I can see Lily Thorpe putting on weight, becoming less dynamic and, generally speaking, changing a great deal. I do hope John is lucky this time. God knows there is no one I know more entitled to a decent break.
In the same issue of the ‘B.T.’ there is a reference to WING COMMANDER Peter Mahon of the A.T.C. – that’s a sort of cadet organisation. I rather think I have mentioned this to you before, but it still makes me retch. What hope is there for the alleged Labour Party with this poppycock going on? I’d like Kinley’s views on that! It’s very seldom I worry about politics these days, and I can see that when peace does come there’s a grave danger of me giving up any interest I had in such things, but now and again when I see items like that I flare up in spite of all my good resolutions. The Labour Party, I’m afraid, is doomed after the war although they will no doubt poll more votes than ever. I wonder what organisation the Socialists will have? What a pity there is only a handful like [James] Maxton and Campbell [Stephen], and what a pity, too, that when the break occurred years ago Kinley was forced by economic circumstances to break from the I.L.P. rebel group. Well, that’s all on that subject.
We kept our promise to ourselves and Percy and Ralph spent the weekend away from their studies. We went to the Saturday matinee of ‘Hatter’s Castle’ – if we had waited for the evening show we should never have got in – and in the evening had just a few beers, not many. Today, after dinner, we went for a walk starting at the Bridge of Don and going over the Scotstown Moor towards the sea and coming out again at the Bridge. A very pleasant three hours walk during which I thought of you a lot because it is within easy distance of the town and might make quite a pleasant little walk for us one evening. Whatever else you do, you will have to bring a good pair of walking shoes when you come.
There are two disappointments in store for you, I’m afraid. For one thing, as I may have told you, I have been unable to find a bunch of heather within convenient distance of here. There are some good substitutes, but they would not add to your already long list of experience. More important still, I think, is the fact that although my bellbottoms are even now showing a distinct interest in this very delightful prospect, they simply are not intended for this particular form of outdoor recreation. You will appreciate that when you see them, but when I think of the complaints you have made about a pair of lightweight underpants, I cannot see you being satisfied with my performance in uniform. And I don’t think I dare risk taking them off completely, even for my adorable wife, because that might mean 14 days cells just at a time when you were within reach. Sweetheart, what an awful calamity that would be!
Oh my darling, I do love you and there’s a delightful coma on the horizon. Do you know – perhaps you do! – it always WAS the left breast I used to fondle. Oh why did you tell me of that dream? Sometimes I think of the hundreds of nights when I have had you to myself and there have only been you and I in the whole world. Even those hundreds of nights have not satisfied me. Never can I be satiated with you. And yet, darling, I always have this comfort – we have made the most of our lives together. Even when we were single we had some delicious moments, didn’t we? Oh darling, darling, why didn’t I meet you years ago? Still, as I say, we have done reasonably well in the time we have known each other and not one moment of it would I retract. Even this separation has, somehow, brought us closer.
When I got to the end of that page I DID go into a coma. I could feel your cheek under my fingertips and the silk of your eyelids under my lips as you turned first one eye and then the other to be kissed. Sweetheart, my own, I want you. I want to hold you close, to sit in a big comfy chair in the half light of the fire with you on my knee. To feel the gentle swell of your thigh in your silk stocking from just above the knee. To have just you in my arms while time stands still. You once wrote you would follow me around the house when I came home. Well, we will be going in circles because I will be following you. What a sight for the children! Angel, I have tried to visualise our reunion on Aberdeen station but just can’t. I wonder what will happen? You talk of stepping from the train into my arms. I don’t think you better had. I might lose complete control of myself there and then. Perhaps the best thing would be for you to give me your case. No! Bring two cases, then I’ll have both hands occupied. I MIGHT be reasonably safe then. Often I wonder if our self-control will stand the strain of that first minute.
Precious girl, I love you. God help you if you were here tonight.
Sweetheart, we must come down to earth and I to my lonely couch must hie. Before I do, will you be sure to answer these two points in your very next letter? (1) Can you travel up here on a Friday morning – arriving Friday night? (2) If you can, do you think you could manage, say, May 1st to May 11th (that is, leaving here on the Monday morning) or May 8th to May 18th? These are, of course, only tentative dates, but they are the earliest possible weeks I can think of and I want you here at the very first second. Don’t bank on these dates, will you? I still have to find out about possible digs and that will take time. Last night I met a sailor and he said the C.P.O. at Torry is very decent about fellows sleeping away from the billets when their wives come up here, so that seems hopeful.
I met another cheerful sailor yesterday, a real old sweat, and he believes that so far as Germany is concerned this war will be ended in the next couple of months. Can’t say I agree with him, but it’s nice to meet even stupidly optimistic people sometimes. What a vision that conjures up! If only it could be so! And now, angel, a wash, a shave and bed in readiness for Torry in the morning. Be good until May. I do love you.
All yours,
Arthur X

Apr 141942
 

Tuesday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
Sorry I couldn’t write last night but I had my first lot of homework to do on what we call naval procedure. Actually, it is learning the use of various letters in certain circumstances to save sending long messages, but it is surprising what combinations can be made. As we have procedure every day I suppose we will get homework each night. Tonight’s batch is not as bad as yesterday’s, but there is still a lot to learn from what we already have. No doubt we will learn most of it in actual practice; that is by sending and receiving actual messages in plain language and code. Still, it will cut down our leisure to some extent.
Your cakes, for which many thanks indeed, arrived by the afternoon delivery, which is good going. We have already scoffed half of the sponge cake and it was lovely. I think we were lucky to get either, however, as the string around the outside was almost completely off. You were perhaps afraid to pull it tighter when you tied it, but with all that wrapping on it, it would have been alright to put a bit more pressure on. Anyway, the main thing is that we got it safely and I’m now looking forward to sampling the fruit cake.
Thanks also for the stamps on your last two letters but, without offence, don’t bother to send any more for a time. I still have some left in stock and when Eric wrote yesterday he enclosed a 5/- book. Actually, I haven’t had to buy a stamp since about ten days after I got to Skegness, so there’s no need for you to worry about that side of things.
Eric in his letter, quite a long chatty affair in which he presumes I’m going to do far more technical stuff than I actually am, says something to the effect that when you come up here the fare “is on us”. I don’t know quite what he means by that, but thought I had better let you know unless, of course, you already know about it. He told me of his visit to you when the children were in the bath and says they both looked very well.
Not exactly chronological, this letter. I should have thanked you for the ‘Statesman’s, too, in case you thought I had thrown them away. There’s not much in ‘The Journalist’ these days, is there, apart from the ‘Mirror’ issue.
So you have become a Marks & Spencer fan? At any rate I shall be glad to hear of the last of that check mac.
Re trains to Aberdeen – after I had written in my last letter to you, I had a marvellous dream! But that is by the way, except that I fell into a coma and as that letter was written in my bedroom I tumbled straight into bed in that mood, so what could I expect? Now, re trains to Aberdeen. I notice you say there are trains from Exchange at 9.35am. What about Lime Street? And wouldn’t it be as well to drop the children, or at any rate Wendy, on Thursday? If Chris, for instance, failed to meet you in time you’d be in an awful stew and 9.35 is early, you know. You could drop Michael on the way to town if Dave is going to run you to town in the car. That would be easy enough. I know you will have it all sorted out but I’m just making a few suggestions.
As an exception to the rule I do know the O’Brien bloke you mention. Jack was my best pal years and years ago. One of the nicest fellows you could wish to meet. I had great hopes when we were kids that, as he was a seafarer he would rise to be captain of a ship. I still think he would have done but I fancy he was a bit lazy, or easygoing, whichever you prefer. Then when he was quite young he did a foolish thing. Know what it was? He put a girl in the family way. Now wasn’t that wicked? As a matter of fact it was in this case for she was a slut of a girl whom I never liked. Jack dropped out of things after that and always seemed a bit shamefaced when we met. One of those invisible barriers grew up and gradually we drifted apart. I was sorry because Jack deserved better than he got, I felt. Now I don’t think Mother knows any of this, so just tell her I’d be glad to hear from Jack or to have his address.
On the subject of friends, tell Peggy I’m sorry to hear Alan is off colour and hope he gets on his feet again. He never has been very strong, has he? He was always being sick when they lived in Bootle. But I’m disappointed in Arthur. I thought he might have written a line – that is if you have ever given them my address for I haven’t written to him yet.
I wrote Dave during the weekend so he will have had my letter by now. Tell him O/Tels are ten-a-penny in this war and the only P.O.s are likely to be either the fellows with fairly long experience in the Navy, or else the young fellows who can romp through the course. Tell Marjorie how sorry I was to hear about HMS Trinidad. I hope she soon hears that Bill is safe. The uncertainty of these things must be terrible for women. So Valerie’s father has gone too? I didn’t know him of course, but it’s hard luck on any married bloke being dragged away and from what I saw at Skegness just before I left the average age of incoming drafts is going up by leaps and bounds.
Coming to your Saturady/Sunday letter, how is Michael? From what you say he seems to have had a real bumping about. Watch him for the next few days, love. And let me know how he is. Tell him I’m sorry he got hurt but glad he didn’t cry very much after you had washed his face. The digging squad have set to in earnest, haven’t they? If I remember rightly, the peas took a long time to show last year. Do you know how to stick them properly? When they are big enough to need support, start on one side of the row and place sticks (there’s a pile of cuttings all ready for the purpose) leaning one way and, working from the other end, make the other side lean the appropriate way. If you start from the end near our garden make the twig slope towards the Littlewoods fence, then coming back lean them from Littlewoods towards the house. Is that clear? I should leave the rhubarb for a time because I think it grows a fair size. As you will want peas for drying, don’t be afraid to grow them quite thickly. You’ll have to buy some more so get some that are a little bigger than those you have. You will get a better yield. I’m not sure about French beans. Better look them up.
I cannot do anything about towels just now but I’ll remember about them. I’m OK for cigarette papers so don’t worry about them. Yes, thanks, that was the cigarette case I had in mind. Don’t send that tobacco up here, keep it until I come home.
We won’t know the result of the Morse test. It was only a simple thing for their own guidance. At school I seem to be holding my own. About the middle of the class I should say. At the top are a fellow who did 12 weeks of the course and then went off sick and so has had to start again; a railway telegraphist; a fellow who some years ago was a Tel in the R.N.V.R.; and a couple of fellows who could do 12 words a minute before they came here. I can’t compete against that crowd, of course, but I’m doing reasonably well against the others. The youngest fellows just lap it up while my poor old brain struggles along, but I hope to get through in the long run. After this five week exam we’ll have a good idea and I have no doubt that the class will be thinned out a bit. This exam should be either May 1 or May 4, but if I can arrange for digs I’d sooner you came up here on May 1 irrespective of the exam. Our instructor, by the way, is quite a young fellow and as we are his first class I rather fancy he will do all he can to push a big proportion of us through. If I find that I’m doubtful about some of the stuff I’ll arrange to go back for voluntary instruction a couple of nights a week. It should be well worth it. If I do it will mean still fewer letters for you, but I hope you will manage to write me, although not at the expense of all your other interests, the radio, your knitting, reading, the garden etc.
To answer your questions. All the seeds there are are in my trousers pocket. Wait a minute. Look in the pockets of my fawn sports jacket. There may be some there. You will probably have to buy some more parsnip seed. I think I used the others. They should be in now. The mossy stuff in the rockery will come on alright. If you look closely you’ll probably see the new growth beginning deep down. Keep an eye open for those unusual little things Sid gave me last back end. They were only tiny. I put some in the rockery and some in the front garden.
Now, sweetheart, I must fly to catch the post and I still have some work to do. I still love you lots and lots, pet. Come to me soon for I need you more than I can say. This weekend I’ll try to get some ideas about digs. All my love, angel girl.
Ever your own,
Arthur X

Apr 161942
 

Thursday
Aberdeen
Darling,
The weather here is glorious now. How I wish you were here to enjoy it, for I’m told that natives say there is time for snow until the end of May! The last two days have been really lovely and made life very pleasant indeed.
Now, sweetheart, I haven’t a lot of time as I have a fair amount to learn between now and Monday, when we have the first of our weekly exams. Our instructor is quite a decent fellow, only young, but I think this is the first class he has had, which may prove to be a good thing for us as I think he may work us hard to be sure as many as possible get through the course. I hope we stick to him throughout the courses, although I have my doubts. I fancy that halfway through we may be shunted on to someone else. This young fellow began by coming the heavy stuff with some of the younger fellows to show who was the boss. The result was he got into rather bad odour with them, but when the class leaders tackled him about it he was quite frank and said he was going to run the class and not vice versa. The whole trouble at Torry is that the place is far too small. There are about 100 of us in quite a small room. The whole gang consists of four classes each of 25. One instructor takes two classes at a time. While one instructor is dealing with procedure to his two classes, the other is giving his lads Morse. Every time there is a lull in the Morse sending, as happens quite frequently, hubbub breaks out. The result is pandemonium, as you can imagine, and is scarcely conducive to good work. The other crowd were away at games today and it was heaven. What is more, the instructor seemed an altogether different person. But that’s enough about school for one day.
The chain is lovely. Just what I wanted. Many thanks, darling, not only for the chain but also for the dedication. You are an angel. I understand exactly what you mean about it being a link between us because, you see, that was why I wanted YOU to buy it for me. Still, I hope you get your money back for the “dog chain”.
What a to-do you had getting to and from Limedale. I was sorry to hear May had been off colour and hope she is feeling better. I really must drop her a note soon, but it’s hard fitting everyone in now. I scribbled a note to Mother last night – the first for ages and I think only the second since I came here. I wrote Algie, too, in answer to his letter of March 2! I’m enclosing his letter because it is a light sort of epistle I didn’t quite expect from him. Will you keep it for me? Put it in the top drawer of my desk when you have read it.
So there was ribaldry at Limedale, was there? We will show them. Yes, I’ll get cast iron evidence before then. I don’t know quite what the position about a naval “issue” is, but I will enquire. The Navy issue of jokes has surprised me. I haven’t heard one since I left home except one or two very old ones. No, Aberdeen is not a restricted area as several fellows have had their wives up here, apparently. I’m still looking round for the ‘B.T.’ about Kinley. If I can find it I’ll send it on, but the announcement gave no more, really, than I told you.
About your visit. Exam or none, it looks to me as if May 1st will be the best date if we can possibly manage it. The other date is a month later! I’ll try to let you know by next weekend how I’m fixed. That will give you a full week. Will that be long enough? I’m sorry to be brusque on this point, sweet – you know I COULD dwell on it – but I’m pushed for time.
There is just one point and I’m sorry to disappoint you over this, but I’m afraid that sleeping with you on the Friday nights may be, to say the least, difficult. You see our morning for the baths has been changed and we now go on Saturday morning, which entails being up at 6am or soon after. I can’t imagine that, can you, on the first night in a strange house? And what a first night!
Now, angel, I must go although I should have liked to have sent you a longer letter for the weekend. Look after yourself, angel, for the next fortnight. What a thought!
By the way, do you know what I’m doing tomorrow? Playing football! Fancy that! Friday is our sports day. I’m glad, because with sports on Friday and swimming on Saturday the week virtually finishes on Friday morning, except for a couple of hours Morse on Saturday after the baths.
Night, night, angel. See you soon, very soon, I hope. After Monday’s weekly test I will have a better idea of where I stand. All my love.
Ever your own,
Arthur X

Apr 191942
 

Sunday
Aberdeen
Darling,
This is going to be a concise note but I think the news will help to compensate for the brevity. Ralph’s landlady recommended me to her next door neighbour and I have made arrangements for you to come up from May 1st to May 11. I think you will like the place as there is an airy bedroom containing double bed, very comfy by the looks of it, TWO armchairs, settee and wardrobe. She is going to give you full board and me bed and breakfast. I haven’t arranged terms as she has not taken people in for bed and breakfast before, but I took a chance as I thought her a decent woman and I don’t think she will sting us very badly. She was worried about the meal question, but I told her not to worry about making breakfast a meal in the real sense as you could always make a meal of porridge, and that I have formed the habit since I came here. She says it is impossible to get eggs so if you can find room for some when you come up it might be a good investment. Anyway, I’ll leave that to you. She understands about the possibility of the train being late, but says she will try to get some tea for the time you arrive. By the way, the address is Mrs Grant, Hutcheon Street, Aberdeen. Unfortunately there are two Mrs Grants in the house, which is composed of flats, so I will have to find out her initials and let you know. She seems a decent sort. A woman of about 40, I should say. The only thing that remains is for me to get permission to sleep out and I think that will be only a matter of form. I know about the stunt of billeting out for a week, but one way and another I doubt if it would be worth it. There would be all the bother of getting ration cards back, Mrs Reid would lose my money for a week and she is very decent in doing our washing free for us. As we will be able to sleep(?) together I doubt if it would really be worth it. The people at our billets might take the huff. You never know.
Now, about money. You say you can draw one week’s wages. Won’t that be enough with whatever spare cash you have? I have a couple of quid which I have been hoarding against this holiday and if you don’t have to pay the fare up do you think you can manage? Let me know what you think you can bring with you in the way of money. I will make a definite date for you to ring me one night next week, so don’t try anything on chance until you hear from me, because I will probably be going to Torry for voluntary instruction quite a lot and that will give me a free conscience on the whole question of the holiday. Anyway, you can start making your arrangements straight away, but don’t do anything about the rations until I get word from Torry, which I think is purely a matter of form. I hope to be able to let you know tomorrow night.
Must be off now. Night night, sweet. I still love you.
Always your own,
Arthur X

Apr 201942
 

Monday
Aberdeen
Sweetheart,
At last, the “all clear”. I saw the C.P.O. today, mentioned the matter to him and he agreed at once, the only stipulation being that, nearer the time, I have to go and see him again and give him my address. So now you can carry on with all your arrangements for May 1 to May 11. I think it better for you to come then as I will never be really free of the shadow of exams and the longer the course goes the greater the likelihood of me having to go back for compulsory extra work in the evenings. In the meantime, until you come up, I am going back on Tuesdays and Thursdays because I seem to have struck a “dead” patch and want to make as much progress as I can in the groundwork. I have a feeling that this early part of the proceedings is going to count a good deal and that after the five weeks it will largely be a question of becoming more and more familiar with things through actual use. After that time I don’t think there will be a lot of new stuff to learn. Just now we have our plates full with new signs and signals and learning the significance of various letters in certain positions, but I don’t think they will keep pushing fresh stuff at us at this rate.
I’m sorry my letters are so scrappy just now, but with homework time is cut down considerably. Then this weekend I felt really seedy – pains in my tummy and continual visits to the bathroom, combined with a general “influenza” soreness all over. At first I thought it was due to an excess of exercise and then attributed it to a bottle of Bass I had on Saturday night, but I think it must be something in the air for several fellows in the digs had the same symptoms and then when I got to school this morning a few of the lads had been the same. Anyway, it only lasted over Saturday and Sunday. We were in bed before 10.30 last night and I’m OK today.
Apart from the bottle of Bass, which was our sole drink, we had a really enjoyable night on Saturday when we saw ‘Jeannie’ with the West End company – or so the bill said. Bruce Carfax, who took the lead, was very good. I wouldn’t say the play is a riot of laughter, but it was light and amusing and a theatre visit is always a tonic to me.
Sunday was spent very quietly, but we went to see a big quarry near here famous for its granite. What a huge place it is, too. Then we went on as far as the golf course, which is closed on Sundays! We were all dying for a cup of tea but couldn’t get one.
That seems about all the news except that we had a small test this morning and I could do nothing right and came out with only 53%, which roused the instructor to say “Johnson, I expected a far better paper from you!” Naughty naughty! It was just one of those mornings. For the first half of the paper I was just solid ivory. After that I bucked up a bit and got full marks for two or three subjects. It was too late then, of course. I have a feeling that on the ordinary Morse I will do better when we are going just a little faster and a couple of nights at school will help if we can get some solid work in.
If you have not sent that tapper to Litherland, do you think you could keep it now and bring it up in your bag securely packed with clothes? Don’t forget to bring headphones, will you? And I think there is also a pair of socks I asked you to try to shrink for me. Have you done them?
Well, darling, I’m afraid I must be off now as I still have a lot to do. Now we have a definite date to look forward to the time will fly because there won’t be much more than a week from the time you receive this before you will be getting the children off to Litherland and Limedale. I still love you, darling, and am interested to know to what extent you can disturb my bellbottoms! As if I didn’t know. Bye, precious, I really must go. All my love.
Ever your own,
Arthur X

Apr 221942
 

Wednesday
Aberdeen
By now, of course, you will have received my letters giving the news of the arrangements which have been made and I am expecting to hear from you any day on that subject. If Bill Veacock finds a better train for you, and if anyone can he is the lad, let me know at the earliest possible moment so that I can get a plan mapped out in my head. If you can get here before 9 o’clock there is the advantage that we have our sports day on Fridays and can usually get away from school by about 4.45, so if your train is due to arrive anywhere about that time I could still meet you. Mind you, I doubt if the trains will be very much behind time at this period of the year. The only thing that delayed us on the way here was the fact that there had been an air raid and an accident on the line. For three-quarters of the journey we were dead on time, but when the train had to be diverted we not only missed our connection but the train after that as well. Instead of leaving Edinburgh at 9.30am we left at 2.30. In view of that I should not worry too much if you do have to catch the train due here at 9pm although, naturally, it will be better in every way if you can get here earlier in the day. Anyway, get that train business fixed up as early as you can and let me know the result as soon as possible, then, according to the time I can let you know what are the possibilities of my seeing you.
When you do come up there are a few things I would like you to bring up for me if you can find room for them. What will you do about cases? Have we one big enough for you? If not, don’t hesitate to ask Eric for I think he has two or three very good ones, but tell him you want one you can carry and not a portmanteau. Perhaps you could manage a case and the small weekend case. There will be a few things for me to give you, only small things, including that group photograph from Skeg, which is even worse than the other but I want to save it because of all the lads on it.
This is being written under great difficulty and against time. There is a gathering of the lads in our room and, as one of them is a married man going on leave tomorrow he is, as you can imagine, getting lots of good advice from all the single lads!
What did I want to ask you? Oh yes! Will you get me some razor blades – for slotted razor – and post them up to me as soon as possible? If you can manage it I’d like them for the weekend as I’m right down on blades and I don’t want to have to buy Blue Gillettes, they’re far too dear.
I’m glad you had such a nice time at the Rosses’. Madge and Hughie are good and when I get a chance I’ll write them, but just now time is very precious indeed. I have a fair load of stuff to write up tonight so I must go now, but before I sign off – get in touch with Eric about the case, it will remind him about the fare!
All my love, darling. Hate to leave you but I must.
Always yours,
Arthur X

Apr 231942
 

Thursday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
For a weekend letter this will be definitely the shortest on record, I’m afraid, but it cannot be helped. We have had a busy day today and I’m going back again tonight. So far as I can see the procedure is not going to worry us a lot but the Morse is a bit slow and I want to get all the practice I can. Funnily enough I can manage quite well on cypher (groups of figures), code (groups of letters without sequence) and a mixture of both, but when it come down to plain English my mind just wanders. It is only a matter of concentration, I think, and we still have a full week before our exam. In any case the exam will be slower than we are receiving at now.
Just back from Torry after a couple of hours fairly solid work and I feel quite pleased with what has been done. Let’s hope it will bear fruit in the morning.
Mother’s parcel, which you evidently addressed, arrived tonight. Will you thank her for it if you see her during the weekend? I’ll try to scribble her a note during the weekend. Tomorrow night I’ll get down to Hutcheon Street and find the full address so that you should have it well before you dump the children. I’m not making any attempt to answer your letters now because I don’t think there is anything outstanding to be answered. Have vapours started? An important question now!
Bye, sweet. Be seeing you in less than a week from the time you receive this! Nice work. Bye for now, pet.
All your own,
Arthur

Apr 251942
 

Saturday
Aberdeen
Dear Michael,
Before you go on holiday I thought I would like to send you a little letter to say that I hope you will have a nice time at Nanna’s. Yesterday the postman brought me a cake from Nanna, so will you say “thank you” to her from me when you see her? Mummy has told me what a good boy you have been for a long time now and I know you will be just as good for Nanna while Mummy is having a holiday with me in Scotland. I know Nanna will have lots of things to show you while you are with her. I know you will enjoy yourself and will be a good boy.
Do you know what I did yesterday? I didn’t go to school in the afternoon, but instead I played football and we won. Daddy did not let the ball go past him once. I went skating on the ice last night and afterwards saw a lot of funny men who go to a big school here called the University. They were dressed as soldiers and sailors ands cowboys and Indians and some of them had long whiskers like Father Xmas. They were collecting pennies for people who are sick in hospital.
Well, night night, son. I will see you in three months and then I’ll be home for a whole week.
Love from Daddy

Dear Wendy,
I have such a lot to do now that I have not very much time to write letters so I thought that instead of going for a walk this afternoon I would write to you and Michael. Are you looking forward to going to Grandma’s to sleep? I do hope you will have a nice time and that there will be a lot of sunshine because then Auntie Chris might let Jennifer play out with you for a little bit. You will have to be careful, of course, because Jennifer is only a little girl yet, isn’t she? Even if Auntie Chris thinks she is too little to play out, you will be able to go shopping with them, won’t you? And do you think you will be able to help Grandma in the house? I’m sure there are lots of little things you will be able to do. I know you will be a good girl for Grandma while Mummy is in Scotland. In another three months I will be able to come home for a whole week. Won’t that be nice? I must say night night now. Do you remember how I always used to say “See you in the morning”? Well, now I’ll say “See you in three months”. Night night and have a nice time. My love to Grandma.
Love from Daddy

Angel,
Many thanks for your letter with some idea of train times. From your reference to Madge I take it the Rosses are coming to Crosby this weekend. As soon as you get the definite time of arrival, will you let me know? Just in case you do arrive before I can get to the station, here are two ways to get to your digs. Don’t forget the address is Hutcheon Street and the name Mrs Grant. Now to get there: At the station you should be able to get a No. 19 bus marked Rosehill. The conductress will put you off at Hutcheon Street if you ask her. If you have long to wait at the station, go into Union Street and get a No. 17 bus. I don’t think you will need the 17, but if you do, be sure to get on the bus going to Hilton. If you get on the other one you will finish up in Torry and I’d not like that for not even I could save you from being killed in the rush which is always made by 400 crazy matelots when a bus is sighted. I never believed grown men could be as childish or fight as wildly and with less consideration than our fellows.
All the houses in Aberdeen, or almost all of them, are built as flats, as I think I have told you before. Mrs Grant lives in the top flat. Don’t ring at the front door. Just push the door open and walk up the stairs – don’t worry, it’s quite the usual thing to do. Go as far up the stairs as you can and on the top landing you will find yourself facing two doors. Both are inhabited by Grant families. The one you want is the right-hand door as you face them from the top of the stairs. Don’t forget – the RIGHT-hand door. Now I think you will find the place alright, but if you have any doubts drop me a line by return post – don’t wait until morning. However, if you are correct in saying you have to go to Glasgow and wait there two hours, I wouldn’t be at all surprised if I am away from school by the time you get here. Is the all-night journey going to be worth it if you are only going to save four or five hours? Anyway, it’s not worth debating that point until I know the exact time you are expected. I’m not going to debate the little points – other than those connected with your journey – which you raise in your letter. I should imagine we will be OK if you can bring £5 in cash and your bank-book just as a stand-by. We may need it!
There are a few things I’d like you to bring for me when you come. They are: two writing pads if there are any left, if not don’t worry because I still have a reasonable supply; a small notebook, soft back, if there are any in my desk but again, if not, don’t worry; my air raid diary; corn ointment if there’s any left in a box on our dressing table; empty tobacco tin; hard boot brush from those I returned; my other razor from the bathroom cabinet and tube of Shavex from same place; and your marking pencil for my underclothes and hankies. Thanks for the razor blades but I asked for the slotted blades. If you bring my other razor, however, I’ll be able to use any type of blade in it and slotted blades are hard to get here. When you are going I’ll give a few things to take back with you, but I think I mentioned that before.
Yes, I think you are right about the type of letter you have been writing lately. It’s the best way just now. And talking of letters, I hear the stock at sick bay has run out! So I will have to hunt round for other sources of supply! The Far East is likely to be a serious loss to the husbands and wives of the British Empire, but perhaps not so serious a loss to them as to the single lads and lasses if my memory serves me aright! To think of the times we discarded perfectly good evidence after one occasion in our careless youthful days! Woe is me – and you. And perhaps careless days is a good description, too. Lie down, John! He’s got a touch of spring fever today so I hope you’ll excuse him. Oh my darling! No need to say more is there? Away from that theme, it’s too dangerous.
Glad to hear about vapours, but sorry about the extent to which you had to go. Don’t go carrying on beyond your time, will you? And now that vapours have started, don’t go and overdo the housework. When you get here, I don’t want you to be tired out. Above all else, to be serious for a minute, I want you to go home feeling better for the change of scenery, as well as for other reasons!
There is little to report of my own activities beyond the fact that I got what would be considered a pass in a “procedure” paper on Thursday. I wasn’t satisfied with the way my paper was marked, but for all that I got just over 70%. I expected 90% but the instructor tells us there are a lot of fellows who are taking finals who could not pass it.
Well, pet, this is all for now. Only a few more days after you get this. Try to get all the sleep you can on the way up here. No, even if you arrive in the afternoon, I don’t think I will sleep at Hutcheon Street on the Friday because the snag is the business in getting up in time to be at the baths for 7am. The Grants are not up at 6.30am and that would be the very latest I dare get up. If I’m late for the baths, I will have to go back to Torry on Monday night.
As you will gather from my letters to the children, it was Students Day in Aberdeen on Friday. So I have seen a flag day in Aberdeen and the music hall jokes are all wrong. The people are quite generous and very helpful.
Now darling I really must go. If I post this now I think you will get it on Monday morning, then if there is anything you want answering, sit down, write me and go straight to the post and I will have it by Wednesday.
Bye, my angel. See you in six more days! Whoopee! All my love, my darling.
Ever your own,
Arthur X

Apr 261942
 

Sunday
Aberdeen
Darling,
Well, sweet, there’s only a few days now! Hope you are not doing too much and that vapours are not too bad. I wonder if I have worked it out right this time? According to my reckoning they should clear up on Thursday, but that’s running it a bit close, isn’t it? If I were you I should be inclined to travel ready prepared for a minor outbreak! And don’t forget the evidence. It looks as if we may need them. I’m just wondering if I ought to write one of the lads and get him to post some to me from home! No, I’m not serious, love, but if you do get a chance of picking any up, do so, won’t you? I’ll get some, but we can’t be too sure, nor can we have too many.
Now to be practical in the ordinary domestic sense. What are you going to do about locking up the house? Are you going to let Mother have a key? And, if so, how are you going to get into the house when you return? One snag about giving Mother the run of the house is that you never know where she will get, so you had better plant my letters in a pretty safe place. And talking about letters, if you want to write Mrs Grant her initial is J. It might not do any harm to let her know you appreciate all the difficulties of wartime feeding, a point I made when I was talking to her. Just a word of warning. I learned on Saturday that the feeling in Aberdeen is that no decent woman goes into a pub for a drink, so be very guarded in what you write and say! When in Rome…
Mrs Smith, that is Ralph’s landlady who was responsible for getting us fixed up, wants us to pop in and see her while you are here. She’s quite a good soul but apt to want to do a little too much for you. You know the type. Still, she means well.
In the letter she sent with the parcel, Mother was quite contrite about your visit to Litherland. She skirted round the subject without actually touching on it, but it is obvious she is trying to find out just how much I know – if anything. I’m going to try to drop her a note of acknowledgment tonight and, of course, will give no hint that you have mentioned the matter. She seems full of the idea of having Michael there. I hope it works out alright.
I was going to try to fix a day and time for you to ring me at the Club, but I’m not here anything like so often as I was and it is next to impossible to guarantee just when I will be here. If there is any last minute change in your plans you had better wire me at Gilcomston Park. I think we have covered the ground pretty fully and can see no reason why anything should go awry.
By the way, we had an air raid here last night. A real one. Bombs were dropped by a single raider and there were several casualties but only one fatal one – a kiddie. Thought I’d better tell you in case you thought I was keeping things from you! We were having supper at Ralph’s billet when the siren went and the Smiths got a bit excited and when the bombs went off in the middle of a political argument we pacified Mrs Smith by telling her they were guns, as indeed we thought they were. We were quite surprised to find they were actually bombs.
We spent an interesting and entertaining afternoon at King’s College – the arts side of Aberdeen University – today. We wandered in quite by chance and two very young students who were on fire-watching duty got talking and showed us round the place. There is a lovely old chapel and what is called the Crown Gate, both dating back to the 1450s. The chapel, of course, was of R.C. foundation and the old monks’ stalls are still there in their original condition. It’s amusing to see where the old lads, just like schoolboys, have carved their initials and names in. Some of them go back to the 1540s. The whole college is a fine piece of work and the authorities have had the nouse to have all the additions done in the very same stone – Morayshire granite – as the old original building. I thought of you when we were being shown through the lovely old library, with its 50,000 books on all subjects and its Shakespearean first manuscripts tucked away in a safe buried deep below granite foundations. These Scots take no chances! Altogether a very pleasant afternoon. Now we must see Marischal College – the medical and scientific faculties – some time.
Well, darling, I’m afraid that’s all for tonight. I’ll have more for you in a few nights from now! And how! Whoopee. Night night, angel girl. See you on Friday. All my love, sweetheart.
All yours – on Friday.
Arthur X
P.S. Can you give the children two sixpences each? One from you and one from me. They might like it. Have you seen or heard from Eric yet?

Apr 271942
 

Monday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
This will probably be my last letter to you as I’m going back to school tomorrow night and that leaves no time for letter writing. Anything I wrote on Wednesday would probably arrive after you had left. I need the extra nights at school, too. We had a weekly test on receiving today and I got 73%, which was not bad really as the general standard in the class was not very good – only 4 out of 50 got more than 90%, which is considered pretty bad, especially as three of the four have had pretty long experience. The week after you arrive we have our weekly test and if we don’t get 85% we have to come back to compulsory classes four nights a week. I don’t know what it is going to be like when we get on to real speed but I should imagine it will be pretty tough, which is one reason why I wanted you to come up here early – but only one reason. There are others which I may tell you about when you get here.
I don’t think you raise any questions in your letter which have not already been dealt with, except the one about cigarettes. Bring some, by all means, but I think you will find things reasonably good here. I can get ten Woodbines a day at the pre-budget price from our canteen at school. But we can fix those things up later on. The tobacco situation is not too good for we only get half a pound a month – it is difficult to get people to get it for you these days. For the last few days I have had to buy cigarettes and it is expensive. Occasionally we can get a packet at pre-budget prices at the NAAFI, but that is at the other end of town and you have to get there when there is nobody else in. Not an easy job. Anyway, you bring a few cigarettes with you and then we will sort the matter out. That, I think, is your only query, except the one about evidence which I answered in advance in yesterday’s letter. And in the same letter I gave you a list of the things I wanted you to bring. The point about sleeping at Hutcheon Street was also dealt with. One other thing you might bring is a couple of packs of Press Club cards. They may be useful some time.
It’s funny that you should travel via Glasgow, but I see it only adds a couple of hours to the time. I’m afraid I won’t be at the station to greet you as I will just be getting on a Torry bus going away from Hutcheon Street at that time. Still, I’ll be seeing you soon afterwards. I should say exactly three-and-a-quarter hours later. Only three-and-a-quarter hours! If you are a little late getting into Aberdeen, that means you will just have had time to get to Mrs Grant’s and have a meal and a wash by the time I arrive! Or shall I go up to Gilcompton Park first, and then come to see you? No, perhaps not! I was only thinking that if I did that I would not need to leave you again until bedtime. But perhaps the best thing is for me to come and see you for a time before tea. I’ll have to go to the billet for several things so I might as well do that when I go up for tea.
I’m writing this in our bedroom and since I started one of the lads in another room got the bright idea of changing into his white ducks so that Percy could take their photographs. Result, an invasion of our room and, eventually, a group of Mediterranean sailors, complete with parrot, in the garden. The lads are fairly young and are what we call “tiddly” sailors. That is, they take a lot of pains to look smart, if anyone can look smarter in this damned uniform. One of the lads – Don, who comes from Wallasey, incidentally – got a couple of clothes pegs to take in the slack of his white duck jumper. Percy got a snap of him from the back and we are hoping they will come out well. All this brings up another point. What about asking Dave for the loan of an ordinary folding camera while you are here? He’ll probably give you a couple of films and develop them for you when you get back, so it is a good stunt. By the way, did he ever say whether he got that letter I wrote him? I would like some snaps of the various places I go to during the war. Later on they will be interesting to me – but probably to no one else.
Well, my angel, this is all just now. Except to say that several times during the day I have fallen to thinking of you and such lovely day dreams they were. Oh, pet, I do love you, and in such a different, deeper way since I have been away from you. Do you know, sweetheart, I look at thousands of women in Aberdeen every day and, somehow, don’t regard them as being feminine because you have become the embodiment of the other sex for me. I never realised how completely detached one could become. Which is just another way of saying I love you and only you, my sweet. Bye now, until Friday.
All your own,
Arthur X
P.S. A thought has just occurred to me. What about the house being open to fire watchers if there should be a raid? I think the proper procedure is to leave a key with a neighbour and inform the warden you are going away and tell him where the key is. I know nothing is likely to happen but 1–8 May was a hectic time last year! I’m not being depressing, but facing things as they are and remembering what has to be done. Will you leave the key with Dave? Better leave it somewhere where there is a man in the house.
P.P.S. I’m still wondering how you will like kissing me without any teeth. I’m quite anxious.

May 131942
 

Wednesday
Aberdeen
Sweetheart,
Thank you for a lovely holiday. It did make a difference to me to have you close to me again and to be able to look forward to seeing you at the end of each day’s work. No matter what had happened it would have been worth it. Did you get to Crosby without any complications about late trains? Hope you had a nice journey. From what Mrs Grant said, your train was pretty crowded and you evidently got into a carriage full of servicemen’s wives. I’ll bet they didn’t stand you any beer on the train! Did you see Don Mac at Glasgow? I thought of you as I was going back to school and thought at that time you must have been struggling into Central with your bag.
How are the children after their holiday and have all your high hopes of a few days’ peace been realised? One thing I did mean to do on Sunday night was write a note to them. Hope you found May better than when you saw her last. Did you give her my love? I really must write soon but this is the first time I have sat down to letters – written ones – since you left. Last night was impossible because we went to see Chu Chin Chow and quite enjoyed it, although the singing was not up to the standard I had expected. Still, it was quite good. On Monday night, of course, I felt I couldn’t face a writing pad and, instead, went back to school for an hour, going on from there for a really final drink with Arthur, who, I found, had been drinking in a solitary state for two hours and was on the verge of suicide when I arrived!
I’m sorry to say I did not do so well in my weekly exam and, as I fell below the 85% mark, I have to go back four nights next week. I don’t mind that very much except that on Tuesday we all want to go to Her Majesty’s to see Henry Hall on his guest night, so think of the lads if you listen in at 8.30. I am going to ask if I can go back on Thursday or Friday this week instead of next Tuesday. As I have been back for voluntary on several occasions I might wangle out of it. Anyway, I’m going to try.
Mother sent on an airgraph letter yesterday. It was from Jane, as you will see. Will you keep it for me? Better let Mother see it. I made enquiries here and they say we cannot send airgraphs from here to India as the date for the operation of the scheme from this country has not yet been announced. Keep an eye open and if you see any news of the scheme let me know. Now that they know I’m in the Navy they may worry a bit. If you do write them this week, will you let them know the cable, money and airgraph all arrived? They may get your letter more quickly than mine.
Will you finish off the spool in the camera as soon as you can and let Dave have it back again? He will probably let you have prints in a day or two. This seems to be a letter of questions and requests! Here are a couple more: Did you remember to tell Dave to tell Bill Black that pipe smokers here say that tobacco should be mixed with something heavier? And have you been able to get hold of Hughie about the cigarette machines? I’m going to be desperate for one soon, because Arthur went today.
Well, darling, that’s about all the news and cross-questioning. The Grant family send their regards. I will keep in touch with them while I’m here, but do not promise to keep a weekly date with them. I expect you’ll be dropping Mrs Grant a line.
By the way, one other little thing. Will you please tell Mother that the tapper arrived yesterday? I’ll drop Bert a line during the weekend and probably write Mother as well.
Really must close now, sweetheart, as there is lots to be done and it is bath morning tomorrow. Write and tell me all the news of yourself, darling, and how the children are and how your allotment is. And perhaps it might occur to you to tell me other things as well. I do miss you, pet.
All my love. I do hope the holiday has done you as much good as it has done me and that it will stay with you for a long time. I won’t forget it quickly. As we said before, Aberdeen is on the roll of honoured places now. Night night, angel. I love you, you know.
Ever your own,
Arthur X

May 141942
 

Thursday
Aberdeen
Sweetheart,
It was good to receive your letter this afternoon. What a good soul you are. While you were sitting down to write to me amid the welter of unpacking, there was I sitting in the theatre and NOT writing to poor little Stelly-Well. I feel very guilty about that, love.
You have no idea how I miss you, but it’s good to know that you are feeling settled and cheerful and, in many ways, glad to be home again. I know what you mean when you speak of the house welcoming you. I have felt myself wrapped in the atmosphere of home routines when I have come in after a particularly hard and long day – such a day, or night, as I had when the raids were at their heights. The personal warmth of home was wonderful then. Almost like putting on a snug warm coat on a bitter winter’s day.
The reactions of the children were interesting. I wonder if Michael is going to grow up with a greater emotional depth, or is it just that he is younger? Wendy is a bit of a puzzle sometimes. Her affection for Mrs Grundy, for instance. I should have thought Jennifer would have held the stage against all-comers and that Wendy would have had eyes for no one else. I liked the story of Jennifer’s reactions to Mickey Mouse. Who else was it did almost the same thing? I can’t remember if it was one of ours or June or David! What, by the way, did you tell the children about me and what did they think of all the things you had to tell them of the journey? I suppose they fired questions at you every moment. Or were they too full of their own doings? I expect you will get the whole story from them by degrees. They would be disappointed not to find Tiger awaiting them. Has he turned up yet? He may have been led astray by some unknown successor to Blackie!
I could not give your good wishes to the boys who were going because, to be Irish, they had gone! But I did tell them that you sent your good wishes and I’ll send your invitation to them when I write them at Scotia. They have promised to drop us a line and give us the low down on what the place is like. I have no doubt there has been considerable exaggeration about conditions, but Arthur has promised to write us with the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth, a report I’m awaiting with great interest. Percy and Ralph are not likely to be stationed in Liverpool, but I will certainly tell them, at the opportune moment, to look us up if they are in Liverpool. I can just imagine what Percy would say if he did find himself tied down in Liverpool for the rest of the war.
Well, darling, time is slipping by and I MUST get to bed early tonight because, as I think I told you, we were at the baths this morning. Last night, just as I was about to strip for a wash and shave and early bed, in came Flo with supper and stayed talking to us both – there was no one else in the house and I think she misses the other lads, to whom she used to chatter a lot when at a loose end.
Angel, as I’ve said before and, no doubt, will say again, you don’t know what those days – and nights! – with you meant to me. Sunday was the nicest day we had, I think. It was so like the good old days to lie in the sun and rest my head on your breast. If only it could have been among the sandhills, the illusion would have been complete. Never mind, precious, the days are slipping past – to me it seems impossible that I will be “talking” Morse at 20 words a minute in so short a time so I’m working as hard as I can and hope to make the grade. I’ll go mad if anything happens to keep me here. Frank, for instance, has been here 20 weeks now and yet will not finish until we do, for he has now joined our class. I felt sorry for him when he saw the lads going the other day, for he was here before they were. He is still a bit fed-up over that.
Now, my darling, I must leave you. Take care of yourself and don’t waste the good effects of the holiday by getting too tired at nights, and tell me if you are sleeping any better. I love you, pet, so look after yourself. Hug the children for me.
All your own,
Arthur X

P.S. When are Madge and Hughie coming?

May 171942
 

Sunday
Aberdeen
Sweetheart,
In face of considerable opposition, consisting of several matelots and one young lad belonging to the family who never keeps still for one minute, I’m doing my best to write you. As I had no letter on Saturday – neglecting me already, eh? – I presumed that you had been over to the Rosses or else they had come over to see you. Was I right? If they did, I hope you had a nice time. Tell me what happened about Hughie and Madge during their holidays, especially if you heard how the dance went.
I began this letter just two hours ago and I have had it on my knee ever since. I have determined to go on writing even if I only get an odd sentence in between George’s reminiscences and home worries. Poor George is worried about his youngster who is evidently afflicted with a bad throat.
Today the weather has been smashing. Hot and a clear blue sky after half a day’s rain yesterday. The allotments here are just beginning to show real signs of life and the rain will do them all the good in the world. The potatoes are showing through everywhere and onions and all the other things are showing through beautifully. Every day I inspect your plot by proxy. In other words I look over the Chief’s plot every day during stand-easy so that I almost know it as well as he does! Anyway, I’m drifting from the point. What I was going to say was that I went with Percy and Ralph to Nigg Bay today. The sea was delightfully hot and we spent two fine hours scrambling among the rocks and looking into all the little pools. You should have seen those matelots crawling about helping the local kids to find winkles or, as they call them, “buckies”. We eventually took the cliff path and walked round the next little bay discovering some fine little coves which would have been ideal for picnics. I’m sorry we did not see more of it while you were here. Although the weather was nothing like it has been today. The little rain seems to have brought the real summer weather. I’m thinking that next Sunday I may get some sandwiches and go down there on my own. Percy is going to Arbroath to pay a return visit to a pal of his who came over here yesterday. He is in the Fleet Air Arm and is a nice young fellow. As he is in the supply branch I’m going to see if he can get some towels for you, but don’t bank on it. He tells me, by the way, that they are not as good as they were. Anyway, if I can get them I’ll either post them to you or bring them with me when I come. I’m also trying to get a fellow out of our class to send me a pound of boiled sweets just before I come home. That, also, is something indefinite, but I will get them if I can. Anyway, I’m straying again! Percy is going to Arbroath next Sunday and Ralph’s girl is expected at Aboyne the same weekend so it looks as if I shall be alone on Sunday. If the weather is like this I’ll have a picnic tea and do some writing at Nigg Bay. I called in at Smith’s today and the family there asked after your welfare. They send their regards and hope you enjoyed the holiday. I haven’t been in to see the Grants this weekend. I’ll try to pop round next weekend, perhaps on Saturday.
I did think of going to see Kathleen to ask her to get seats for Henry Hall’s guest night because when Percy went every seat in the house had gone so it doesn’t look as if we will get there now. I’m disappointed because I had been looking forward to that night. Ever since I heard Miff Smiff I have been wanting to see him.
How have the children settled down now? Are they still fit? Sorry to hear about the bike. Have you got it back yet? What was the extent of the damage? Hope it is not too bad. I must write to Mother soon because I haven’t written her a line since before you came up here. She’ll be taking the huff! I did intend to write tonight and would have done so but for all those lads staying in our room. They have just gone out for supper and it is 11 o’clock. They have been here since 7.30 chatting away to beat the band. I still have to wash, shave and clean my boots so it’s goodbye to all hopes of an early night.
Well, darling, I really must be off. I’m dog tired. I’m hoping to have a letter from you tomorrow. Sweetheart, I love you still and July cannot come soon enough for me. I’m longing to see you again and to see the children, too. Somehow, having seen you I miss you more now and I’m wondering what is going to be the reaction of the children when they see me. I wonder if they will recognise me? I doubt it very much, especially as you say my voice has changed. What with a different voice, different clothes and different teeth, they’ll never know me. That would be a real blow, but I couldn’t blame them. I do so want to see them again and I’ll go mad if anything happens to put me back in the course. I just couldn’t bear that. Anyway, we have another S.B.X. [Standard Buzzer Exercise] tomorrow at 11 words a minute and I’ll let you know how I go on. I do hope I do well in it. Not only because I want to evade the compulsory work but because of the extra confidence it will give me. Anyway, I have worked hard this week and feel I have made some progress.
Now I’m off to shave. Bye, my angel, for now. Take care of yourself. If there is any reward for virtue and hard work I should leave here ten weeks on Wednesday. Whoopee!
All my love, precious. Your own,
Arthur X

May 191942
 

Tuesday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
I AM going to hear Henry Hall after all. When the lads found we could not get seats for everyone tonight they decided not to bother with the show at all. However, one of the lads in our class had a spare ticket so I wangled out of going back to school and am going on my own. I shall think of you while I am there, just in case you are listening. It will be like another Aberdeen reunion! At least, just a little echo of our visit. I’m looking forward to seeing just what this Miff Smiff is like. Remember how when we listened to ‘Guest Night’ at home I was always intrigued? So I shall fulfil another little ambition tonight.
This afternoon, on the way back from the dentist, I satisfied another one by watching the salmon fishers bring in their nets, but it was a blank haul and I’m sure I was more disappointed than they were. I had been to the dentist to see about an impression, but he advises me to wait another month. Even then, he says, there will be plenty of time for me to get my false ones before I leave here. One of the P.O.s tells me this fellow is very good and takes a lot of trouble. Apparently this dentist condemned a set the P.O. got at Devonport and fixed him up with a smashing set which have given no trouble at all. I’m in no hurry to get my new set while I’m here.
I rather think I shall have to go to sick bay again tomorrow. I have a raw patch inside my leg at the very top due, I think, to my underpants creasing and rubbing the one spot. In the last few days I have been perspiring a good deal there and as these pants are fairly tight, as you know, I find it very painful when I sit down for very long. So would you look out two pairs of my civvy underpants and send them on to me at once, please? If you can get them here before the weekend I should be grateful, but will you make sure they are pairs with decent elastic in the tops? As they are so much thinner they will probably help to make me a lot more comfortable.
Your horticultural letter was just what I have been waiting for. In the last few days we have had rain and warm sun alternately and every time I stop to look at things shooting through I wonder what you have done in the garden and how it is progressing. Now I have a good idea and I think you have done splendidly. I mean that, love. While you are putting calomel round the caulis, do the cabbage as well. The object, you know, is to frighten away the cabbage fly, which attacks all the brassicas. Are you going to grow any sprouts? Why not set your own seed? Last year, if you remember, we had the best sprouts from our own Woolworths seed. I should get some in at once. About the onions. From your sketch you have evidently found the right position for the row, which is about 18 inches to two feet wide and runs right along to the path. And are the onions you have put in our own sets? Or aren’t you going to bother? If you do put any of them in, let me know how they go. In fact I’ll be glad to hear of the progress all the things are making. By the way, don’t forget that marrows used lashings and lashings of manure. A good place for them would be where the present manure heap is, if you have used most of it – as you apparently have done – by the time you put them in. If you want pieces of slate to put under the fruit as they are growing, to keep them from rotting on the ground, you should find quite a lot of pieces under Russell’s hedge. I threw quite a bit there. Have you heard anything of the tomatoes from Sid? If not, will it be worth getting some from the nursery? I should suggest putting them along one side of Russell’s as the potatoes are in their old place, aren’t they? Just one more suggestion – get all the winter greens in that you can and lots of peas for drying and beans for salting. They might go where the cabbage and caulis were last year, unless you have anything else in view for there. What of the salad greens? And will you be putting more turnip in later? They lasted until quite late into the year last year, if I remember rightly.
Well, sweetheart, as I said before, I think you have done excellently and any suggestions I have made here are only to show just how interested I am and are not in any way criticisms. By the way, keep the tomatoes – if any – well away from wireworm. Do you think you will get any blackcurrants this year? Mason will probably be able to advise you on those. I’m glad you’re finding him easier to understand. He really is a decent fellow. Give him my regards occasionally.
Just before I go. Give Michael a pat on the back for me if you feel he deserves it, although I’m sorry he is making life a burden for Wendy. There’s no news from the school yet, I suppose. What did she think of the brooch, or didn’t she? I’ll keep an eye open for the magnets.
Must be off now, precious. Take care and don’t overtire yourself in the garden. Are you sleeping any better? I do hope so.
All my love, angel. I love you more than ever.
Always yours,
Arthur X
P.S. I’ve scribbled a note to Mother at last.

Dear Wendy & Michael,
I meant to write to you before now but I have been very busy at school and even in the evenings I go back to school, so you will see that I have not much spare time.
Did you have a nice holiday? I hope you did, but I expect you were glad to see Mummy come back home. I was very glad to see her in Aberdeen and I knew you would not mind lending her to me for a few days. You are lucky to have her with you every day. Did you like the postcards we sent you from Aberdeen, and did Grandma and Nanna read them to you? Mummy will have told you about the nice walks we went on and about all the baby lambs we saw. Did she tell you that one day we saw two horses with men on their backs running very fast after a horse which did not have a man on its back? I said to Mummy, “Wouldn’t Michael and Wendy like to see these horses running so fast?”
Mummy has been telling me about all the things she has planted in the allotment this year. I wish I was in Crosby to see them. I sometimes look at gardens here and see all the peas and cabbage growing and wonder if ours are as big as them. Have you a garden each this year? If you have, tell me when you write to me what is growing in them.
I am sending you some sweets which I bought from a man who goes to school with me. He has no children and when he knew I had a little girl and a little boy at home he said I could send them to you so I gave him some pennies for them. I hope you will like them. Will you give Mummy some, because I know she likes them. Now that the warm weather is here I hope you have both lost your colds and that you are out in the sunshine getting nice and brown, because when I come home I want to see you both big and strong.
Love from Daddy

May 211942
 

Thursday
Aberdeen
Sweetheart,
I felt on Tuesday, having finally got a ticket for ‘Henry Hall’s Guest Night’, as if I was going to keep a date with you and was only sorry that I couldn’t let you know, after all, that I would be in the theatre. I was one of the people who roared when Miff Smiff came on and was thinking of you, wondering if you were listening in. So when you were writing your letter I was very very close to you. In my imagination I could see you with a pad and pen listening a bit, writing a bit, and perhaps between whiles pulling at that little piece of hair you always play with. That was my mental picture of you and I don’t think I could have been far out, could I? The show was quite good and a real change. Miff Smiff, by the way, is not as funny as you would expect by his introduction, but he continually twists his hands in the best Sydney Howard manner, and feigns utter nervousness very well indeed. The ventriloquist is the best I have ever seen. On the whole a good show somewhat spoiled by the fact that I sat next to a bloke out of our class who never laughed or clapped once all night!
As usual, time is getting on, so I’ll try to answer all the points in your letter at once. Thanks for the snaps. I think they are quite good and I like the one of the Brig o’ Balgownie. What happened to those of the children? Were they complete flops? I’d like a picture of them in their summer things. Can you borrow the camera from Dave again and take a few? By the way, I wrote to Dave the day before the snaps came so will you thank him for developing them? If you see Peggy or Arthur tell them how glad I am Arthur is likely to be out of this business. Tell them I was asking after them.
I’m only sorry to hear about the bike. I can’t for the life of me understand how any man can charge 2/6 for putting a chain on a wheel. Are you sure he has not put a new chain on? If he has not and you should ever need a new chain, I think you will find one which may be the right gauge on the top shelf in the kitchen. It will, of course, have to be cut in about half, but Dave could do that easily with a punch.
As you will know by now from a letter which must have crossed yours, I’m never bored by details of the plot and the garden. In fact I revel in them. To me they represent such a definite aspect of home and even though I’m not there to do the work, I often wonder just what the difference is between the seasons there and here. One plot I pass every day has several rows of greens in and, like you, they have not lost one. We have had a little rain, which has worked wonders with the gardens, but even now all the trees are not in full leaf and the tulips are just about at their best. This year, if I were you, I should leave the potatoes in as late as you possibly can. I’m sure we would have got a better yield by leaving them longer last year. I should get all your peas in as soon as possible now, so as to give them a good long growing season for the rows you are going to dry. Do you remember that last year we decided that the drying peas should be left completely alone and NONE taken for the table? Another thing we learned last year was that the beans should be picked while young, so you had better prepare your jars early and lay in a good stock of salt as soon as you can or everyone will be on the same lay. I did get some permanganate of potash for the fleas but I don’t know where it is. Remember, the crystals are a purplish colour so don’t confuse them with the Vandyke brown! Glad to hear about the rockery. Did you put any of the Aberdeen bulbs in there? They would make a nice show next spring if there is room for them. When you are weeding, if I’m not too late, don’t forget to keep an eye open for some of those little plants of the carnation variety which Sid gave us last year. Remember them? Don’t pull them out! I’m looking forward to seeing all you have done with the garden and the allotment and I’m so glad you are now regarded as an expert! Quite seriously, I’m glad you have taken to it so well for it has the double advantage of keeping you occupied out of doors and paying a handsome dividend. Don’t forget, keep me me posted with the progress of things because I really am interested. The plot represents a sane side of war life.
Don’t forget, if you resent or disagree with any of the suggestions I make from time to time, let me know! I can take it! Well, that’s about all on the garden for the moment but, before I forget, there is one thing I’m very interested in. Why I should remember it now when I have forgotten it in each of my letters I cannot say. The point is, will you let me know when vapours materialise? You know what everyone said about the Aberdeen air! And you know what they did not know, that two of the evidence had already done yeoman service! Don’t forget. I’ll be looking for that V sign.
Well, precious, the light is failing in our room and when I tell you that blackout here is well after 11.30 now, you will realise that time is getting on. I’ll save the news of school for my next letter. I was up soon after six, this being bathing day. I have been going to sick bay twice a day to have my leg painted and it is almost better already, so there is no need to worry.
I believe there was an announcement on the radio tonight about airgraphs to civilians. If I’m not too late, will you see if there is a cutting in the ‘D.P.’ and send me details, just in case I cannot get a paper in the morning? How did the children like the sweets? I think I told you I’m trying to get some boiled sweets from the same source about the time I’m due for leave, but don’t mention them. Let me hear how you are for chocolate and if I can pick up any I will, but only if you are really short.
Now it really is time to say night night. I can scarcely keep my eyes open. Bye bye, my precious. My love to the children and remember me to Mrs Reid and any of the neighbours. I love you dearly, my sweet. Take good care of yourself. Hope you really are feeling fit.
All your own,
Arthur X

May 221942
 

Friday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
This is only a very brief note to let you know that I have sent a parcel of kippers to Waterloo station addressed to you and marked “to be called for”. George, whom I think you met with Don in the Queens Bar one night, got a half box and he and I shared them. There will probably be more than you will need so I thought you might let Bill and Dave have some and perhaps Reg, if there are any over. As you will see, they are rather small, but the people here prefer them that way as they are supposed to be sweeter. Anyway, see what you think of them and let me know.
I’ll write you a more full letter later, but I want to get this off so that you receive it on Monday.
All my love,
Arthur X

May 241942
 

Sunday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
I think I answered all the points from your letter which I received on Friday in my last letter so now to deal with the one I received on Saturday. Thanks for the note about the airgraphs. I have written one to Jane today and will send it off tomorrow when, by the way, I don’t have to go to school. Whoopee! So there is just a chance that I may be able to get some of my arrears of letters wiped out.
Many thanks for the underpants, which arrived on Friday morning. My leg is very much better now and I hoped that the doctor would discharge me on Friday but he didn’t. About the globe beet. Would you like me to get some for you here and, if so, is there anything else you want in the gardening line? There seems to be no shortage of stuff here and I should imagine the Scotch seed would do very well in our warmer part of the world. Anyway, let me know. There’s plenty of chemical fertiliser here, too. Glad to hear that you are going to be kept well supplied with lettuce. Don’t forget Dick was the donor of those very big ones we had last year. About the tomatoes: would they be alright on the left-hand side of the path, just a little nearer Littlewoods than the blackcurrants? They should get plenty of light there and that is what they need.
By now you will have had the little parcel of sweets and a letter to the children, which shows I received the letter containing insurance cards and elephant. I think Wendy did remarkably well. She did do it all by herself, I take it? I didn’t think she had got anywhere near that stage yet. Yes, I did get two letters last Monday. I’ll let you off this time, but don’t let it happen again!
I do hope you will have a nice day for the visit of the Rosses if they do come – really that should be in the past tense, seeing it is now Sunday afternoon. I’m glad, too, to hear that Bill is back safely. How long is he home for, and what was the ship he came home on and which is, apparently, now sunk? Does that mean they were bombed on the way out and torpedoed on the way back? Can you find out if his base is Devonport – I think it will be – and also if there is any indication as to what size ships we are likely to go to. He might be able to tell you a few things if you ask him.
Last week’s exam – in future known as an S.B.X. – didn’t go too well at all. We had a new fellow marking the papers and he is very very keen which, in one way, is all to the good, but it is tough when you are not expecting it. Everyone in the class dropped down as compared with the previous week. All this preamble is just to introduce the fact that I got only 45%, which is by far the worst I have ever done. I was worried, as you can imagine, but feel better about it now. I’m afraid I will not get anything like 85% for some weeks to come, but think I’ll be able to catch up by the end of the course. I think the great fault is that our instructor has been rushing us along far too fast. A fortnight ago he was sending to us at 14–16 wpm and our official speed this week is only 12. The result is that he has had to come down to earth a bit and send stuff much more slowly in the last day or so. Since he has been doing that I have been much more confident and I think confidence in an S.B.X. is worth quite a few marks. Anyway, we will have to see what I can do on Tuesday. So long as I improve pretty substantially on that 45% I don’t mind. I’m not worried about going back four nights a week so long as I can pick the stuff up. On top of this set back, Jimmy the One – that’s our name for the C.P.O. – came in on Tuesday and gave the whole school a lecture. He said, in effect, that My Lords Commissioners of the Admiralty were not satisfied with the standard being attained by telegraphists generally and that trainees would have to get down to it more. Therefore he is going to withdraw the privilege granted the top six men in each class of going home on leave on the Monday. Conditions governing leave are going to be tightened up all round. In future only men getting 90% and over will be allowed to begin their leave on the Wednesday. Those just under 90% go on Friday, and those with a poor mark stay on for an extra week’s instruction and then go straight to Scotia for the rest of the course! As you can imagine, that was a bombshell. So far the new arrangement has not been put into practice because there has not been a class passing out since the new rules came into operation, but there is a crowd going this week so we will see exactly what happens. At first we took the Admiralty criticism as being directed at us at Torry, but apparently this school compares more than favourably with others and the complaints are directed more at places like Glasgow, Manchester and Chatham. From what we can hear, the Aberdeen lads are regarded very favourably at Scotia, for instance, where they meet with fellows from several different schools. Anyway, after all this business I had a chat with Sim, our instructor, and asked him point blank what he thought my prospects were. He said there were three fellows in the class who had no hope and he was going to have them moved. Apart from them he thought we would all get through the course alright, although some might have to go down a class. I told him I wasn’t keen on that idea and he said he thought I would get through with our own class because I was prepared to work. He thinks I have just struck a bad patch which will pass. As a result of that conversation I felt a good deal cheered. Since then the three fellows have left Torry for good and have gone back to their bases. Two of them will get a real tanning when they arrive there for they are given very bad reports from Torry and are likely to get the glasshouse for a few days. The other fellow, you will be sorry to hear, is Edgar Taylor, who was one of our weekend crowd. He never has been very interested in Morse, but has tried and has gone back to his base with quite a good report as to behaviour etc, but is described as being unsuitable for this particular course. I’m sorry he has gone because we used to get quite a lot of fun together. Don Gibson will miss him because they used to go about together a lot and had much in common as they came from the same part of the country. Well that, I think, is just about all the news of school. I’ll let you know how it goes this week. There was a time when I began to get worried about it, but that stage has passed now and I’m glad to say I’m cheerful as ever about it. I’m certainly not worrying now.
Today we have been out at Nigg Bay, this time on official duties. There is an invasion exercise next week and our platoon has been given the doubtful privilege of holding the extreme flank. We were shown our positions today in readiness for next week. I’m sorry for both Percy and Ralph because this business cancelled all leave and, as you know, they were both going away today, Percy just for the day and Ralph for a long weekend. I think Ralph must have managed to get away pretty early this afternoon, but that is not quite the same. Next week we will be tied up all Sunday, which is by no means a happy thought. I only hope it is a decent day; if it is, it may be quite good fun mowing down the “invaders”.
Did the kippers arrive safely? Hope you liked them. I went and picked up Mr Grant last night and we had a couple of drinks with the lads. Mrs Grant, by the way, seemed quite pleased with her funny little animals. They’re quite cute, aren’t they? Mr Grant says if you want a half box of kippers – bigger ones than those I sent – he can get them for 4/6. Will you let me know if you want to split a box with the neighbours? If you do, will you send the “dough”. Sorry to have to ask for the money, but I’m afraid I can’t afford 5/6 (that’s including freightage) out of my week’s wages. Don’t mistake this as a plea for a few bob! It isn’t. When I do need a bit I’ll let you know, but now I’m trying to get down to living on service pay as I’ve got to do now. An interesting experiment!
If I can remember I’ll enclose some snaps Percy took which I would be glad if you will put away for me. One of those of me in the bedroom you might send to Jane by airmail if you have not already written. I’m also returning the insurance cards which I will not need until after the war. By the way, what do you think of the scheme to discharge people from the forces in the order in which they entered? That is going to shock a few people and it is going to mean, incidentally, that I won’t be out until at least two years after the war finishes! Still, once hostilities ARE over that won’t be quite so bad, will it?
I’m going to get this in the post by 8pm and then go for a short stroll as I have been in all afternoon and am feeling a bit “doped”. We have not made any plans for tomorrow as the weather is rather broken just now. I’ll tell you in a later letter where we get to.
Bye for now, darling. If vapours have begun I hope they are not too bad. You will be wise not to do too much heavy work in the garden while they are on. Whatever else you do, don’t get run down again. I’m so glad you are sleeping better. You will do if you try to forget me physically for the next few weeks. I’m TRYING to do that! All my love, angel, for I do love you still.
Ever your
Arthur X

May 271942
 

Wednesday
Aberdeen
My Darling,
This being Wednesday, I’m not back at school so I’ll try to give you an account of the holiday. I think I told you Sunday morning was occupied with invasion stuff. Monday was as bad here as at Liverpool; in fact it seems to have been bad all over the country. It was raining when we got up about 8.15 so I had breakfast in my pyjamas, washed some of my clothes, wrote to Eric at last and then had dinner. In the afternoon we went to the flicks and saw “I Wanted Wings”, a typical Hollywood story of the U.S. Air Force. Back to tea and afterwards letters to Hughie and Durham. Early to bed after that, but I felt better through getting three long-overdue letters away, even though I had to neglect you to do it.
Many thanks for your letters each day. I had one from Dot and Jack today as well. They are expecting to be in Litherland for a week from July 6th, but there’s still no news of a move to Liverpool.
Last night, after school, I went up to the bus terminus to meet Ralph’s girl who is staying at Aboyne and had been in Aberdeen for the day. She seems a very nice girl – the very dark attractive type – and Ralph is obviously the centre of her life. I hope he is not going to let her down, although I have my doubts as to whether he will do anything definite while the war is on. She was only supposed to be here for a weekend, but she has wired her office saying she is staying until next Sunday! She is obviously very much in love and wanting full married life! Perhaps you can sympathise with her! I felt sorry for her, as I always do for girls genuinely in love with someone in the forces. It must be pretty tough, but wartime marriages have such a nasty habit of coming unstuck in the humdrum days of peace after that you cannot blame fellows for steering clear of marriage until they come back.
One thing, though, is that she and her friend, with whom she is staying, have very little consideration for the pocket of the lads in the services. They went for a drink in the cocktail bar of the Douglas, where they don’t sell draught beer, went to a dance for an hour or so and then calmly proposed going to the Caledonian, which is the Aberdeen equivalent of the Adelphi. Percy made up the foursome and was justifiably a bit peeved, for the evening cost him about 10/- and even though he does get civvy pay it is scarcely fair, especially as he is apparently being roped in again on Thursday night. Thank God I’m at night school! Anyway, I just couldn’t do it, and that is all there is to it.
The two girls left at 10 o’clock and by very pressing invitation we went back to Mrs Smith’s because she had a fortune teller in. That was the last thing I wanted but I have refused so often that I couldn’t very well get out of “crossing the lady’s palm with silver”. It would have looked very bad. Anyway, I went and had my fortune told with cards and crystal. Mother would have revelled in it! Boiled down it came to this: that I had been bitterly disappointed this week (how true with 47% in this week’s S.B.X!), but that I was mostly disappointed for the sake of other people who are affected (meaning you and the children I suppose). Still, I’m not to worry as things will straighten themselves out sooner than I expect and I will achieve all my ambitions in this direction (keeping up the morale of the fighting forces!). I’m also to expect good news, lots of it, and money (no specific quantities!). So there you are. As you can imagine, Mrs Smith’s women neighbours were thrilled to bits. They thought her very wonderful. Percy, of course, was not a bit thrilled. As usual he made himself out to be a perfect cynic but later, by chance remarks, showed he was just as impressed as the women. Anyway, that’s that.
Now, about school. As you will see, I’ve improved this week – by exactly two marks! The daft thing is that I dropped 14 marks on the English and only two on the French. That, of course, shows I can take the stuff but present speeds are a bit high for me – the French being sent more slowly, about two words a minute slower. However, this week – that is, today – I have gone on to a slower table for practice with Sim our instructor. In addition he has lent me a regulation key to use with my tapper. Best of all, though, is the news that the instructors are trying to get out a scheme where they can decide who is going to go back at nights, irrespective of marks. If it comes off, Frank and I may be excused on the condition that we do really work at home. There’s no fear of that! We would get through a lot more on our own and would probably learn more, besides improving our sending. This would be a great advantage as, under the new leave scheme, we have to average at least 90% to get away on the Wednesday. To get 360 out of 400 marks is going to be a bit of a teaser, isn’t it? Things are certainly getting hotter. When we were at the Aberdeen Wireless College we started at 9.30. From today they start at 8.30, which is about the same as us at Torry. Still, it may be all to the good for we may find it a big help at Scotia.
Well, love, there you have all the news, I think. Glad to hear all the horticultural news and to know you have been able to tidy up the garden a bit. I know how you feel about the front garden. I used to feel just the same, but don’t you go pulling any of those big slabs about. They are far too heavy for you. You might do some permanent and very regrettable damage to your innards if you tried to lift them, for they took me all my time to lift some of them. Glad to have news of vapours, by the way!
So you’re having trouble with all the children going through the garden? Sorry to hear that, but I suppose it’s inevitable with me being away. Kids nearly always take advantage like that. The news of the children’s reactions to their holidays is very interesting, as you can guess, for I sometimes miss them terribly. As you say, it’s a good thing no permanent damage has been done to either of them, but I think home-formed habits are bound to win out in the end. I’m dying to see the children again. What are the chances of a snap of them in nice summer frock and blazer suit? I know July is not far off, but the only pictures I have are more or less winter ones. All this is intended to convey that you must never apologise for being “long-winded” about the children, or for that matter about the house or the garden. I have a nostalgic mood on me tonight, and such a thing is always both dangerous and rather upsetting. I have been tempted to visualise leave, but that would unsettle me for days on end and just at the moment I cannot afford such a luxury.
So down to earth with a bump. How did you like the kippers and are they any saving to you? If they are not, let me know and I won’t bother any more. Their chief advantage, I thought, was that they were one way of repaying people who have been so good to you. Are kippers scarce in Liverpool? I thought that perhaps I might send a half box to Hughie some time at the office and then he could let Algie have some and perhaps one or two of the other people. Don’t say anything to him about it in case it doesn’t materialise, but let me know if you think it worth the trouble and expense. I’ll have to wait until I’m a bit more in funds, but I’d like your opinion as soon as you can. What do kippers sell for in Liverpool? 6d or 8d a pair?
While we are on mundane matters, will you let me know if you want any seeds and if you think them worth the postage?
Another thing I thought of the other day. If there are any special household things you want which I can get here for you to store away, send me a list of them a fortnight or three weeks before I’m due home and I’ll collect them slowly, make a big parcel of them and send them to Waterloo station for you. I was thinking chiefly of things like brushes etc, and even a shovel! Anyway, think it over and let me know later what you want, if anything, but for the love of Mike don’t leave it until the last minute.
Well, sweetheart, I think this is all. I have made this a long letter because I won’t have much time tomorrow and your weekend letter will probably be very brief. I don’t need to say I love you – or do I? And it is so nice to be loved, and missed and wanted so much. Look after yourself, my own, until I’m home again.
All your very own,
Arthur X
who, incidentally, wants you very much right now! Bye, angel.

May 281942
 

Thursday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
I warned you this would be brief and I’m trying to get a start on it in intervals at school. Many thanks for your long letter, which I will try to answer during the weekend, although Sunday is “dead” so far as writing is concerned through these damned invasion exercises. I had a parcel and letter together with a cigarette machine from Hughie today. My letter must have arrived just after he despatched his, but I’ll write again as soon as I can. I wrote to Harold last night after I had written your letter. I felt very guilty when I saw that his letter to me was postmarked April 2nd. It seems impossible to keep abreast of correspondence here.
School is not the best place to write letters. For instance, one of the lads looking over my shoulder has just been playing hell because there is no greeting on the top of this letter. “You’re balmy,” he said and I had not the heart to tell him I always leave the greeting from my letters until they are finished because of the ever-present danger of people over-looking me. I don’t suppose it matters a great deal, but I’m funny that way. This, incidentally, explains why one of my letters arrived baldly beginning with the first line of the letter. By the way, the lad who is so intrigued in this letter was shocked that I had not begun with “Dear Wife” or, as he pronounces it, “Dear Warf”! He is also a bit envious that I should be able to write two pages in such a short time. “Ista going to write mower?” he said incredulously when I was halfway down the second page. However, he thinks it a good idea to write in school and as he has just come back from a weekend “passionate” leave at Oldham, and has received two letters from his girl since he returned, he’s now in the throes of composition, with sundry spelling queries to the whole table. I’m telling you all this because it is so typical of the business of letter writing in the services. If you are not very careful half a dozen fellows will write your letters for you.
I had not intended to wander away like this, but there you are! I’m glad the kippers were so acceptable and that they solved Dave’s teatime problem. Let me know when you think I ought to send another box of kippers, which will have twice the amount of fish in it. How are you going to manage to split it up? Anyway, I’ll leave that for the moment and perhaps you will deal with it in one of your early letters. Grant tells me, by the way, that the fish he sends will probably be bigger than the ones you have had.
School has gone better this week for I feel I’m making slow progress, possibly due to the fact that I have not been at sick bay except for one morning. Now that I have finished there I’ll probably do better.
Sorry about this, but if you’d like to send the money for the kippers, they cost 3/3 including freight. I shouldn’t ask you normally, but I’m short this week with having to pay for my tobacco this week.
This is about all the news (?) for now.
Bye, sweet. I want to get this in the post to be certain you receive it by Saturday.

May 301942
 

Saturday
Aberdeen
Darling,
I had a letter and parcel containing cigarette machine from Hughie yesterday so I’ve just been replying to him. As I found a small parcel of kippers waiting for me when I got in, I’m sending them off to Madge as a small “token” for her hospitality to you and the children. I suppose there would be about half the amount I sent you. In a note to Hughie I told him I might be able to get an occasional half box if he wanted them, so there’s no need for you to make any further reference to that matter. I’ll leave it to them now. If he says he wants them I can easily order them for him, although I have given him to understand that I can only get them occasionally.
Letters have been good this week for I also heard from Eric today. The vaccine treatment seems to be doing his catarrh good, for which I’m very glad. In my letter I had asked him to try to get a book on elementary magnetism and electricity for me and I also quoted one or two typical questions from final exams. The result was a twelve-page letter filled with electrical formulae and little sketches at which I have only glanced cursorily so far, but which I think will settle several exam questions for me nine weeks hence. He certainly has done the job pretty thoroughly! The things he sent were just what I wanted and I’ll start trying to absorb them straight away instead of waiting until the last two or three weeks to begin the technical stuff. That would be a bit too much for me. Another thing Eric sent was a little book on how to learn the Morse code in half an hour. As it was no use to me, I passed it on to some of the new arrivals who received it with shrieks of delight, as you may well imagine.
Now it is Monday morning the battle of the beaches has been won and lost. As I think I told you, we had Nigg Bay to defend and we defended it to the best of our ability. I must confess I was not over-enthusiastic. For one thing we had to have breakfast by about 7.15 as we had to be at Torry by 8am and on a Sunday, too! It rained as steadily as possible from the time we got up until about 10.30, which did not add to the gaiety of the festival. Then most of the arms which were served out were wrecks in one way or another and so we could not produce anything realistic. After hanging about waiting for ammunition to be issued we eventually got away from school, without even being allowed to smoke, after two hours. Altogether a messing sort of day. We hung around watching the show over in the direction of the town for a couple of hours and the novelty soon wore off that. Then we settled down to wait and not until 2.30 did the enemy appear in our part of the world. We had a short sharp fight, inflicting casualties on the “enemy” and their “dead” men came to life and succeeded in wiping out our pill box. It was not too bad while the actual fighting was on, but to wait nearly seven hours for fifteen minutes action is not my idea of a pleasant Sunday. What narked me most was that my sandwiches and a bottle of beer had been left in a place where I could not reach them until after we had been “killed”. I’m afraid this is not too clear, but I’m not at my brightest and best today for some reason. I still feel half asleep and probably will remain so until dinner time.
There has just been a little light interlude while they introduced the latest stunt – half an hour’s Morse with respirators on. Life is full of unexpected little treats these days!
When I tell you I have just received and read your letter you will realise that I’m continuing this during the afternoon session at school. I’ll post it on the way home, so if it arrives in a half-finished state you’ll understand why.
I have made little or no reference to the children’s health because I was hoping to hear that things had cleared up a good deal, although I didn’t like your reference, some days ago, to Wendy’s eyes. I’m sorry you are going to have a spell with at least one, if not both, of them in bed. I know what you will be – dashing out to the shops for a few minutes and worrying yourself stiff when you leave them, even for a very short time. One good thing is that they are both at the age when they can amuse themselves. I do hope they will be OK. Keep me posted, as I must be off now.
Cheers.
Always,
Arthur
P.S. Sorry to be so abrupt but the instructor has just seen me off.

Jun 021942
 

Tuesday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
I’m making a start on this in the very limited time before I dash out to school again tonight, but doubt very much if I shall be able to finish it tonight. Alright, I give you best about nitrates and superphosphates! Yes, that is dried blood to be used on the tomatoes when the fruits form and not before. If you can get it on the ground just before a shower of rain, so much the better, if not, sprinkle it in well. Make a shallow trench some distance from the stem for this purpose.

Wednesday
I was afraid I’d never get this into the post for last night’s collection, but as I have not to go back tonight I have a good chance of answering your letters. I realise only too well that I have not been writing as much as usual, but you should have had a letter from me by Tuesday. I wrote a fairly long one to arrive about Friday, a shorter note to arrive on Saturday and then another short note to arrive Monday or Tuesday. That was posted on Saturday because I had a feeling that with Sunday’s stunt I should have little chance of writing very much and in the evening Ralph wanted me to meet his girl. As for the nights when I have to go back, it’s almost impossible to get anything done for it’s 9.30 when I get home.
I am glad you have been such a brick and sent me all the medical history of the children. A full story like that has stopped me from worrying about them. I don’t like to think of them being ill and, like you, I’ve always distrusted measles for what it might leave behind. The greatest safeguard against that is good nursing and I don’t know of a better nurse than you, sweetheart. I know what an intelligent interest you take in the things the doctors say and I think that is one of the reasons Rees thinks so much of you. But, as I was going to say, all children have measles and I’m content to think ours have such a good nurse! What does worry me is that that same nurse might go and neglect herself. Promise not to do that, darling. Whatever else you do, get good meals and, so far as is humanly possible, plenty of sleep. If you can get out into the garden, do so for the fresh air will do you good. I’m glad you insisted on sleeping in the other morning. Don’t let them bully you.
I’m sorry about baby Perry. Give Dave my salaams and tell him I hope the “brood”, as he always calls them, are getting better. I think Mrs Reid wants putting away, and I can just imagine Mother and her having a real good jaw about things. Don’t forget to give my best regards to Rees when he comes. I’m relying on him to keep you fit until I come back to my old flannels for good. From the ‘B.T.’ I see he has been suggesting using Litherland’s decontamination centre for the treatment of infectious diseases – sounds a good scheme to me. This, I think, is just about all on the subject of measles, but do keep up your “bulletins”. They are the first thing I think of each day. You know how much I miss being at home during these times to lend a helping hand where possible and to amuse the children, as well as to keep them in order when they get a bit out of hand. I gather you have not done the traditional thing and put them both in the same room, although this might have its advantages when they are convalescing. Or will it?
Blancmange seems to have gone off the market here, but I have managed to get you 1lb of cornflour (plain), half a pound assorted flavours cornflour (both Brown & Polson’s), 1lb semolina (C.W.S.) and another co-op cereal called Nutrina. I’ll post them on Friday. I’m afraid I won’t be able to send them before as I’m dead broke apart from bus fares! Now, that is not a hint! You are not to send me anything more than the bare money you owe me for the kippers and for these other things which amount to 3/6. This fortnight has been fairly heavy or I should have managed nicely. I’ve had to pay out for kippers for you and a few for the Rosses (about 5/6), and 5/- for baccy, and 10/- from 36/- is rather a nasty sneak! I’m only telling you this because I said I would do so. If I do need money I’ll write you, but I expect I’ll get some for my birthday which will cover any extras I want. If I do get money, I think I’ll use it to buy a new uniform – I’ll have to buy all my own clothes now, you know – because things are slowly going dearer even in slops. When the question of my birthday is raised will you tell the family quite definitely that I cannot think of anything I really need at the moment and it would be silly of them to buy things I may never use. Even present slops prices are well below shop prices and I’m buying all I can there. I can’t write round telling people that, but they may raise the subject with you. Don’t you bother to send anything. You can give me mine in instalments when I come home! But I rather fancy you’ll be at the receiving, not the distributing end! Seriously, though, there is one thing you might look out and that is the watch I think is still in one of the small drawers in the dressing table. I’m not in a hurry for it.
Now to matters horticultural. The beans in the lid are Masterpiece and on last year’s showing I think they are much more tender than the Canadian Wonder. Had I been at home I should have sown nothing but Masterpiece this year. If you have different varieties of peas and beans for storage, it might be a good thing to note which are which in different jars and boxes and see which give the best results for quality as well as quantity. Have you thought that slugs or an insect pest might be getting your beet? I had the same experience last year. Have you dusted your onion and leek beds with soot? There is some which is well weathered by the hedge in the allotment, not far from the junction of Russell’s garden. The bottom part of the hedge may have grown over it by now. Soot is supposed to keep onion fly away. there is just the possibility that the wireworms are not to blame for the caulis. It may be cabbage fly. Put the trowel under one of the drooping plants and lift it carefully. Look closely near the roots and the stem and you will see little white maggots in the soil and in the stem itself if the fly has got at them. If you do find traces of these, throw the trowel full of soil in the bin – NOT anywhere else unless it be the fire – and then burn the plant. I think it is much more likely to be fly and you may have to look very carefully to see the grub. If you should find a wireworm near the root of one of the caulis, don’t jump to the conclusion they are the cause of the trouble. I nearly made that mistake last year. That, I think, deals with nearly all the garden pests except one – Peter. Why not tell him straight that you will stop him using that bit of garden if the other boys come through any more? Tell him you gave that piece to him and not to all the lads in the road.
So far we have not heard Arthur’s impressions of Scotia, but Wally wrote to say conditions are not as bad as they are painted, but the course there is pretty stiff. Did I tell you the course had been extended there from two to three months? I prefer to wait, really, until we hear from Arthur. I think his judgment is more likely to be sound.
I was glad to have your news of May and of Limedale in general. I suppose it will be some time now before you feel it safe to ask any of them over. I really must write to May as soon as I get a chance. I think I told you I wrote to Harold. Hope he didn’t get leave before receiving my letter.
Ralph’s girl must have been the Jonah on Aberdeen’s weather for since she went back on Monday it has been beautiful. Today is the warmest yet and it is positively stifling in our bedroom as I’m writing this. My hands are all clammy and this despite the fact that I was in the baths this morning, our swimming day having been changed to Wednesday. Ralph, by the way, seems to have “fallen” for Margaret all over again and he has been really fed up since she went back. He is counting the days to leave!
There was a big shock awaiting me when I got in for tea. Guess what it was? A letter from Durham, which must be an all-time record when you think I only wrote him on Easter Monday. His letter is crammed with news of the lads. Elgar is a captain in the Tank Corps and Maxie also has a commission. But I’ll send you his letter on later so you can read it and then store it away for me in my desk.
I have already been to sick bay twice this week about new glasses. On the first day I saw the doctor and told him I wanted glasses I could wear under a respirator. He agreed and told me to go to sick bay the next day. I did do and they calmly told me my appointment was for tomorrow! Anyway, I should have new service glasses – those with the steel rims – by next weekend.
By the time you receive this letter the children will, I hope, be well on the way to recovery although at that stage I can well imagine them being more of a handful than when they are really ill. I have already made several efforts to get small magnets but will keep on trying. I haven’t forgotten them. Give the children my love and tell them I think about them every day. Tell them, too, I hope they will soon be well enough to play out in the street and in the garden.
Oh my darling, my darling, I do love you. I want you to be near me tonight, or rather I want to be near you! I’d dearly love to be at home helping you and loving you between times and probably cursing and swearing heartily about children in general – ours in particular every time one of them shouted down! Just the way I always did. Remember? And I could love you tonight. Not MERELY sexually, but deeply and nicely – nicely, that is, in so many senses slightly different from sex but never completely divorced from it. You know what I mean! I know you do and I know also that I can feel you near me now. Almost I can feel your fingers in my hair, and what a lovely, close-to feeling that is, sweet. From this I hope that you will gather I have something of a soft spot for you in my heart! Darling, I must stop. I can’t afford the luxury of a coma tonight. But for all that I love you very dearly indeed. Look after yourself, my darling, and don’t get run down through looking after the children. Now I must go, angel. Night, night. All my love.
Your own,
Arthur X

Jun 041942
 

Thursday
Aberdeen
Darling,
I wrote you a long letter last night so I’m afraid your weekend letter will have to be shorter again because, as usual, I’m back at Torry tonight and time is very limited. How are the children today? I was glad to see the continued improvement of Wendy reported in the Johnson Medical Report, received today. Has Michael past the worst part of his attack now? I hope so for your sake as well as his.
There is very little news here except that I have wasted three mornings this week through going about my glasses. Eventually, I went to sick bay at 9am today, was taken by ambulance to Kingseat Hospital ten miles away, spent some time there and eventually got back to Torry at 3 o’clock, thus losing three-quarters of one day’s instruction. Tomorrow I go on guard for 24 hours so that I will miss all Friday afternoon and all Saturday morning. Then on Monday we will have an S.B.X. Not too good, but I’m afraid there’s nothing we can do except hope results are better!
I did intend to write a letter to the children tonight, but it is quite impossible so I’ll have to leave it until the weekend, but don’t mention it to them. I may be able to utilise some of the time on guard to get back some of my arrears of correspondence. I’ll get that parcel packed up and sent off some time during the weekend if I can, so that you should get it fairly early in the week.
Don’t forget to tell the children that I hope they are better and give them my love. If the weather at home is anything like it is here, they will find it a great trial to be stuck indoors all the day and I can see one or two spots of bother on the horizon with them. You certainly have my sympathies having to deal with them single-handedly. I only hope they will not prove too much for you.
I’m sorry this is such a short note and I do hope that you will manage to get a few quiet spells so that you can get out into the garden or plot and get a bit of fresh air. Don’t forget to look after yourself properly. I’ll try to write you a decent letter over the weekend and get it into the post as early as possible. It really is hopeless to try to write home at school tonight. Instead of just sliding in to school, where we can shout out the names of the missing lads, we had to line up in the road outside and the chief in charge of the school walked down each rank checking the names off. There will be a few sad hearts in the morning! And a few days’ jankers for some people!
Must be off now, sweetheart. All my love and look after yourself. No silly tricks you know!
Ever your own,
Arthur X
P.S. Sorry! But I did not dream of you THAT night. If only I’d known. Thanks for telling me, just the same.

Jun 051942
 

Friday
Aberdeen
My Darling,
I’m making a start on this while I’m on guard duty, but may not be able to get it finished. Still, it will be a good beginning for my weekend chronicle. Once again I’m sorry letters have been so few this week, but it has been pretty hopeless to try to get a quiet minute or two. I’m glad to hear that Rees says the children can go into the garden now. By Monday, when they are “up” in the real sense of the word, you will feel far less “tired”. I know just how you feel about not being able to get at the garden and plot. I sometimes felt exactly the same way if I was held up by anything. As you say, it’s far worse being chained to the house in the hot weather. How are the children taking to that side of being ill? Now that they are feeling more normal I expect they are a bit of a handful at times, aren’t they? I meant to ask before: what infection period? Does it last through convalescence? In other words, how long do they have to be isolated? Just while they are in bed, or is there a set period like three weeks or a month? I do hope you and they will not be confined to home for too long a stretch. Your “fed up” feeling is quite understandable and I was glad to hear Mother had “released” you for a couple of hours, and also to see the change in your notions due to Rees’s decision to let the children in the garden for a time. When is Jennifer’s birthday? I didn’t realise she is two – or almost two. Chris was very good to postpone the celebration for our youngsters. What a pity young Molly won’t be there, for I presume Margaret is persisting with her “ideal mother” pose?
What is Mrs Smythe’s [??] reaction to the happy(?) event and to Jim’s medical? Am I wronging them, or am I right in placing them in Audrey’s category – all God, King and Country until they are personally affected? Tony is about Michael’s age, isn’t he?
In case I should forget, many thanks for the postal order, which is above schedule, by the way! That’s not playing fair, you know. When I tell you the price of something I expect you to stick to that figure or I shall stop telling the right prices. Then what will you do?
At this point I will have to leave you. See you later with full explanations.
That was just after 10 o’clock on Friday night and I had to leave off at that point because the lads wanted to get the beds ready and one of the beds consists of a stretcher placed on a bench in what is in peacetime a laboratory. This place used to belong to the Ministry of Agriculture & Fisheries for research into fish diseases. Anyway, I had to stop at that point because there was nowhere where I could write and the lads would keep dragging me into their conversations. There are, incidentally, four of us on guard at once – that is for a 24 hour stretch, 12.30 midday to the following day. Each man does one-and-a-half hours sentry duty at a time (6 hours in all) and a similar time as stand-by guard, which means he is ready to turn out at a second’s notice. While those two are on, the others are off duty, usually away at meals or sleeping. Although I only got four-and-a-half hours sleep – 1am to 5.30 – the time passed fairly quickly and here I am waiting to do my last turn at sentry, 10am to 11.30. After that I stand by for an hour and finish. So there you have the story of “guard” at Torry. The chief’s wife is very decent to the lads on duty. She brought us a cup of tea at 9.30 last night, left tea, sugar and milk for the other lads this morning and, as I was on sentry, brought me a cup to my post at 6.45am! I thought it very considerate of her.
You will be sorry to hear that Ralph has a touch of scabies and is at present in hospital, but it cannot be very bad as he is allowed out each day and we are hoping to meet him some time this afternoon. From what I can gather, he will only be under treatment for a few days as the attack he has is apparently pretty mild. I’ll bet it shook the Smith family up a bit, though. When I saw them last they all sent their kind regards.
The weather is marvellous here now and I’m sitting in front of the guardroom window watching the small craft cut through the still water of the harbour without the slightest effort. This is the time of the year I should like to make my first trip. What a good way to find one’s sea legs. In many ways I’d quite enjoy a trip to Canada or America now.
Well, I must be off again. See you later.
And here I am again, but now it’s Sunday afternoon. There was no chance to get down to letter writing again yesterday, so this letter will be rather patchy. At that point I left off once again, this time to pack that parcel for you and to write a note which I have very carefully left out of the parcel! I’m enclosing it with this letter.
On the subject of letter writing, did I tell you that one of our Lancashire lads, Eric Whitehouse [??], went home on compassionate leave some time ago and his girl had discovered that he was doing a line with a bit of stuff up here. She wrote to him up here the day after he got back and he showed me the letter. The result was I wrote a good alibi for him and he is now receiving regular very adoring letters! Since then my stock has soared with him.
I told you a bunch of fellows went back to their bases some time ago, didn’t I? Well, last week another bunch, about nine of them including four from our class, were sent back. Some of them had far better marks than I have been getting, too. I must be something of a blue-eye with Sim, our instructor, but I do wish I could do better. I hate to say this, and have deliberately refrained from doing so while you have been so worried about the children, but I’m getting “feared”, as the Scots say, that even Sim won’t be able to stop me from being put back one or two classes. You know that if I can possibly avoid that I will do, because it will put leave further back. Don’t mention this possibility to anyone else, especially Mother, for I agree with your remark about her reactions. Nothing is at all certain yet, but I feel there is just that possibility and it’s only fair to you to let you know how I’m feeling about things. Please, darling, don’t let it worry you too much. I know just how you will feel because I feel that way, too. In my case nobody here has made the slightest hint yet, but as soon as they do I’ll let you know – IF they do, I should say. The snag is that they make these decisions so quickly and give you a minute’s notice. They have a nasty habit, for instance, of sending for you at 11am and telling you to go to your digs, pack and report back after dinner to collect your warrant as you are on draft for your base! If it DOES come to a choice between going back a bit or giving up the course and going to my base, I think I’ll stick to this course. I’m not keen on another course.
Now, I have been very straight with you and I want you to promise you won’t go and have your “black” days all over again, or I will be sorry I told you of the possibility. I promise that the moment I know anything I’ll tell you. While I was on guard on Saturday the rest of the lads had their S.B.X. and they all say they did very badly, so if I can put a few marks on when I take the S.B.X. on Monday I will be in luck. I’ll let you know how I get on.
We have finished playing football now and have a new game – tip and run cricket. If you hit the ball at all, even if it only goes a yard, you have to run, which makes for a fast and fairly interesting game. We played last Tuesday for the first time and got quite a bit of fun out of it. Cricket was never my game and I made just one run, but as I was playing wicket keeper I managed to get nearly half of the other team out! All the youngsters were delighted with the “old man’s” game and there was a good deal of chaffing. Even the P.T. instructor who is, as I think I’ve told you before, rather a taciturn bloke, seemed to thaw a little and since then he and I have got on quite well. We are on speaking terms now, which is quite a feat unless you happen to be a real star turn at games, or one game at least. It’s always helpful to be well in with him for he can be a rather awkward person on occasion. He is a devil when he is in charge of the lads on “jankers”.
News of your brassicas – de dah! – is disappointing. What a shame that you should have had a set-back like that. Still, if it is not cabbage fly I should be inclined to have another try and remember, this time, to dip them in root and lime. You’re probably quite right about it being too bitter for the wireworms to tackle. For all that, the other stuff in the garden seems to be doing well and I was particularly interested to hear the blackcurrants are showing promise. Is the rhubarb still bearing? And what of the raspberries, or have they been completely over-shadowed by the weeds on that bank? If we decide to keep a kitchen garden going in peacetime, we might get hold of some decent canes, or perhaps some of those cultivated blackberries. I believe they are very good. I often wonder just what will happen when the war is over. I have even begun to wonder whether I will go back to newspapers! Yet at the moment I cannot see a lucrative alternative. Much as I struggle to keep a normal outlook, I sometimes feel very unsettled. Goodness knows how the younger fellows are going to take to civvy life again. Sometimes I feel very sorry for them, especially those who naturally rebel against being tied to an office stool. Where will they all finish up? I fight against this sort of speculation but it will keep recurring.
Your plans for the immediate future are of much more interest. I was glad to see you have planned the next few weeks out and if all your schemes materialise I think you will find the time passes very quickly. I hope so. Lilian wrote the other day and sent a simplified book on magnetism and electricity from Eric which should be very useful. Just what I was looking for. She seems to be kept fairly well occupied with visiting and being visited and mentioned that she was expecting to have you and the children over very soon. Have you heard anything of it? If not there’s another visit to help pass the time. You’re doing so much better since I have been away, in the way of travelling etc, that I can see you cursing loud and long when this racket finishes!
Now, my darling, I’m afraid it is nearly time to leave you and I, too, have an incipient coma mood on me tonight, as on so many other nights! Sweetheart, I can’t afford the luxury of a coma these days, so I have to be utterly ruthless with your beloved memory. It hurts, but it is the only possible thing and I sometimes wonder if you find anything of this cold, callous detachment in my letters. I simply dare not think of writing all those little things I want to say. Oh if I could only take this damned Morse solid and get 100% every S.B.X. I could sit and dream of you for hours on end in the evening. Never mind, precious, only a few more weeks at the most and then instead of dreaming of you I’ll be holding you tight. What heaven that will be! Occasionally I loosen the rein just enough to visualise Lime Street station, Skelhorne Street and the journey as far as the bottom of Morningside, but I never let myself turn the corner for I should be up that road in a flash! And another road, too! I have permitted myself this luxury, especially since they have been ill, of seeing the children run down the road to carry my little case. I wonder if they will? I hope so if I arrive at an hour when they are up.
Poor old Wendy! She is having a bad time, isn’t she, poor kid. I had an abscess like that when I was a kid and it swelled to such an extent that I couldn’t see out of my right eye. In those days we called them gumboils and the treatment was to put camomile flowers and poppyheads into a basin, cover them with boiling water and hold one’s face over the basin, with a towel over your head to keep the steam in. I can smell them now!
Well, angel girl, much as I love you I’m afraid I must leave you now. I’ll write you as often as I can, but I know you understand about this confounded night school. I’ll do my very best in the S.B.X. tomorrow again and see if there is any improvement. Anyway, I’ll let you know the result.
Bye for now, my own girl. I love you very much.
All yours,
Ever,
Arthur X

Jun 071942
 

Sunday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
Although I’m in the middle of a letter to you, which I’ve broken off to wrap this parcel, I’d better put a note inside, in view of my remarks about parcels from you without notes!
Many thanks for the marmalade, which arrived safely on Saturday afternoon. We haven’t opened it yet but will let you know the verdict when we do. My letter will probably arrive before this and you’ll find all the news in there. I’ve been trying to write for the last hour-and-a-half but, as usual, there has been one interruption after another.
Percy is away at Arbroath today, having gone to visit a pal of his in the Fleet Air Arm there. It should be a nice trip, two-and-a-half hours on the bus through some lovely country.
Well, that’s all for the moment. Hope the children are still improving.
I love you, darling. All yours,
Arthur X
P.S. This was intended to go in the parcel! Sorry.

My dear Wendy & Michael,
I was so sorry to hear that you both had the measles and had to stay in bed. Mummy says you are getting better now and I am glad to hear that you have been able to lie in the deckchairs in the garden. By the time you get this letter you will be out of bed again. When I come home do you think you will both have grown big enough to wrap ME up in blankets and carry me down to sit in the deckchair? I wish you would.
Poor old Wendy! You have had a nasty abscess in your mouth, haven’t you? I did feel sorry for you when I read Mummy’s letter telling me all about it – Mummy always tells me about you and Michael when she writes – but I was very pleased when she said that you were such a good girl and didn’t cry even when your mouth was very sore. Has the doctor made it better now? I hope so. Michael is getting a big strong boy again, from what Mummy tells me, and is eating all his dinner up. That’s the way, son. I want you and Wendy to be big enough to carry my brown case for me when I come home. Do you think you will?
There is a little boy named James who comes to this house every day and he is about as big as Frank. Do you remember Frank? Well, James can lift Helen, that’s the little baby here, and he nurses her nearly all day when he is not at school. He only goes to school in the morning because there are soldiers living in his school and he has to go to another one. I have to go to school after breakfast, after dinner and, some nights, after tea. Mummy will want to know how many marks I got at school this week. Well, I got 44 but a lot of men did not get very many. When I go to school I have to run to catch a bus! This afternoon, instead of playing football or cricket, we went out for a long run in the country and we ran for 7 miles, which is as far as Liverpool, and Daddy was one of the first to get back to school. I didn’t like running very much. I would much sooner play football or cricket or golf, but they won’t let us play golf because it is too far away.
Will you write to me soon and tell me what you have been doing? I haven’t had a letter from you for a long time. Not since before I sent you those sweets. Did you like them? There are not very many sweets in Aberdeen now, but if I get any more I will send them to you.
Have you seen the photographs Mummy took when she came to Aberdeen? When you are really better perhaps Mummy will be able to get a film and take some photographs of you to send to me. Last week I went on an ambulance to a big hospital right out in the country because I wanted some new glasses. I saw a very nice doctor who gave me a note to take to a shop in Aberdeen and today I got my new glasses. They have silver round them, not black stuff like my own, but I can put my respirator on over them. I will show them to you when I come home.
Well, I think I have told you all there is today. Hurry up and get better. Then perhaps Mummy will take you to New Brighton when there is a nice warm day. Perhaps you will see some seagulls again. Do you remember when we all went to New Brighton on the boat?
Well, I must go to bed now. Night night. Be good for Mummy and perhaps when you write to me you will tell me about your new books.
This is all now. Night night once more.
Lots of love,
Daddy XX

Jun 091942
 

Tuesday
Aberdeen
Darling,
At last I’ve got a letter written to the children. I had hoped to get it done earlier but, on reflection, perhaps it will be better for them now they are up. It might help to fill in a day for them. As usual, I’m writing under difficulties for the room is full of lads discussing cases they met in the mental ward of a hospital they have been in. Not exactly a cheerful note to go to bed on!
There’s not a great deal of news apart from that in the children’s letter. I don’t like the appearance of my new glasses, but they are the thing for the job, which is the main thing. Sorry this is so short a note, but I must get off to bed. I did want to say, just once more, that I do love you, sweetheart, so do look after yourself.
All my love, angel.
All yours,
Arthur X

Jun 101942
 

Wednesday
Aberdeen
Sweetheart,
The instructors here are running a dance at one of the local halls on Friday so we have had to come back to school tonight in place of Friday. I’m afraid that means I won’t have time for my normal long Wednesday letter, but I’m making a start in school tonight and will try to add some more to it tomorrow so as to make a fairly decent Saturday letter for you. As you know, I have worked hard enough and am keen enough to try to get hold of this Morse, but I must admit that even I am getting a bit fed up with this everlasting night school, especially as it doesn’t seem to be yielding the returns hoped for. I seem to be getting slowly better, although this has not yet begun to show itself in the S.B.X.s. Today one of the classes in the room into which we have now moved – the top room in the school – took an exam at finals speed of 18 words a minute. We all plugged in and took it at the same time. On the results I would have got about 65%, which would be the best I have done for a long time and at that figure I would have seven weeks in which to make up 25% – the most encouraging thing which has happened to me for a long time. We have another S.B.X. on Saturday morning and I’ll let you know if I’ve done any better. I surely must begin to reap the results of hard work soon.
I’m going to this dance on Friday for a few hours, but don’t think I shall stay all night for it doesn’t finish until 1am. In my case I’ve done no dancing for years, as you know, and there will be a bar which will probably prove a big attraction, and I can’t afford to stay there drinking all night. It seems such a waste of money these days. I’ll let you know how it goes off. All the lads are taking their best girls and I’ll bet there will be a few rows! Our instructor is very keen on it and seems to have been one of the moving spirits behind it. He is already talking of running a bigger dance – there’s 300 going to this one! – so I can see some wild nights ahead for some of the lads.
How are the children now? By the time you get this letter – it should arrive on Saturday – they will have been up for nearly a full week and will be finding their legs again. You will be glad when they reach the stage when they can play out, won’t you? To be back to normal will be a great relief to you, I’m sure.
I’m sorry the strong urge has descended upon you already – by that I mean with so many weeks to go before we see each other again. I can only promise to do everything in my power for you when I do come home. Try to fight it off, love, because that is the sort of thing which pulls you down such a lot. It is definitely harmful to your health to be so continually worried by need of sexual satisfaction.

Thursday
All the above was written in school and at the billet on Wednesday night. Tis now Thursday morning and, having scraped into school by the skin of my teeth, I’m trying to settle down to get a bit more of the letter done. This is not so easily done because, despite all my best endeavours, I find myself seated once more next to little Eric Whitehouse[??] who is continually asking “How do you manage to write so much?” And when I tell you that is has taken me 10 minutes solid concentration to write so much, you’ll understand the difficulties are not small.
There is not a great deal of news this week. Torry seems to fill the day and night these days and I shall be glad now when the time comes that I shall be free at least an occasional night in the week to write you in peace and comfort and without that ever-present sense of rush. Without complaining, one seems to have to rush everywhere. From morning until night there seems to be someone who wants me in a hurry – not you Momma, sit down! – and it gets a bit tiring. Still, I’ve no doubt we shall survive and, when we get to Ayr, where there will be no buses to chase, will sigh for the broad streets of Aberdeen! To some of the lads, of course, this is a city of broad hips! We have been here just long enough for the strain, physical strain I mean, to be making itself felt. You should see some of the lads on a Monday morning! Fair worn out they are!
Many thanks for your letter of Tuesday, which came today. You raise exactly the same point about the “warmth” of letters as I have done in a letter which you probably have only just received. We must have been writing the same thing at about the same moment. I think, as you will see from the tone of my own letter, that this is about the only sensible thing to do in the circumstances, particularly if there is any chance of my going back a class, which will keep me here a couple of weeks longer. If it should happen, and it may not, of course, then I agree with what you say about the “advisability” of not mentioning it to Mother. I know as well as you do what the reaction would be and there is no sense inviting narks. Of course, we could tell her just what to do but it would be scarcely worth all the trouble and you would get the dirty end of the stick while I’m away. Anyway, it’s no use anticipating trouble, we’ll wait until it arrives. As you will see from the children’s letter, I only got 44 in the S.B.X., which is not likely to do me a lot of good! But enough of that subject.
It was good to read all the tittle tattle in your letter about Mick and Reg, Mrs Reid, and “that Threlfall woman”! Quite like home. I could just imagine you bridling as you wrote some of it!
I’m glad about the children’s improvement. Is Wendy’s face quite better now, and has the doctor stopped coming? I mentioned Michael’s appetite in my letter for two reasons. I seemed to have devoted a lot of my letter to Wendy and, secondly, I thought a word of encouragement might help him.
Well, sweetheart, must leave you now. Although, like you, I have been quite impersonal in this letter, my thoughts now, as always, are far from being in that strain! I do love you, precious, and you’ve no idea how I long for the day when I’ll step in to the Liverpool train. Somehow it seems as if it will never come, but it will!
All my love, angel.
Always yours,
Arthur X

Jun 141942
 

Sunday
Aberdeen
Darling,
First of all, many thanks for all your letters and particularly for my “birthday” letters from the family. They meant a lot to me and I’ll try to answer yours more fully later in the week. You see, we are still in reaction to last night’s celebration, at which a good time was had by all. The lads all send their kind regards and their thanks for the pints. Twas a nice thought, love, and we drank your health. I’ll tell you all about it, but first let me tell you of the dance on Friday.
What a night it was! There were 300 people or more jammed into quite a small room and the bar was so popular, despite the extortionate prices charged, that they had to keep closing it periodically. One lad fell on the dance floor, flat out, and we carried him out. Ten minutes later I looked round and there he was at the bar trying to wheedle “one for the road” out of the barmaid. Altogether a more enjoyable night than I expected, but Sim, our instructor, threatened to write you and blow the gaff because I danced with about four different girls! Incidentally, I quite enjoyed the dancing, although it is so long since I did any. For the first time since I have been here it was after one o’clock when I got home.
On top of that we had last night’s do. First of all I went and played golf with Ralph in the afternoon and did I enjoy it! On the subject of golf, will you look in the little pocket of my bag and if there are any golf balls there will you send some up to me, please? I dare say you will be able to find a small box to put them in, and perhaps you will put some of those wooden tees in. There should be plenty of those in one of the pockets. I had to borrow a ball from Ralph and then, part way round, I found an almost new one but lost it again on the next to last hole. I was jumping wild. Anyway, I had a good game which was as good as a tonic to me. I must play more often, but I don’t think it is worth getting my clubs up here.
In the evening I rushed back from golf, spent ten minutes over my tea, and then out with the lads. We did quite a little pub crawl, met a few lads en route and finished up in the Tartan Dive where Frank, slightly oiled by this time, almost reduced the manager to tears by pleading for six rums. “But don’t you understand,” he mumbled, “it’s Johnny’s birthday and I’ve got to stand him a rum.” Anyway, we got one in the end and came back to the billet where I stood the lads fish and chips, a meal which was followed by a spot of “all-in” wrestling between Percy and Allan Sykes, one of the old residents in the digs whom you have never met. Result: Percy was violently ill this morning and he was sent home from church parade. He stayed in bed until dinner time, then after dinner lay down again until tea. As it was my birthday and Allan’s last Sunday here – he finishes on Thursday – Penny invited a few of us out to tea. Wasn’t it nice of her? We had a big plum pudding affair, but I didn’t get one of the threepenny bits, and lashings of cake and jam. Penny’s a good soul and does lots of things to brighten up life for the lads. We had a sing-song afterwards and only got back here at 11.30 and it’s now after midnight as I’m writing this! I meant to do it this afternoon but fell asleep on the bed!
The blow, so long expected by me, fell on Thursday. Yes, love, I have been moved down one class! So sorry, sweetheart, but it’s not for want of trying. I must be dumber than we thought. I knew about it when I was finishing off your weekend letter, but didn’t want to spoil your weekend. I think it means I’ll be a fortnight later getting home, always presuming I get through! You have no idea how miserable I felt on Thursday, I could have wept with disappointment after all the extra hours I have put in. I do hope I begin to make some real progress soon. Had I been left in my old class for another week I think I would have got a better mark because I seemed to be doing so much better. The instructor in this new class seems a very colourless sort of fellow although I think he is pretty painstaking at his job. One thing he does more thoroughly than Sim is to check over the practice stuff we do each day. That’s a good thing because then you know just where the faults lie. We will have an S.B.X. tomorrow and then should have a good idea as to what the prospects are. If I can get a better mark it will give me more confidence and then, too, I may get out of going back to Torry one or two nights a week.
You know how sorry I am about this business and I’m going to feel pretty lousy when the rest of our crowd go home a fortnight before me, but after all, two weeks is not a lifetime, is it? Try not to get too depressed about it, sweetheart.
Well, darling, that’s that! Sorry. Many many thanks for all the nice things you said about me in your birthday letter. I know I don’t deserve half of them and I think my only virtue really is that I do love you more and more deeply every day. And that really isn’t a virtue because I just couldn’t help myself, could I? But I do love you and I wish this damn war was over so I could spend my time telling you just how much I love you. Darling, I want to be near you and, as it is now 1am and I have an S.B.X. in the morning, I think I had better go to bed before I fall into a coma. All my love, precious, and no bad days of depression!
Night night, my sweet. All my love to you.
Ever,
Arthur X
P.S. Will you thank Mother for her £1 and Lilian and Eric for their card? I’ll write them soon.

Jun 151942
 

Monday
Aberdeen
Sweetheart,
I put the heading and date on this letter more than two hours ago, but the usual thing happened. The room filled up and I abandoned all hope of starting this for some time, but in the lulls of several cross-conversations – with your Limedale training you would be in your element here – I re-read all your recent letters. What a happy job, but one for which I should have preferred a little “hush”. I’m making a start on this letter tonight in the hope that before I post it tomorrow I’ll get at least some of your points answered.
But before I go on to your letters, I thought you’d like to know that I’m settling down a bit better in this new class, although I still don’t like the instructor. He is scared stiff of anyone in authority and he makes the work very hard and monotonous by keeping us at it for such long stretches without a break. Still, we had our S.B.X. this morning and even though he is such a lousy “sender”, and lousy is only one name the lads have called him today, I think I have done a little better this week, although I’m almost afraid to say so because I have thought that so often and then been sadly disillusioned. I might be able to tell you tomorrow just how I have done.

Tuesday
We were at cricket this afternoon so still don’t know the result of the S.B.X., but there is a good story about the one Class 14 (my old class) had on Monday. Apparently quite a lot of the forward ones, who usually do very well, fell rather heavily so they had another one today at a slower speed and all did very well! What it is to have influence.
But that’s enough about school, so let me begin to acknowledge various things. First of all the cake, which arrived Monday midday and is very nice indeed. The two postal orders, only one of which has so far been acknowledged. The marmalade, which is lovely and greatly appreciated by Percy and Allan, the other occupants of our table. And, finally, the watch which arrived today in good condition. Will you thank Mother for having it done? And that, I think, is all the things I have to mention just at the moment. Now, about the food stuff from here. Will you let me know if and when you want any more sending and I’ll get them for you. Don’t forget. I told Percy of my idea to collect household things which are in short supply and he scoffed at the idea at first, but mentioned it casually in a letter to his mother who immediately seized on the idea of brushes, which are quite unobtainable in London. It was rather a shock to Percy to find that the provinces should have things when London has not got them! And talking of buying things, you must have had a pretty heavy time lately with the doctor’s bills etc, so you’ll have to be careful in the expenditure. Don’t think of sending anything more to me for some considerable time. You have no margin to spare just now. What are you going to do about a bed for Michael? That will cost a bit these days. Will you have a look at the saleroom, or are you afraid of all the complications it will bring with it? Let me know what you decide.
As I’m writing this at school I’d better not start on the plot, but I’m enclosing a cutting from one of this week’s evening papers which may be of interest to you. I suppose you see very little of the gardening tips these days?
How are the children now? Has Michael’s appetite improved, or is his cough still bad? And what of Wendy’s abscess? Has there been any further development about the tooth? I hope they are more lively now, but perhaps you don’t want them to get too full of beans until they are out in the company of other children! If the weather at home is anything like it has been today, you’ll be able to let them out in the garden all day. It was beautiful today, for the first time for over a fortnight. We played cricket and it was really delightful. I’m glad you were able to brighten Cynthia’s birthday a little. Poor kid, I feel sorry for the way she seems to miss the essential things of childhood – Xmas, birthdays, Shrove Tuesday etc. It’s the more surprising, too, as Mrs Reid was the life and soul of her own family in her early days, wasn’t she? And talking of family life, you can bet your life I most certainly will be shaving when you are bathing the children. It is one of the little things I have been looking forward to, and I have no doubt the old and withered hand will stray in caress as of yore. Just try and stop me. Just to think of that does things to me. I’d better try a little dose of Morse as a non-too-gentle correction.
Ten minutes later – like your digging in the plot, the Morse is as soul killing as anything I know! It certainly has put a brake on my urges – when I don’t think too closely of you, and then even Morse fades into the background. Oh darling, I want you tonight. I have done all day and on the way to cricket was thinking how you would have loved the view of Aberdeen from our cricket pitch. A great wide bay, at least 20 miles across, sweeps north, deep blue broken only by lovely little fishing boats from the Faroes and the occasional blue grey of a naval patrol vessel. There’s no doubt that in this real summer weather Aberdeen is a lovely spot for a holiday.
It was so nice when we came out of night school that Frank and I decided to walk home and as we dallied on the bridge to watch the salmon fishers it’s getting a bit late now. So I must be off if I’m to get this posted tonight.
I do love you, my sweet, so look after yourself for me until I come home. And give my love to the children. Do you think Dave would use a couple of plates on them when they are looking fit? Night night, my love.
Ever your
Arthur X

Jun 171942
 

Wednesday
Aberdeen
Angel Girl,
This is not intended to be a long letter as I have just finished letters to Eric and Lilian, and to Mother, acknowledging their card and also the communal £1 which was sent for my birthday. I daren’t leave those until the weekend because even now it will be almost a week from the time I received their greetings before they get my letter. Before I do anything else, there are one or two things I want to mention straight away.
(1) I have heard blancmange etc is going on the “points” system. Do you want any more? I believe there is a sweetened blancmange substitute. Do you want that or not? Let me know as soon as possible.
(2) Good news about the fiver. Will you take enough from it to send this cable: “Haslett, Dhariwal, India. Many thanks. Everyone fit. Love, Arthur.” Do that as soon as possible, will you?
(3) Can you send me £2 straight away. My old class is having a slops day and I want to order myself a suit, as well as get some odds and ends. I’ll try to get you some towels. Do you want tooth brushes?
Now that, I think, deals fairly fully, if somewhat abruptly, with “business” matters, but I wanted to get them dealt with as all need immediate attention. Just one other thing: I got 62% in the S.B.X., which is an improvement. At the moment I’m dropping a lot of marks on figures so I’ll have to attend to those in the next week or two and then I’ll be better off. Anyway, I think it’s a bit better and, in the end, it might be ALMOST worth going down a class for that extra peace of mind. Let’s hope so.
Now, about this other business with Mother. I know I shouldn’t say “don’t take any notice of her” for I know it’s not quite as easy as all that, but try, for my sake, just to let it all go over your head. So far, precious, we have proved ourselves capable of holding ourselves aloof from the ordinary attempts to create ill feeling between us. I think we can keep that record. You see, in one way, it really IS simple. Why? Because, my darling, we were lucky in that we learned very early in married life to trust each other explicitly. In that lay our early strength. Now we love each other very dearly. Just how dearly I realise more and more each day. Just to get back to Mother for a moment. The letter she sent on my birthday was rather scrappy and I half-sensed an antagonistic note in the few lines she did write. I seem to be able to catch the atmosphere in which letters are written and she may have been boiling this matter up at that time. Her great trouble is that she has so little to do and we – or rather you, just now – are the only members of the family within reach. All the free time she now has, after an active life, seems to be concentrated on introspection, in the course of which she gets everyone in an absolutely “foreign” perspective and she also develops a very warped historical sense so far as the family is concerned. She must hold long introspective conversations with other members of the family, irrespective of whether they are in her “good” or “bad” books at that particular moment. Then, again, she seems to know that I write, or used to write, quite long letters to you, while those I send her are very scrappy! She’s probably jealous.
That deals with Mother. Now to you and I! What a subject, if only I DARE let myself go, but if I did I should probably end up by shedding a pint of blood, for that is the mood I’m in tonight. Do you know why? I have been harking back once more to our early married days. Do you remember writing recently that I didn’t love you so much as you loved me? That possibly was true, but oh! my darling! Since then! What probably made me begin to love you was that you never did – and never have – exercised that obviously possessive attitude so many women adopt and which all men hate. Because you did not try to flaunt your “ownership”, I began to get closer and closer to you. When I saw wives toe-tapping outside the Press Club while fellows swallowed the last of their drink before hurrying out rather like schoolboys, I began to compare their wives with mine, and myself with them. That, I think, was the start. Your trust and faith that I DID belong to you was one of the foundations on which our deeper love was built, and in the early days we did have to take each other on trust such a lot, didn’t we, when we had so many difficulties to face. Remember how often we said, in effect, and to pretty well everyone, “Well, are you for or against us?” And, if necessary, we can do it all over again. My darling, I never knew anyone could mean as much as you mean to me. While I have you, and the children who are partly you, to hell with anyone else. My darling, I’m so completely yours – and you know it, you conceited hussy – that nothing else in the world matters. My darling, I own you body and soul. Heaven and earth can yield nothing better for me. I trust you so completely because I know that whatever you do you will do believing I think it right and that, my sweet, is a tremendous thing for any man to think – that no action affecting both our lives would be done by you if you thought I believed it to be fundamentally wrong. Now, in face of all this, do you believe I trust you?
But that is only one side of the picture. There is another side too, as you may have guessed at some time. I have just a slight affection for you, too. You say you get an almost physical pain sometimes. My love goes even deeper. I have told you before I’d swing for you, and so I would! Angel girl, the things you can do to me at long range are unbelievable. Sometimes I almost stop breathing when I think of you. Oh Stelly-well, the bedroom’s empty just now – for a wonder. What wouldn’t I give to roll on to the bed with you just now. If only you could be here making the bed and I could take you by the heels and throw you on to it! And to feel you snuggle up against me while one hand caressed your left breast and the other slid gently over your own – no, my own – incomparable bottom beneath my lingering fingers. Darling, I must stop, this is madness for us both. Night night, my own dear girl. I won’t write you again like this for a long time. It’s not good for either of us, but – like other things! – it just welled up tonight.
Precious I adore you more and more each day.
All my love,
Arthur X

Jun 181942
 

Thursday
Aberdeen
Darling,
I can’t recall a week which has dragged so much as this week has done. Today feels as if it should be Saturday! There has been one good thing today which I think I should tell you at once, as I haven’t hesitated to pass on the doleful news. I had my transmitting test today and, at 15 words a minute, got 87% which means I won’t have to come back compulsorily at night on that score once I get over the receiving bogey. For a few days this week we are having a different instructor, for which I’m deeply grateful. In the short time we have had him today I have done much better on figures, which have been my chief bugbear lately. The instructor in our own class, as I think I have told you before, is absolutely hopeless at sending and, worst of all, he has no confidence in himself. Lack of confidence is infectious in circumstances like that. Do you remember I told you we plugged in, a couple of weeks ago, to a preliminary final on which another class was passing out? Well we did the same again today and once again, with a really good sender, I got quite a good deal of it down. In fact on figures, which with our bloke are hopeless, I only made two mistakes and this exam is about seven weeks ahead of us. If I can make the same headway with all the other stuff I shall be OK.
Another new ruling on conditions governing the granting of leave at the end of the course has just been made. Apparently one leaves Torry on the Wednesday if one does even reasonably well in technical and procedure, providing we get 90% in each of our receiving and transmitting tests. Otherwise it may be Friday or even later when we get away. A crowd who failed to get the necessary 90s are now waiting to get away, the remainder having already gone on Wednesday. Allan Sykes, the lad from Gordons, has gone today, after a very touching scene with his ice-skating partner last night. Apparently the lady, who looks very nice from her photograph, came over all sentimental and seduced poor Allan, who is one of the “don’t be a cad” type who would be so easily exploited by a dame if she managed to wring a promise from him, but he managed to steer clear of anything too bad except that he promised to write very often. As he only writes to his parents in India about once a month he is going to find it rather difficult! He’s only 19 but realises that he can’t go all round the country crying his eyes out over every girl he meets! He is one of the lads you never met, but you would like him, I’m sure.
Well, love, this is about all the news, if “news” it can be called. I’m writing this at night school, which has so far been a waste of time tonight for they have been working at speeds well beyond me. It’s annoying to have the night booked up and still get no benefit from it. I’ll have to close now to get this in the post. As you may have guessed from yesterday’s letter, I still love you, sweet. Be good, and look after yourself. All my love.
Ever,
Arthur X
P.S. We have “slops” on Monday so I hope you have sent the money as I have ordered a new suit on the strength of it!

Jun 211942
 

Sunday
Aberdeen
Darling,
Another weekend nearly over, which means another week nearer that elusive leave! I’m always glad when a Monday morning comes round because it means I’m beginning one more week which, sooner or later, must pass, although I’m finding time drag a bit just now. In many ways I will be glad to get the next six months over and all my training behind me. Sometimes I feel as if I’ll never be fully trained. Stupid, isn’t it?
Your letter containing the plan of the plot also contains a reference to the question of that missing letter. Quite honestly, I may have made a mistake because I know there was some confusion in the postings, as you pointed out in a previous letter.
I had just begun this sentence when one of the blokes rushed in from the next room with the news of the fall of Tobruk. Not too hot, eh? I expect we have lost a few million pounds worth of stuff there, as well as the men and not a few ships getting the rest away. We don’t know the full details yet, of course. By the way, don’t lay too much store on the Anglo-Russian treaty. One clause in that is very significant – the pledge each country makes not to interfere in the internal affairs of the other. I’m not being a pessimist, but the conversion of too many of the alleged friends of Russia is too sudden to be genuine. Remembering the famous and fraudulent Zinovieff letter affair, which put the Tories in power for 5 years, I expect any trumped-up stunt to be framed in order to cancel the treaty if it suits some people. But that’s enough of politics.
We had quite a nice day yesterday. Nine holes of golf in the afternoon when Ralph had to get back early to meet a pal who was coming for a week’s holiday. At night, this pal (Les) and Percy and a pal of his (Geoff) who is staying with us for a weekend, went on a pub crawl to celebrate another fellow’s birthday. Quite a pleasant night, too. Both Les, who is a civvy, and Geoff, who is in the Fleet Air Arm, are very nice fellows, and we all got along famously together.
Many thanks for your very welcome letters. The women in Morningside seem to be having a whale of a time, but I should think you are wise to keep clear of it if you can. Still, I enjoyed hearing about it all, and I enjoyed, too, reading of your gardening efforts and the idea of a rockery in that dark corner. I wonder if that is where you overdid things in lifting huge rocks? Be careful about things like that.
Now, about slops. Many thanks for the £2. It just arrived in time because I was paid on Friday morning and on Friday afternoon had to pay out 29/- for a suit I had ordered and for which I was measured. I’m getting as much stuff together as I can in case supplies get short, as they may do, or prices rise. I have managed to get you a couple of towels. I also had a brainwave and, as an experiment, got a yard of diagonal serge, which is about 31 inches wide. I thought you might get a pair of trousers out of it for Michael, thus saving coupons and money. This cloth should wear well, if there is enough of it. Now, do you want me to post it to you, or shall I keep it until I come home? I’m also trying to get you toothbrushes during another class’s slops day. Let me know if you want anything more – a nail brush, for instance, but let me know quickly or you will be too late. Apart from the things for you, I got myself two pairs of light underpants which I’ll leave at home when I come, and two pairs of thin socks (1/3 a pair!). I was going to get myself a new cap but I’ll wait for that, I think. I didn’t tell you, by the way, that I now have a smashing “tiddly” hat. Remember the dance we ran? Well I went to the cloakroom for my things and found there was some mess up in hats. The result was that I got this rakish cap, which, incidentally, has a gold wire band! As these are almost unobtainable now, it’s a real find, and the lads are very jealous of it. Anyway, you’ll see it when I come home, if it doesn’t go astray by then.
On Friday I had another treat. I went to the dentist and had an impression taken for my teeth. At the moment I don’t know how long it will be before I get them, but I have to go again on Wednesday morning, so I should get some idea then. He says my gums are only shrinking slowly and I may have to have the plate lined later on, but we will see about that. I told him I was prepared to wait a bit longer, but he seems to think I had better get them in now and start getting used to them.
The weather has been pretty miserable again today. We took Les and Geoff as far as Nigg Bay this afternoon and it drizzled most of the day. It rained again after tea and now that we have settled down to an evening indoors the sky is beginning to clear. It would! Still, with this letter to write, I would have stayed indoors in any case, for I don’t suppose I’ll get a chance of writing again before Wednesday. I think I told you, didn’t I, that I got 62% this week and 87% for transmitting. I do hope I can do better this week. I’ll let you know the result.
Well, sweetheart, must be off now. I have still got that income tax form to fill in. Your Saturday letter about wanting me at home nagging for cups of tea, and supporting your tummy in more ways than one, set me longing for home again. Won’t that leave be glorious? But I’ll bet the days will simply fly past. We had a letter from Arthur Turner the other day and from what he says, Scotia doesn’t seem too bad. Conditions are fairly good, three nights out of four are free, but there is apparently plenty of hard work during school hours. One bright spot is that since they have extended the course to twelve weeks, we get a weekend (Friday morning to Monday night) after six weeks providing we get 90% in the exam. And they have daily exams, by the way! Apart from Morse, there is quite a lot of stuff to learn, Arthur says, and apparently it is stiffer, in that way, than Torry.
Now I must tear myself away. Take care of yourself, I’m so glad to hear the good news of the children. Hug them for me.
All my love, angel.
Ever your,
Arthur X

Jun 231942
 

Tuesday
Aberdeen
Sweetheart,
Don’t get all “boiled up” over a letter on Tuesday night. I’m just making a start on this while I’m at night school, not that I will get a great deal done I suppose, because already there is a great argument raging on the ever popular subject of leave. And as the instructor has come down to our end of the room to intervene in the interests of Morse, I’m afraid I’ll have to leave you already. Sorry!
Wednesday
Actually that interruption yielded some good results. It was our own instructor who was on duty and we offered a few mild – and some not-so-mild – criticisms of his sending. We have been experiencing considerable difficulty with some of his stuff, particularly in figures, and when he sent our S.B.X. on Monday, the other class in the room also took it for practice. They openly gave him the bird and our own results were so bad that we had it again on Tuesday. Even then he had to send one lot of stuff a second time. It’s alright for some of the lads who are “hot” and who know his sending well, but I found it very hard going and have dropped back to 56%. Since last night’s experience, however, I feel more confident and can get the plain language, French and jumbled letters quite well. Even in this short time I feel much more confident with the figures and mixed figures and letters – on which I have dropped 25 marks in the last week or so. Harry Forman, who went down into this class just before me, has been sent back to his base and I don’t want that to happen to me so I spoke to our fellow today – Smith is his name – and he said he’d have a word with the great white chief if that looked like happening. Myself, I feel much more confident and am sure I can make the grade in the time at our disposal. The feeling of confidence is worth a lot and gives peace of mind which is a great comfort.
I was glad to hear of the projected trip to New Brighton and I only hope the weather was as good at home as it was here yesterday. A real scorcher, the first for ages and apparently the last, for it has gone quite cold again today. Perhaps the children will write and tell me about it? Anyway, I hope you have a nice time and I appreciated your point about Mrs Gardner being your “generation”. If she doesn’t move away again she should make a good pal for you, although you will probably envy her for the amount of leave her husband gets.
Before I should forget, and just to forestall a question, I got the golf balls etc safely. Many thanks, love. Tell the children I’m using the case of tees. They’ll be interested.
I had quite a long letter from Hughie today. He sends his kind regards and threatens to write you. They apparently received the kippers OK and were glad of them, although they say kippers are a bit more plentiful in Liverpool now.
We are expecting more invasion exercises this Sunday and next so it’s not going to be too good for the next two weekends, but I’ll do my best to get my usual Sunday letters away to you.
It’s good to hear that the children are doing so well now. You’ll feel a good deal more free now and if you can get out into the plot the fresh air will do you the world of good. Try to take things fairly easily, especially until the next vapours are over. I have been to the dentist twice in the last week so should soon be getting my “plates” and will let you know when I do. Those visits made me wonder if you have done anything about your own teeth. Have you? Don’t let them go too far, will you?
Well, darling, I must be off now. Bye, my precious, and take care of yourself until I’m home.
All your own,
Arthur X
P.S. Did you send that cable off? If not, do you think it will be long before you can? If it looks like being a week or so, let me know and I’ll try to send it from here.

Jun 251942
 

Thursday
Aberdeen
Darling,
Once more I’m making a start on this at night school and, also once again, I’ve my doubts about making any real progress, largely because there are so few of us here that it’s not too easy looking as if we are mad busy when actually we are writing letters.
First of all – I’m so glad you had such a good day at New Brighton and that the day was not just a dreary drudge for you. The children apparently had a whale of a time and I’m glad of that. So Michael did at least condescend to sit on the donkey! One more prejudice overcome, for which I’m very glad. Even if he was not enthusiastic about the roundabout things. That’s a pity, but perhaps he will grow out of that complex too. I hope so, because you know what we always thought of Phil Whitehurst at May Day on that score. By the way, the typical seaside donkey pictures were a great treat! They are terrible judged purely as photos, of course, but for all that it did my eyes good to see them both again. Michael appears to have grown more than Wendy, in proportion, or is it my imagination? Perhaps it was because of his haircut. He looks a real boy now. With that bonnet on, it was more difficult to judge any change in Wendy and further, she was partly hidden by the donkey’s ears! Still, they both looked very fit and I’m looking forward to hearing their descriptions of the many “wonders”. I should have liked to have taken Michael on the overhead for his first trip. It was a treat I had planned in civvy days. Still, when he is older I’ll take him on board a ship, perhaps. Don’t let anyone forestall me on that if you can help it. He’d go mad on a real ship. If he can go on one of the Duchess boats when they are restored to their old peacetime days he’ll love it – unless, of course, he is a bit overawed as so many children are by the magnificence of it. But I’m afraid that is a treat for which he will have to wait.
From what you say, I take it you didn’t take your costumes and make a call at the baths.
Friday
That was as far as I got at school and when I got home I suddenly decided it was time I wrote to May and consequently dashed a note off. Had I realised it was Thursday night and, consequently, the night for your weekend letter, I would have left it for another day. You will guess by the pencil that this is being written in school on Friday morning and, as I’m still pretty dopey (the operative word there is “pretty”!), I’m afraid you can’t hope for anything very bright.
I meant to ask if you found it possible to take a camera with you on Tuesday. I suppose not. Did you ever ask Dave about dropping a plate or two on the children?
I must try to get hold of a film or two before I come home and then we can get Dave’s camera. As I have been moved on to the instructor’s table, together with the other “bright” lads, the chances of doing much of this at school are not great as I want to get it away by midday post if I can, so I hope you’ll excuse the shortcomings this week.
Many thanks for May’s and Eric’s letters. What a pity you didn’t see Harold, but then a leave is not a leave, I suppose, unless someone is disappointed. I’m glad Eric was so frank about the position in regard to Mother, but I’ve no doubt it would be unwise to give Mother any indication of his opinion!
Had hoped to get more than this written but must be off now.
Bye, sweet.
All my love,
Arthur X

Jun 271942
 

Saturday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
Another weekend! And I’ve got to that stage when I don’t give two hoots what happens about the Morse so I’m now in delightful “to hell with the Pope” mood. Several things have undoubtedly contributed to this feeling, one being the fact that we expected to have to take part in a naval week parade this afternoon and found at the last minute that that arrangement had fallen through. Secondly, it’s Ralph Oliver’s birthday today (he’s quite recovered now, by the way) and he is threatening a blitz tonight. After this week I’ll have to draw in my horns a bit and may start playing golf on Saturday evenings. With today, it will be three Saturdays in succession that we have been out seeing the highlights.
Since I began this letter innumerable things have happened. Just to give you an idea of the difficulties under which letters are written, the procedure in the last hour and a half has been something like this: I get out this pad and get as far as the address when Percy produces a bottle of leather dry and begins to mark some of his stuff. This, of course, cannot go uninterrupted and in comes Frank who suddenly finds he has several things to mark. Back he comes with a great pile of things including a new pair of shoes which I have to hold while he stamps his name on the inside of the tongue. Then another interval to chew Mars bar and roll cigarettes. A couple of sentences to the letter and another interval for polite conversation with Penny who has come to invite Ralph, Percy and I to tea to celebrate Ralph’s birthday tomorrow. Invitation gladly accepted, knowing Penny’s teas. Two more sentences and then, having developed a real dithering mood by this time, suddenly remember I have to scrub my gaiters. That well done I return to your letter and then decide to stamp my name in my cap and respirator. Following this comes a period of real concentration in the course of which I write five lines before Percy gives me a letter he has received from his pal Geoff, who shared our Saturday jaunt last week. After that, minor interruptions from all sorts of people including two lads who came to demonstrate conjuring tricks. Ever since I began to explain the interruptions there have been three more. This very minute a fellow from downstairs has been in to complain that his two new bedroom mates are wireless mechanics. Before that, Frank came in with a pile of clothing, including boots, which he wants to send home. He dumped them in the middle of the floor and stood there looking helpless. Result: I packed his parcel. He has scribbled a note to enclose in it and now I’m going to tie it up. If anyone in the house needs anything, they come to Percy and I. See you again in a minute, interruptions allowing.
Better now! Frank’s parcel is safely tied up all ready for the post and there was only one other interruption but a welcome one – Penny with a cup of tea and cream cake!
I have thought once or twice that when I do leave here it might be a nice gesture if you wrote and thanked her for all the things she has done to make us comfortable. I’ll give you her address when I come home.
As you will guess by this paper, I have been going through your letters but can only find a few points to answer. One is about the tent. The poles are, or should be, somewhere in the garage. The tent was packed in one of those army valises and perhaps some of the poles are with it. If not they may be on one of the sides of the garage, just under the roof. Probably the right-hand side wall. There should be six of them in all, two pointed. The pointed poles go through small holes at the ends of the tent where the long ropes are sewn on. Lay the tent out flat on the grass. Then insert one pointed pole through each end of the tent. That leaves four other poles, or two for each end. Stand one lot of poles up and balance it by holding the longest ropes tight and stick one of the metal pegs in the ground while you fasten, say, the right-hand one of the front pair of long ropes in. Then fasten the left-hand one about 3 feet away with another peg. Go to the back and repeat the performance of balancing the pole while you peg down the ropes, being careful to keep the roof ridge tight, or it will sag. At the front you will find an extra single rope which you can peg down last. At intervals all round the tent you will find smaller ropes which you can also fasten down. If you are short of metal pegs, do the four small corner ropes first. Hope you can follow all this.
I’m glad to hear the bike has returned. How much did it finally cost, and has Michael lost his early enthusiasm? Was it badly bashed up?
I’m interested in all your garden news, even if I don’t refer to each individual item. Every day going to Torry, I pass a garden in which there is a big clump of blue geraniums – like a bit of home. I do hope I’m home in time to see some of the flowers in bloom. What is happening to the hydrangea this year? The new plants will make a big difference to the garden and your new rockery.
I’m interested in the news of the marrows. I can imagine the children’s interest, too. Let me know how you get on with them. You’re quite right about the usefulness of the diary. If it is properly kept up it can be very useful for comparisons. About the vacant ground: I don’t know that I’d bother with a lot of roots like carrots. Aren’t they always fairly cheap? Get in as many winter greens as you can. Have you any kale in, or aren’t you going to bother? In any case, I should keep the land where the peas and beans are for next year’s roots. It won’t do the ground any harm to lie idle during the winter. In fact, if you dig it up rough it will do it good. Get it into rough clods by October–November, throw some lime on it and forget about it until next spring when it should be ideal for beet, parsnip and carrots. Another job you can do then is to take a broad trench where you have had the onions and leeks, put a good layer of manure on the bottom and put the soil back. Then you have that bed ready for next year. Your suggestion about spring cabbages in succession to the early potatoes is a good one. Do you remember we had our very first spring cabbage in the garden, on the left-hand side and they were quite good. Concentrate on those this year, and any greens which will last through the winter. And while on the subject of the garden, I wonder if I have mentioned your compost heap? Keep that going all you can but don’t put anything “woody” in it, only stuff which will rot down. Grass cuttings are very good. My suggestion is that you put a layer of manure on top of your green compost as often as you can get it. That’s what I did. In fact you can include some of the sods which were used to build the low walls in the plot, providing you strip the long runners of live grass from the sides. If you have layers of green compost and layers of manure alternately, you will find the manure will help to rot the green stuff and the greens will stop the cow manure from being like a cold “poultice”.
Well, darling, I’m making the experiment of getting this into the post on Saturday night, just to see if it reaches you on Monday morning for a change. Let me know if it does. Oh! angel, I’m wanting your presence more and more often these days. I do wish it was six weeks hence!
Take care of yourself, precious. I love you. Bye for now.
All my love,
Arthur X

Jun 281942
 

Sunday
Aberdeen
My darling,
I’ve had an idea. Is there any reason why on odd occasions you couldn’t fix a date with me and ring me at the Club? With this four-nights-a-week nonsense, Sunday seems to be about the only possible day, doesn’t it? Anyway, if you fix a Sunday and let me know the time you will be through I’ll make a point of being there unless there’s anything such as manoeuvres to stop me. Anyway, let me know early in the week so that I’ll be able to let you know if I’m tied up. Make a point of ringing when Dick Hasprey is on duty and arrange with him the time you should ring. Then you would be pretty sure of getting through promptly and might stand a better chance of a bit of extra time in the box. I know there are difficulties in the way, but if you could manage to bring the children I could talk to them too. Anyway, let me know what you think of the idea. It might be a good thing for the weekend before I come home, if not before then.
An amusing letter arrived for one of the young lads at our digs last weekend. His girl wrote him a letter which arrived on Saturday morning and in the evening there came another letter from the same girl with half a sheet of notepaper which bore only this inscription: “Dear Bill, Here is something which I forgot to enclose in my letter last night. Please forgive me. All my love, Mary” and there followed two solid rows of Xs. Such is calf love! But Bill was so tickled he showed it to all the lads and he swears he’s going to have it framed!
We had one of the most pleasant Sundays I have had since joining up. We had to go to church as we were not affected this time by the invasion practice. After dinner we went to Westburn Park – remember it? – and lay in baking hot sunshine on close-cropped grass. I slept there for well over an hour. Then we went to see Les (Ralph’s pal) off on the train and then over to Penny’s where we knocked off Ralph’s birthday dumpling and I got one of the “threepennies”, which I’ll send home to be kept as a souvenir. After tea Ralph and I made Penny put on her bonnet and shawl and we took her as far as the Bridge of Don and walked back along the front, a walk I had never done. Penny enjoyed what was evidently a big change to her and more especially as she found when she got back that Percy, who had stayed behind to write up school notes, had also found time to do all the dishes for her – a very nice gesture which she appreciated. She is good the trouble she goes to and we had a great treat – a real salad with whole tomatoes! It was a sight for sore eyes. Did I tell you that these “dumplings” take the place of birthday cakes here and are not unlike our fruit set puddings except that they are boiled in a cloth. Altogether it was a real treat to get away from the eternal hubbub in the digs and to take a full hour over tea. I thought of you when I kept asking for more cups of tea!
Of school there is not a great deal of news. We had our S.B.X. today (it’s now Monday) and I rather think I did a little better. Nothing startling, you know, but I felt more confident and am hoping I did improve on last week’s figures, but I’ll let you know any mark when I get it. I’m seriously thinking of asking to be excused night instruction for a full week on the grounds that I’m going stale through over work. If I do manage it I’ll let you know. I certainly feel a couple of evenings spent on Hazlehead 9-hole course would do me, and the Morse, a world of good just now.
Tuesday
Just a note tonight to say that I have had no luck in regard to scrounging a week free from nights. The argument was that, much as the chief would have liked to do what he could, he would be flooded out with requests from dozens of others. A fair comment, I think. Anyway, the news of the S.B.X. is better this week. I got 66 so have only to come back three nights next week, which is something gained.
I don’t think there’ll be a great chance of writing much more tonight. There wasn’t. I’m back at home and am just going to say “night night” to you before getting down to some technical notes. Goodnight, angel girl. I love you still and the days are now beginning to slip past more quickly and, what’s more, I feel I’m doing better at this damned Morse, probably because I’m worrying less. Look after yourself, pet, until I come home. All my love.
Ever your own,
Arthur X
P.S. Please say to the children that I did enjoy reading their letters and that I’ll write as soon as I get a chance.
Will you send me a few blotters along in one of your letters? There should be plenty in my desk. Goodbye, love. Even if the news gets worse in the next few days, keep your chin up.

Jul 011942
 

Wednesday
Aberdeen
Dearest,
The date has just reminded me we are in to another month! Won’t be long now, love, providing the war is still going on! At the rate we are backing out of places there’ll soon be nowhere left to fight in except England. I’ve not had a chance yet of reading any of the parliamentary debate, but I’ll bet there’s some “doit” flying around.
I’m so glad the letter arrived in time to chase away the blues. As you know, I’d write much more often if I was not so blinking busy. I feel very guilty about my correspondence. There is stacks of it waiting to be done but, without giving up what little leisure time I have, there’s no chance of getting the pile down. I feel some relaxation out of doors is more necessary than ever just now and the little golf I have played has done me lots of good. In fact I’m going for 9 holes with Mr Smith and Ralph tonight. The Smiths, by the way, never fail to ask after you on the rare occasions I see them these days. I have been neglecting the Grants, too. As soon as I get a free week I’ll see both of them and also get my letters done. Here’s Ralph for me now. Bye for the moment, love.

Thursday
So you got your tomatoes after all? I’m very glad, and although it’s a bit late in the season you should get some fruit from them. Before you buy any other “food” for them, have a good look round to see there is none either on the kitchen shelf or in the garage. I’m not sure whether we used up the packet we bought last year. That dried blood is as good as anything I know of. The white grubs Mrs Reid found on the cauliflower are the grub of the cabbage fly and that is the reason why plants on the soil round the roots should be burned. Otherwise they hatch out into more cabbage fly. If they were as big as you say they must be pretty well advanced. How are the blackcurrants and raspberries progressing? Don’t worry about the cabbage. You’ll probably save quite a lot of them but, if you remember, the savoys did not do awfully well last year, so don’t worry if yours are not too hot.
So little Stanley joins Butlin’s Navy? Well, well! Won’t Audrey be pleased. I can well imagine Mrs Johnson’s feelings towards her. What a comparison between the two of them and, I must admit, Mrs Johnson only voices the feelings of several people on the score of income. What a nice sort of lodger to have. I’ll say this for her: she’s a good picker.
Well, at this point I had to break off and I heard a little thing which made me think I may be home for leave much earlier than we expected. When we drew our new issue of tobacco today the chief told me to leave mine on one side – usually taken as an indication of an early departure for one’s base. Nothing more was said, but it looks to me as if I’m due for a move as they evidently think I’m not so hot. Anyway, if I do go back to my base I’ll probably get leave almost immediately. I can’t make up my mind whether to appeal against it or not. Anyway, don’t say anything to anyone for the moment, but if I do get a move I’ll wire you so as to save you writing letters which may not reach me. If I am going I’ll certainly know by the weekend so you will probably have received this letter before my wire. In other words, if you have received a wire saying “going Devonport today” you’ll know what it is all about. I will feel very disappointed if it is so, after all the work I have put in here, but it looks to me as if they are tightening things up a good deal all round now, judging by the number of people who have gone back from here recently. Almost it looks as if they are not prepared to spend too much time and trouble on people.
Anyway, it may mean that I’ll be home all the sooner. If I do ask to stay on they may push me back still another class! Within the next 24 hours I shall know my fate, so if you don’t receive a wire by Saturday you’ll know the whole thing has only been a scare.
I have started a letter to Michael but if I cannot get one finished to Wendy I won’t enclose it in this letter.
Well, sweet, this is all for now. Look after yourself. I’ll be seeing you one of these fine days.
All my love, angel.
Ever your own,
Arthur X

Jul 021942
 

Thursday
Aberdeen
Dear Michael,
So, Mummy took you and Wendy to New Brighton? I’m so glad and only wish I could have been with you all. When the war is over and I come home to stay perhaps we will all be able to go to New Brighton again as we did once before. Do you remember? Only that time we did not go on the train and see the ships in the docks, did we? I was glad to get your photograph and to see how big you had grown. You will be nearly as big as me by the time I come home. By the time you receive this letter you will have been to New Brighton with Jennifer and I hope you will have a nice day with Grandma and Mrs Garner. I don’t think Jennifer will be able to take the pussy cat Uncle Harold brought her. How are all the seeds in your garden growing? Will there be some of them in flower when I come home? Mummy tells me you have got your bike back. I’m glad because you used to ride it such a lot before it was broken, didn’t you? Thank you for your letter telling me all about New Brighton. I should have said that earlier, shouldn’t I? This is the paper I use when I am at school and I am writing this letter at school, although I really shouldn’t be, but I have worked hard today so I don’t think it really matters a lot, do you? Well, this is all for now. Night night, son, see you some time this summer. Bye for now.
Love from
Daddy

Dear Wendy,
What a nice time you had with Valerie at New Brighton. Mummy tells me you went on ever so many roundabouts and a big thing like a caterpillar. Did you like them all? I hope you did and I think you must have had a nice time from all you say in your letter. Thank you for your letter because I did enjoy reading it. You said you had got Margaret back from the hospital but you didn’t say what had been the matter with her. Perhaps you will tell me when I come home.
I’m glad you have a garden again this year. You must see that you water the next lot of mustard and cress more often. Perhaps we will have some when I come home, that is if I have got my teeth by then. You haven’t seen me without my teeth, have you?
Have you been playing out in the sunshine? We have had some lovely warm days in Aberdeen this week and when I go to school I can see from the top of the bus a lot of blue water and miles and miles of sand. More than there is on our shore. And every time I see it I wish I was at home so that I could go and have tea on the shore with Mummy and Wendy and Michael just like we used to do. Do you remember? Never mind, it won’t be long before I’m home now and then perhaps we will have tea on the shore again.
Well, Wendy, I must stop writing now and post this letter. Night night, love. See you soon, I hope.
Love from
Daddy

Jul 031942
 

Friday
On the train
Dearest,
If your experience on the train was anything like this, I’m sorry for you. We’re near Edinburgh at the moment and there are some people who have been standing since we left Aberdeen. In the same compartment as us is a woman with two little girls, one about a year younger than Michael and the other about Wendy’s age.
Saturday
At that point I had to stop for the younger child kept banging my elbow and an hour later I was persuading the other to go to sleep on my knees. This woman had the heart of a lion taking both children on her own to Dover from Aberdeen. Her husband is billeted there and they are staying three months – all the holiday. Not what I would call a health resort and by no means a wise journey these days for some people had to stand all the way from Aberdeen to King’s Cross – just 14 hours! I wired Jack and Dot telling them the time I’d be there but I didn’t see either of them at the station, which was a pity for we were in London from 8am to 1.30 and out of that time I could have wangled a couple of hours.
About this sudden change. Evidently there is a new ruling that unless you are sure to get through in 20 weeks at the most you have to be sent back to your base for re-drafting. I shouldn’t say anything to anyone yet if you can help it because I may be home soon, but if you find things difficult, just say I’m going to Devonport for another course. With anything like luck I should be home by next week, which brings us to an important point – what about vapours? I didn’t receive a letter from you on Friday before I left so there may have been a reference to it in that. Whatever else you do, for God’s sake don’t have vapours while I’m home. That would ruin things.
This, as you will guess, is also being written on the train, this time the 1.30 from Paddington to Plymouth – a mere five-and-a-half hours! Just a few minutes ago, incidentally, we passed through Reading. We did a good wangle at Paddington by getting the R.T.O. to give us labels “Reserved for Naval Party” for two carriages, which was pretty good going as there were originally only seven of us in the party, but a few more sailors came along and were glad of a seat in such crowded trains. One of them is a C.P.O. just back from three-and-a-half years foreign service and he is on his way to Plymouth to be married. He’s what you’d call a real sailor – does he hate the Yanks!

Sunday 5 July
Devonport
Yes, eventually we made it after 26 hours travelling. I had the big thrill (?) of slinging my hammock and sleeping in it for the first time – and was I ready for it! I’m told the barracks gets a bad name, but so far it hasn’t been too bad from the point of view of discipline but comfort is almost non-existent. We sling our hammocks from iron bars in the “mess” and theoretically they are supposed to be lashed and stored by 7am but they are not very keen on that. Breakfast is 8–9, dinner 11.30 to 12.30, and tea 3.30–4.30. Supper at 6.30–7.30. The great snag is that there is nowhere to put your clothes at night, the prevailing custom being to make a pillow of them.
Still, as I suppose this is the general idea on board ship I suppose it’s better to serve an apprenticeship on dry land. Feeding is rather tough and the grub not anything to be compared with Skegness or private billets. Life seems to be taken fairly easily here and I haven’t seen very much of the stern discipline of which we have heard so much.
So far today we have done very little. Breakfast and then into the office to have our particulars taken down, then on to the doctor and the dentist, which meant we missed church. The dentist is sending up to Aberdeen for my dentures which I tried in there on Friday morning just before I came away. They have to be altered because something was wrong with the bite.
We have made inquiries about leave and we are told nothing can be done until after we have seen the Training Commander tomorrow and settled just what course we will have to take now. The odds seem to be all in favour of coding according to several tels who are here and have been fixed up for that course. There is no telling where we will go for training yet so I can’t give you any definite news except that leave in the near future seems pretty certain. It may be in a week, it may be less, it may be in a fortnight, but if it is going to be that long I’ll let you know. My address here is O/Tel AJ O/Jx342517, Mess E100 T.D., R.N. Barracks, Devonport.
I have made arrangements with Percy to forward any letters which may come for me, so will you keep them until I come home? He is also going to send you the towels and serge and one or two small items and also my oscillator.
I think that’s about all the news at the moment, except of course that I’m still in love with you. So get the evidence in good trim for we’ll need it, providing you arrange vapours intelligently, so I’m relying on you.
Somehow this letter “feels” strange but, for that matter so do I! I’m not fully conscious yet, although I may feel better when I get another night’s decent sleep. Bye for now, love.
All my love, angel.
Ever your
Arthur X

Jul 041942
 

Saturday
Aberdeen
Dear Stella,
Here are a few odds and ends that Johnny asked me to send on, also a letter which I found in this box.
Well, no doubt by now you have had a “13 pager” from Johnny giving you all the low down. Rough luck, isn’t it? Especially after the work he has put in. However, I guess there is a Divinity that shapes our ends, etc, even if it is only the C.P.O. at Torry! But seriously Stella, we were all very sorry when Johnny left, for he was, as a Yorkshireman remarked, “a comical little beggar”, and as far as I was concerned, an excellent billet companion. We have thought of him several times today, and also last night I was thinking of him on that beastly train journey.
Now Stella, Johnny has got some fool notion about returning the postage etc on this parcel. Well, I shall be offended if he does that, for surely when two chaps have spent five months of their lives together, a few coppers will not insult one, or make a pauper of the other, so tell him to buy himself a pint “on me” with the postage. Thanks very much.
Well, I guess there is not much news and if I come across anything else, it shall be forwarded to you at once.
I hope the nippers are keeping fit and that you yourself are well and enjoy yourself during Johnny’s leave.
Cheerio, all the best.
Yours sincerely,
Percy Faulkner

P.S. As soon as I get Johnny’s watch I will send it to you, unless of course I receive orders to the contrary.